Hidden thoughts

Um blankness circles my mind,back and forth my thoughts run,could they be whats causing these headaches am experiencing uh!. . .i pose in mind as i view my own thoughts and emotions going on in this thing called the body,i look at my emotions and what i see scares me as they seem to be on lock down and the lock seems tighter,eish just when i thought i had unlocked them abit guess they have an automatic shut down button that would explain alot to even i the holder of them.umm am beginning to see that they will never be opened but i hear a voice telling me "its all up to u Lala,only you can know what happened, why are they on lock down again" i shake my head because i to don't know what happened can't explain something i don't know for i would be a false witness to my own being. .Err this is were i say hey only God Knows,yeah only he knows, funny thing is i seem to be content with my emotions on lock down but again am telling myself Lala you are taking the Coward mans out,i chuckle well for now i wear that title for its not always i can be brave. . . . .cheers to being a coward as i try to settle in it as my emotions go into rehab of being sorted and unlocked