emmies poems

my life is going down the drane
i cant help or get the pain away
no matter how hard i try
no matter how i pray
it comes back stronger then ever
i see you
i want you
i need you
but who am i to choose?
ill just sit here and watch
like ive been doing my whole life
while other people get you
life is pain
pain is life
once you start you cant quite
but whats the use?
another habbit will form in its place
maybe one worse then the last
well im by myself
i think of you
and when i do
it makes me wonder
did we ever have a chance?
if i wasnt who i was...