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Wednesday, July 21, 2010 7:23:07 PM

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Dao, Nong Huk,

Thank you so much that you spent your value time to write a long message to me, it brings me both happiness and sadness. It’s the first time I get this one from you and it seems the last one either.

Honey,
Why the God gives me a love not fair
why the great nature makes me fail
why the world change the heaven to hell
as was in jail of my broken heart.

I do not blame anyone at all
I blame only time my own
several years past that I hold
because someone told me wait for you today and here.

I do not hurry to say good bye
I also say not good luck and cry
those mean shutting down the door for why
Love is shine in heart of yours and mine.

Of course, I’m very warm welcome you to here, not only me, but all of our community also. As you are our new membership, what can I help and do for you, please let me know. Like myself, when I moved to somewhere and I used to receive friendship from someone, it made me feel not lonely and fell good to fill energy to earning for living.

How are you doing over here for a month? Do you like to live in here, Wichita is a small town and does not civilize like the place you moved from, also climate is not beautiful neither, it might cold than over there, causing you cold, fever and sick, please keep warm your body up and take care yourself.

For me, I’m o.k. alone, same I am, just a minor sick, get cold and fever (pen cai vaat) for whole week long, hope better in next week and my holiday is coming next Friday through the new year. I might worse more when I got the message from you (pen cai jai).

As you are a new coming person to my area, I would like to honor you with lunch or dinner to thanks for coming, anytime and anywhere when you available or any buffet easy to eat and talk, I hope when we have an opportunity to meet and talk to each other, make we understand more between both of us. I know you shy to go to eat out side with me, you might need someone to be your babysit, go a head get your sister with you, I always trust her, when she and you ready, let me know, ok?.

This holiday I have whole week off, plus weekend total 10 days off. Fri 24 to Sun 2, so I already set up some schedule for us, this schedule I prepared before I got your message, so I cannot cancel it, please give your time for me, Christmas Eve Friday 24 afternoon at uncle Phay and aunt Oun’s house (close your house), Christmas day Sat. 25 evening at my step sister’s house (close my house, SW Wichita), new year eve fri. 31 evening at my friend house (close your house). For my house, I’m waiting on you to move in whenever you ready. The my friend house for the New Year eve party, you can get someone with you if you shy to go out alone with me, I already told them that this year I will surprise them by somebody because every year only myself the single one that joined with them, but all they have spouse couple, they are some Thai with Viet, White families.

Over couple weeks ago, when my mom came back from visiting Moung Sing, I told her for a good news that she might lucky to have a DhaiLue daughter in law who just moved from CA. I saw her smile happily and said “great! For next I won’t worry you any more….”. I also prepared a new name for you too, Anudhida (pronounce.. A Nu Ti Da), this is a good name, it is Pali or Dhamma language, A Nu = means youngest one, after, final, small or lastest, Dhi Da = means daughter = Look Sao Laa in DhaiLue dialect. All these matters that I prepared, set up and happened before I get your message… how can I change it? No way, and nobody can help me to solve this trouble situation, only yourself honey!.

Other day on this holiday, I will work on tile to floor in my house, in kitchen, dining room, bath room both up and down stair and furnace room in down stair, too much work, but I have to prepare for someone who will move in soon. This summer passed I already done some remodel inside and down stair, some sheet rock, texture or knock down the wall and ceiling, in the house is empty, simple life, wait on you to picking up some furniture, choose favor color you like and match on that, how to decorate what way you want … My house is a small one, 2 Bedroom up and 1 Bedroom down, 2 bathroom and full basement, but huge enough for me as a single man, it might fit for a spouse couple and 1 or 2 kid. For my mom, she lives with my brother, SE. Wichita.

Honey, do you apply any job yet? If you interest job at my work place, try to post your resume in, company name is Spirit Aerosystems… website is http://www.spiritaero.com , but for the first apply, you have to go to a web site …http://makeitfly.aero/jobs_home.html . One thing you should know that you have to build your resume in their way, seehttp://makeitfly.aero/images/sample_resume.pdf, this company is very picky about it, they do not accept a difference resume style. You can select any office job in Wichita location from the list in there. If any job name.. Manufacturing or M…(with number)… that means assembly, mechanic, dirty job and hard work on shop/floor for man, I do not want you to work like my job, I want you try any other office job if you interest. You can put my name to your resume for reference if you want, I’ll give you of my information later. Your brother in law can apply in any job name is … manufacturing…composite … m.. (follow with number)… too if he interest, he has experience on that. For all aircraft company in here, only this one is a little bit better for now( job and benefit).

How about your mom, did she move here with you too, if she did, both of you get to change ID to KS yet, some the ID offices near your house, at NE. Woodlawn and 21st, East in Andover and other one South in Derby, do not go to in downtown, long line to wait. And how about her benefit, you can get information from Social & Rehabilitation Services 230 E William St # B146 Wichita, KS 67202-4021 (316) 337-6314, www.srs.ks.gov for her food stamp and Kansas Medicaid, this place is in downtown, not comfortable for car parking. And Social Security Administration 3207 North Cypress Drive Wichita, KS 67226 (866) 931-9173, www.ssa.gov for her SSI and Medicare (NE. Wichita by Webb and 32nd ST).

Back to my sad story, I do not blame anybody at the airport that morning, I know that I appeared myself there without nobody invite and order on me. One thing I saw, a little girl was pushing wheelchairs, when I pushed it follow you up to walkway to the security check counter, you tried to push it and used one of your leg blocked the wheel for it does not run backward, by that time, a lot thing was imagining in my mind about you, you are not a regular girl, you know how to take care senior people, that is the first thing made me impressive you, after you guy passed the security check, I could not imagine that how could you take care two wheelchairs on the way home. I just felt lonely when you was leaved without say nothing to me and did not turn your face to look back at me while you are leaving and gone …. I was driving home with thousand questions for myself, what I’m doing wrong and made me confuse myself???? But now I know you were in rushing hour and busy. And I know that I acted too much rude, bad and over with you in public and crowd people place, I bothered, threatened, vexed and sexual harassment you, I made you damage by my stupid acted, dummy performance and lose control. Please forgive me, I apologize to your family too and I would like to thank for they were tried to let me to get reaching you but now I just know they and I were played only single side without joining from your side.

Other my story about you, several years ago, at a night party, after I got your sister dance (Lum vong) with me, your brother in law said to me that they have a sister in CA. and she just finished college, do I interest her, by that time I had no any idea yet, I kept quiet and said thank you back to them. Couple years later at the temple, When I say hi to your sister, She told me that her sister, Dao, was there, get to say hi her. I’m a shy man same you are. When I asked Vanh who you are, Phet and she leaded me direct to you, while that time you were eating under the tree, when I say hi you, you said you want go to rest room, then you never back to the same place. It was my first failure. I remember that I got a second opportunity to interview and took video you in minutes later.

Sometime, your sister used to tell me to say hi to your dad, I scare and shy too, but I kept in my mind and will do later when I ready and the time coming up to me, so why I wait and wait…. May be senior people might thought I’m a bad boy, not lovely man and not know how to respect the old people.

At the Sengkham’s party, It was seem all your family cheered me to you, or they drunk?, some said, brother! try to get her(you) come to dance, some said he will call your and my name on microphone to appear at front of the floor to dance (for our turn to lead to dance), I said please do not do that, if they call your name for me to dance, but you do not appear at the floor, It’s more worse and I do not know how to hide my face, so I said back to them, don not worry, I will try get you to dance by myself. And our lovely niece, Sengkham, when I dance with her, she asked me, do I like her aunt? and also told me to get you to dance, I told her, honey ! I do not know, please ask her. Oh my baby! so why you felt I flirt on you.

Please do not get mad me that I said you aren’t same your sister, only one point that different, she talk, but you do not talk, I know you shy. Your niece, Sengkham, talk and lovely voice too (Sobe Mode, Sobe Gieng… in DhiaLue dialect). the problem occurred to us, we miscommunicate and misunderstanding, Sometime we have to talk for understanding to each other and make people feel we are friendly and nice to the other, nothing bad, lose and damage, honey!. Having time to hang out and dating to learn to know each other.

I do not need a perfect woman, but I need a good woman to be my wife, to be my kid’s mom, to be my mom when I fell like baby, to be my housewife, to be my sister, to be my daughter, to be my teacher, to be my friend and whatever she can be all in my life. I think women need man in the same way I do.

“ Khon ja ngaam, ngaam num jai, bor man bai naa
Khon ja dee, dee gi ri ya, bor man taa vaan
Khon ja geng, geng khouam hoo, bor man yoo lai vanh
Khon ja haang, haang num jai, bor sai yai tea houane.”

I try to get you meaning in English :

“a beautiful person, see from of mind and kindness, not only her /his face,
a nice person, see from doing and performance, not only sweet eye,
a good at person, see from wisdom and ability, not only long years stay,
a rich or millionaire person, see from loving-kindness, compassion and friendliness, not only huge house and high cost of brand name car.”

I heard some about you, people said you are a good girl. I try to see, want to see, need to see and try to discovery and find out that who you are and how you are. Right, we are not kids, not teenagers and not adults neither, but both of us get old already, honey. We do not know how long we can live and still have breathing to see this world, or you'll wait until you retire and sit in wheelchair, then you'll started to get marry and have baby?.

I think we can join two things to combine together, you grow up in here, you know well in here, but you were raised up by your parent in DhaiLue family, you have both sides in good thing. I grow up in Laos and was in middle age of my life in Bangkok, I know something well from there, including, culture, Dhamma (Buddhist), tradition, and we can choose positive thing, creative thing, good way and useful matter to combine and apply together, our family might be great, that’s mean we will have a happiness whatever we are, not measure with money, build our family up, take care our kid to be a good person and support them to success in their live, that is the deal. I’m not a obsolete person, I try to update improve myself, but I can apply and modify both old culture(some tin good thing) and new modern technology in what I know and got experience together for my personal way in the Art of Living, but I’m not a special one, just a normal and simple man.

Dao, Nong huk, I both would like to say and have to say… congratulation to you, well! Who is the lucky man is in your heart that you mention, and how lucky he is, when your special day coming up, what you think I can help you please point at to me, if you held your wedding party faraway from here I might feel lonely to go for help and join with you guy, I have to have a happiest as you are my lovely sister successful and get hopeful in love.

Do not worry about me, I will not bother, flirt, act to you anymore, you are free whatever you want, this world is shining and brighten for you who is full in love and happy face, much thing I can do, move away and leave the way for you, then hide myself in the dark world.

This is a longest letter in the world that a man writ to a woman, it might be putted in Guinness book of world records. I know it makes you boring and bother you, and sorry about that. I hope to hear any feedback from you that means our friendship is keep it going on.

Ps. this is my English style, might misspelling, not good in sentence, tense, order words and idioms, I hope you can get the point what I’m saying and what I want to say for better communicate between two of our hearts.

With love, Duss Manis
12/16/2010, 5:00 pm
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