Another boring update of my life =D

Monday, 2. July 2007, 06:11:53

ok I haven't wrote anything in a long time...so, here's the latest things. I've been down, I've been sad, I've been studying like a freaking slave xD I think I'm gonna end soon, I hope coz half of this semester I didn't do much, mmmm what else? I've changed a little bit, I'm though, just a bit stronger, people ain't that important for me now, I'm more specific with my words, I don't care if I hurt feelings this time, ermm actually I think these past years I've changed a lot but in short periods of time, I feel more comfortable with this version of me, is less pathetic and whiner, less clumsey, less naive, less dramatic, but still a bit happy and with the same sense of humor as alwayz, just less social, maybe a bit nostalgyc...so yeah that's what happened lately.

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Comments

sounds like you're turning into a loner....??

By SolidD, # 3. July 2007, 21:04:46

awwwwww babe try to think that beyond all those problems and things you have to deal with there's one person who truly loves you , who cares for you with whole heart and would do anything to keep you smiling in the way you have until now . ♥

By Netizka, # 4. July 2007, 15:56:32

You are a strong girl...then you will survive many upcoming things...

By MizzMartinez, # 6. July 2007, 11:38:46

think you are going to conffused

By dodlasri, # 9. July 2007, 06:04:13

Please don't take this offensively, I just think this might help because it helped me a bit when I was in a similar (albeit less intense) situation.

I've been through some of your blogs and hear this poor girl in poetic and dramatic methods crying out for help. Because I dont know you personally obviously you dont have to listen to this. But if you ever hope to lift this... dusk and depression from your shoulders you're going to have to acknowledge a number of things and use them to help yourself.

It seems from you home life and day-to-day methodology that its draining any energy from you and possibly a primary cause of this depression. The fact that your a student makes a perfect advocate of it all too, seeing as we're all growing up and generally finding stones to step on to shape new lives after leaving school. I think i saw modelling as part of your career, no surprises here. It matches as a textbook example because you seem to at lest, feel pressured and alone.

These are all just small observations but I hoenstly know ALOT of how you feel, and the points I just highlighted COULD be the reason why you act the way you do - such as feeling the need for stubborn independence, constant changes in opinion and mood, etc

The constant changes are usually a result of bodily functions, such as a loss of sleep which just spirals out of control, a lack of social conduct, a lack of affection (dont confuse this with attention and simple convesations with other people) - the bottom line is you'll not be happy until you find a purpose in life, or a challenge, or maybe even something more emotional such as genuine love from a friend or gesture from a family member.

OMW sorry for writing so much but thats just an observation in a nutshell because your blogs tend to give me this theory that you have no where else to turn and quite frankly its very difficult to be loved etc when your personality is this stubborn, independent, TOUGH dynamic.

Like I said I had alot of the same symtoms, and this is just an observation and quick analysis - so dont execute me lol Im just hoping I can help because you're obviously an intelligent person with mountains of potential and ALOT of heart. With those kind of characteristics you'll get SO far in life, and remember there are over 6 Billion people on this earth ~ call me crazy but I think that's a good arguement to say none of us were meant to fight this life and live it alone.

Tom x

By Tom_Kwok, # 11. July 2007, 01:16:05