emmies poems

i miss you
wish you were here
with me now
i miss your voice
i see you everywhere
i wont to forget you
but i cant
your my everything
with out you ever being mine
you made me feel like i ment something
not another peace of shit like the rest of these dummbaggs
i wanted to tell
tell you that i love you
but its too late
your gone
ill never see you again
maybe one day
we will met
and then
then i can tell you what ive never told anyone before
i love you
you know who you are...
my poems grow bad
as i grow farther from you
i miss you my love
the love ill never have

life is like a black hole
once you get in you cant get out
your there for eturnity
just waiting
waiting for something to happen
you dont know what
and you dont know if it will come
but still you wait...
death
is the rescue team that coms to save you
it takes you with both hands
then lets you see the light
then finally
peace
lifes short
so lets make it shorter
get the pain away
with blood and tears
bring ourselfs down and show no fear
life is hell
when they say its heaven
the place we want to go
heaven
to be away from this black thing
draped over ourselfs then...
fly

its me
long shaggy blackish hair
with bangs too long to care
thats me
nails bittin down to the quick
with a slash of black across the tip
guess what thats me
i cross my lags when i sit
and flick you off
and dont even think
you say im crazy
you say im insain
well i say
i dont give a fuck at what the hell you say!!

another damn poem
thats what this is
i promused myself ill stop
these mean nothing
just words on paper
just words
they mean nothing
and the said thing is
i have nothing to say
nothing new to tell
no new story to share
all my good ones are old ones
my old ones gone
read and put down
througn away
pushed away
what good do these do?
to help no one but i
nothing but a glare in the eye
and everything is nothing
these poems
and i

im on the way home
but am i ever home
no
home is the place where
you feel safe
a place where
its understanding
sometimes i dont feel that
i wish to be somewhere else
i dont know where
but somewhere
to be with him
ill be happy with him
i wish he knew
to be with him
one more time
to talk with him
one more time
just to hear his voice again
will make me better
cause with him
im home

useless
thats one word about me
pitfull
wow look theres another
with those two words
it describes my life
useless and pitfull
wouldnt you aggree?
i dont mean anything
to anything
or anyone
im an empty shell
wondering this earth
scarred and alone
waiting for someone to find me
to save me
are you that person?
no
your not
help
i screamed
but no one comes
thats ok though
im used to it
living life
alone

its amazing
i still remember every seconed
the way you walked
the way you talked
i think i ever heard you cry
you were the best
and did the rest
the rest i never know anyone did
you made me feel
feel for you
something ive never done before
i miss you
i really do
i should forget you
but the memory of you is still with me
with me in my heart
its ingraved there
ill never forget you
i hope we met agean
and i hope then
ill have the courage to say
to say right to your face
the same thing i think you wanted to say too is
i love you

out of the blue
i see you
by yourself
i wonder if you reamember me?
the short talkitive one
i called you not to long ago
but you never anwsered
im glad you didnt
cause i have nothing to say
but i like you
and always will
i write this poem for you
one youll never read
and if you do
i do hope you feel the
same way i do
oh i hope you do
cause im tired of writing these
love poems
that just sit here on the shelf
that are meanless to anyone
but me
i hope im not meanless to you
but i am

theres a dance tonight
im not going of course
no date
cant dance
whats the point
no fun
thats what they say
i am
well sorry
i guess i am
didnt know it mattered
to you
stop asking
everyone cant wait
i want it to end
to let people stop talking
i know what i'll do
i'll sit at home
in a dress
eating cookies
watching movies
would it matter?
i think not
what does it matter to you
what i do?

friends
l losed three
they keep showing
in my dreams
why you ask?
i dont know
theres three
johnny
tiffany
jared
one got a message
two got notes
but they all had the same message
in one way or another
it was
tell me if you still want to be friends
you pick
in other words
no one anwsered
ive losed three friends
three best friends
three friends i'll never get back
three friends i want back
three friends who meaned the world to me
but i guess i never ment anything to them
i dont mean anything to anyone
good-bye everyone
these poems mean nothing
i mean nothing
jared helped me see that
thanks kid
i see clearly now
this life is meaning less
whats the point?
there isnt one
so good-bye
your all better off
without me
those three are

that fucking bastered
he said he never turned that note in
but i know thats a lie
he acts all inacently
but i really see
see him for what he is
words cant say it
but one thing i can say
jared is
no friend of me

i put my finger to my mouth
i bend over
the relefe lasts for a second
but that second is all i need
all the pain stops for once
just for a sec
i know what im doing is wrong
that i shouldnt be doing this
there are better ways then this
but once you started
theres no stoping
but i will
days go by
weeks
mounths
but its still there
it always will be
like the devil on your sholder
telling you
one more time wont hurt you
but it does
in the long run
it tares you from the inside
its worst then any druge
cause anyone can do it
i wish it would leave me alone
im loseing it
i keep doing it
make it stop
please
i cant take it a

hes such a basterd!
i dont know why i liked him!
he tells me to call him
call him at three
but he doesnt anwser!
.............................
he just called
wanting an anwer for my colorful message i left him
i said hello
heard his voice
then i hung up on him
i hate him
im confused too
help me
hes calling agean
i dont know why
help me
god
help me

i saw him today
he said
hey you
i almost died
all i have to say is
im in love
i know im young
and hes three years older
i dont have a crush
that would be talking miledly
im in love
and he'll never know
i hate being in love
it takes over you
i want him never to know
mike please never find out
out on how i feel about you
but i love you

what am i to do
nothing i do seams right
i feel like i might get sick
but ive played that card
too much
it no longer works
i cant belivie im writing
this all down
i dont know why
but it was something someone told me
something i cant forget
i havnt known her long
but i trust her with all my heart
and feel like ive known her forever
in the short amount of time
we hang
shes changed my life
and its true
shes smart
and her own person
someone i wish i was
i dont know anyone like her
she told me to write storys
she told me to write poetry
well i dont know what the hell im writing
but i hope its close
these are the first things to come to me
but i just wanted to say
thanks
thanks to hanna

sometimes i want to
give up on everything
but i would disapont
my loved ones
i pray to god
to help me
i hope he hears
when i look out the window
i see everything
then i think of how
it would feel
for him
to love me
for me
to love myself
but so many others love
me
i need to learn from them
but i cant
why cant i?
i dont want to pretend to be someone im not
anymore