Diana's world

Few years ago I could say "there's no such thing as new starts!" But hey, I'm 22 (and in a few days 23), people grow up and have the right to change their minds...2011 came as a year quite different from what I've experimented before, I had some time with myself, and me and I got to work out so many issues and started to create a new version of me, I am not who I used to be but everytime I'm getting closer to be the woman I want to be...Yes! I also said once "We are who we are, people don't change". But the funniest thing about aquarious people is the hability to accept we're wrong and change our minds regarding things, we don't have paradigms, and that's the funniest thing about me, I am down to earth but sometimes I take big steps back and foward, well if you don't want to be going from side to side as a ping pong ball you got to have principles! stick to what you believe and change it if what you believe in turns against you or the people you love, but have fundations! Be able to say NO when is needed and try new things as much as it's possible.

Anywayz I'm having my new brand fresh start and I'm enjoying every minute of it, I'm not trying to convince people that my intentions are pure, they'll see if they pay enough attention and if they don't is not my loss...I've had so many ups and downs in my life that I could write a novel of how many people have broken my heart but if I take a look around...everyone is wounded! that's life, is hard and you got to get the best out of it...sometimes you will feel sad? yes, absolutely, in fact, I have and I still do, I feel sad for what it was and is not anymore, for what it is and it won't be, for what it could have been and for what will never be...for all that my heart feels a deep desolation from time to time and I like to spend those moments to myself alone and meditating...Love taught me something, When I loved and I lost I found out how free I am, not because I'm single but because commitment adquires the meaning you want to give them, if it is handcuffs then let me say is going down! I learnt how to love and be loved, I learnt how to commit and not own, yes OWN, that's the magic word, I don't know what makes us think we can own our partner but we do, jealousy is in out genes...even tho I found the love of my life! the love of my life wasn't meant to be my partner in life, guess I keep the hope of growing old looking at those beautiful green eyes, but don't we all live off dreams?...love is for people who can be realistic and smart enough to open their hearts and minds to the posibility that is not always perfect and it doesn't mean it has to stop, also love is for those who find their other half based on realistic expectations more than romatic ideals (but what would love be without the madness of love?)

Too much about love, my main point is, I will always love those green eyes, but i'm ready to find my realistic partner for life...I'm in love with love! and willing to be the best of myself i can be! I passed the page in life's book and i chose to be happy, i chose to live and love

Te busco perdida entre sueños, el ruido de la gente te envuelven en un velo
Te busco volando en el cielo, el viento te ha llevado como un pañuelo viejo
Y no hago más que rebuscar paisajes conocidos en lugares tan extraños que no puedo dar contigo! <3

And all your love I'll take to the grave!!