There's only one way...

Me oh my.
Dan and I hit some rocky roads about a month or so before I came out to Ohio for spring break. He basically told me that because of the distance, we couldn't be together because we couldn't see each other as often as we used to. About a week before I came out, he apologized and told me he was so wrong in his decision. During the time I was out, I fell in love with him again. But because I was so incredibly depressed and confused when he let me down, I fell into a habit of flirting and chasing after this other boy.
And hes cute. And he knows a previous ex. And he knows a lot of the solon crew. But its getting to the point where I can't stop myself from flirting. I realize 'flirting' in of itself doesn't really count as cheating, but it tends to lead to the act. And I'm not okay with that. I'm not okay that I'm constantly catching myself in this little guilty pleasure of flirting and sometimes going out drinking with this boy. I'm not okay with it because I know if Dan were immediately available to me, like this new boy is, there would not be a void.
So I've never cheated on any of my boyfriends (okay...nick, but thats because he treated me like garbage and one of his friends did not) and I certainly don't plan to start now. But I can't seem to rid this habit! This is me we are talking about. Me and Dan! I LOVE DAN. But then why is Bryan creeping into the space? Why am I allowing it? I certainly believe that feeling good is not wrong. But feeling good should not come with guilt (generally an icky feeling). So how do I balance this and make it okay? I feel like I'm hiding something. Keeping a secret that is silently rotting my soul.