Solitaire

I'm now an authentic richmonder. Hooray.

Getting used to moving out has been simple. The hardest thing, and I think this will never change for me, is probably my inability to feel comfortable around anyone my age. It wasn't this way when I was in school; I'm not sure what happened, but I have no real common experience with any of them anymore. No real common activities, either. Try going crazy when you turn 20, and recovering from it and getting to where you're mentally healthier than the average individual (except regarding social awkwardness) Attempts to get people out of their modern society tech/game cocoons are pretty useless, as far as I can tell. Thus far. A big part of this was the annoying fact that nobody my age was still at home. Or in the neighborhood nearby.

I'm not sure how often i'm going to be posting here, anymore. I can't seem to maintain a blog really. Maybe I'll just check in on other people's blogs.

As for art, i've been in a slump, and I think the main reason why is i've been in a sort of phase where I integrate some new beliefs and practices. Spiritual turmoil kinda blocking my creative energy or somesuch. Which is private, mostly.

So, not much to talk about. I go through phases of major indecision and general waffling where i'm totally unproductive in my free time. This is one of them, and it's been ongoing since I started my new job.

I did decide to focus on writing primarily. To put drawing and painting aside, which I really want to do but have nowhere near the skill level, until I'm financially better off. I've been writing as long as I've had opinions of a political nature. I'm rusty as hell with it, but i'm still better at it. It makes more sense. There's no way I would've been able to juggle all of them. I'm immersed in books anyway, it's just a matter of reading and thinking and writing what comes to mind.

Well, perhaps i'll have an essay or two to come out of it all. If I write anything that'll fit here nicely, I'll post it here. Ta ta.