Diana's world

I don't have idea what i'm doing, but i'm temporarely happy i think, became very popular in the last few months, became very attractive for many ppl i guess and i'm conscious now of it, never really saw myself like someone attractive but i realized i am...tho i lost the closest friends i've ever had...built up my protection shield but...i've lost complete north of my life...where am i going? why? what's gonna be tomorrow? where am i gonna be in 5 years? never been so don't know dreamless...i wanna help tho, to whoever is in my power to help!, brings me satisfaction, other than that, my life passions dreams and goals are kinda forgotten at the moment, dont think i know what i want, but at least now i know what i don't want, don't wanna be a boring engineer working only in function of the money! that's just sad, wanna find something to make me happy, still dont know what it is tho...my mother, my mother drives me crazy, she keeps finding life in work and keeps critizicing ppl who does which is so hypocrite but whatever, i let it be, is her life not mine, i can't be responsible for everyone's life decitions, think i got enough trying to find a way to live my own...anywayz that's pretty much it, found a way to survive again.