Sunday, May 9, 2010 3:28:17 PM
poem, alpofish, alpo, poet
I'm not some blanket you add to the bed on a cold night
I've been down this avenue before and it never ends right
If you want something to cuddle with, buy a teddy bear
Because I won't be the man you call when you want to care
Short and to the point, this work is mine do not use
Friday, March 19, 2010 12:17:43 PM
poem, poetry, songs, alpo
...
Tears fall from the sky
They drown the love you once felt
The sun comes up and you begin to melt
Pick yourself up
Put on a smile
Buy an umbrella, stay dry for awhile
If you're riding to high
With your head in the clouds, don't forget
That's where the rain likes to sit
So pay attention to
The wind and rain
Or one of these days
You'll wash down the drain.
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Something I did before work...meh *shrugs* The photo is me in a modeling show being Frank Sinatra. It's an older picture when I was about 18 or 19...I was singing "Love and Marriage." I wore a wig but the Martini is real. GIN!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010 11:45:09 PM
song, poem, alpofish, alpo
...
It's a sin, it's a shame
We drank that poison yesterday
Like so many times before
We cursed the world and held each other tight
As we stumbled home last night
Secrets, secrets, tell me yours
I told you mine now tell me yours
Like so many times before
We cursed the world and held each other tight
As we stumbled home last night
We laughed aloud as lovers do
We shared the heaven, stars, and moon
I think we parted a little too soon
Like so many times before.
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Warm fuzzies
Wednesday, February 24, 2010 7:42:21 AM
poem, alpofish, alpo, poetry
...
You used to ride high up
Upon your hill
But now tears drown you
Try to understand
I"m doing the best I can
I'm happy with myself
But I hate everyone else
Can't trust, don't want to hurt
Hold me anytime
Bring comfort to my complex mind
I've built the best defense
Upon unstable ground
I'd like to cry
When there's no one around
It kills me that I can't
I'm happy with myself
But I hate everyone else
Between judgmental stares
And condemning minds
A hatred grows
So why should I care?
You can try and try
And try some more
And get to nowhere
Life is not fair.
This work is all my own, don't use it.
I was stood up again, ouch.
I'm gonna hate this in the morning.
Friday, February 5, 2010 9:23:22 PM
birdies, alpofish, alpo
There is a bird that cries today
Adding it's tears to the summer's rain
It wants to fly but it broke it's wing
The wind will whisper it's songs of pain
There is a bird trapped inside a cage
Full of fear in an unknown place
A single tear runs down it's face
Crying out to be saved
There is a bird in a sky of gray
Drifting further and further away
About to become another's prey
To far away to be saved.
This work is all mine, don't use it in anyway.
We're all just little birds trying to find our way, yes? Some birds are in a cage, some birds are prey. Just little birdies trying to find our way.
Friday, February 5, 2010 4:56:34 AM
poem, alpofish, alpo, poetry
I'm gonna take your girl
With the words you never say
I know you'll blame it on me
But I'm taking her anyway
The only thing she needed
Was what you never had
I can hear you cry
But I've never been so glad
I've never been so glad
Lost in your confusion
You hide with-in yourself
Me and her are happy
So you can go to hell
Color me any color
Speak of me what you will
I got what I wanted
He got stuck with the bill
How do we end a story
That causes so much pain
She lives ever-after
While you're caught out in the rain
In the rain
In the rain
This work is all my own, don't use it in anyway or form!!!!!
Saturday, January 30, 2010 7:34:02 AM
poem, alpo, unidentified answers, poetry
I've tried to stretch myself between two lines
One is of patience, the other of time
I've always said, "Someday I'll snap."
In days ahead, I'll do just that
Sometimes life must be unkind
To teach it's lessons to the blind
Eyes wide open but unable to find
What can help this bleeding heart and fragile mind
I've gone a great distance, maybe to far,
To suppress my emotions and conceal the scars
My anxiety stems off of trust
Afraid of commitment, I long for the love
Sometimes life must be unkind
To teach it's lessons to the blind
Eyes wide open but unable to find
What can help this bleeding heart and fragile mind
This is all mine, don't use it in anyway.
Thursday, January 21, 2010 2:22:39 AM
alpo, alpofish
"What do you want?!", she said sharply as I stared blankly into the distance.
"I don't even know anymore.", I replied as I shook my head. There was a long silence but it didn't seem to bother me, I was focused on the sunset. The sun must be an artist, I thought. It mixes colors so well. If I stare too long, it's as though I'm in a dream. With a sigh, the silence was broken and I simply walked away.
"Where are you going?", she asked with wonder.
"Anywhere... at this point it just doesn't matter." I replied with out looking back. I walked, hoping that someday I'd walk right into the sun. I assume that it has the warmest embrace.
Saturday, January 9, 2010 9:50:46 AM
alpofish, alpo
My buddy Needles and I waltz out of a bar tonight and I hear a lady talking on her phone....she says, "It's really that much?!" I do believe she's trying to call a taxi! So, me being the super nice guy I am, ask her if she's heading towards Eau Claire (that's the direction we're heading). She says yes and gladly accepts the ride as she starts to hop in the car. Right up until her friends get wind and pull her out of the car. They proceed to open my door and yell at me. I tell them that it wasn't like I'm going to rape her, I was just simply offering a lift. A few seconds of yelling and someone lays there hands on me...I don't take that very kindly. I've been beat up most my life and now that I'm old enough to where I WILL fight back, when someone touches me, I freak out.
I grab whoever touched me and we start to push and pull each other around, nothing too dramatic. Right when I started to get the upper hand in the "argument", his buddies jump in. So now it's three people grabbing me...obviously I'm out numbered, again. So I say, "WHOA, hold on! Hold on a second, stop, stop. There's three of you fighting me here!" They all, immediately, let go of me! I couldn't believe that worked! So anyway, they're all yelling at me for offering this girl a ride. Honestly, I was trying to save her some dough. She was very pretty but I am way to kind to do anything.
So they're yelling and I'm saying, "Can I say something?" I repeat this until they shut up enough for me to talk. I turn to the girl I offered the ride to and said, "I'm sorry, I was just trying to be nice. I didn't mean for any of this to happen." This sends the others into an uproar of, "Get back in your car man!" and "Just leave". I do as I'm told after one more sorry and get in the car (don't worry, I'm not driving!). We start to drive away and the girl whom I offered a ride to, waves us down. We stop and see what she wants. The whole group walks over as she's apologizing to us. Apparently, one of the guys who grabbed me lost his $200 glasses and they open up the back door and start to search the car!
My buddy yells, "Just don't take my guitar!!!"
One of the guys who grabbed me was talking to me about how "we're cool" and how it was a misunderstanding. Yeah, only because you're out $200 cuz you lost your glasses! I told him, "No, we're not cool because the way you and you're group handle things is bogus and now that you're out a pair of glasses you wanna be friends all of a sudden?! Fuck that!"
After they figured out that the glasses were not in the car, the guy I was talking to instantly turned back into a dick and stormed off after a couple of choice words. The girl who I originally offered a ride to was still apologizing but then left soon after.
I understand that the group was worried about a friend getting a ride with two men that she never met but I would think that the situation could have been handled better. Scuffed up my shirt the sons a bitches! So if you're that girl and you remember all of this, you owe me a drink!
Friday, December 18, 2009 11:23:31 AM
school, poetry, alpo, alpofish
...
Take it one day at a time
But not forever or you'll find
That time will waste away
And leave you for dead one day
L-I-T-E-R-A-L-L-Y
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I applied for college and my car starts acting up
it figures
IF all goes well, I'll be starting school Jan. 1
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 1:09:35 AM
alpofish, alpo, good deed
I'm a guy of values, set in the old ways...I try to do what's right. I've been hurt in the past but who hasn't? Everything that hurt us has made us who we are. Same is true for the things that made us feel good. I have learned what I know (or think I know) not from mentors but from the falls of others, including my self. You touch a stove and it burns, you've learned something. You see the stove again but don't touch it, you've learned a lesson.
A while back a girl I know, and to this day still adore, did something that I misinterpreted. Her relationship was in shambles and she was sending different signals. I want you, I want him, I want you, him, you, him...you get the idea. We've done the dirty before this man and decided it was best not to hook up ourselves even though it would have made me very happy. So the thought of her sending those signals was great.
After a night of dancing and drinking she asks to have sex. A.K.A. the dirty. I said I don't think that it was a good idea. She rolled away from me and wrenched at my heart. Actions speak louder than words and she was screaming at me by just laying there silent.
I felt like shit, just total shit. Here lays the girl that I wish I could marry, wanting to do the dirty with me, ME, not her shithead boyfriend (who is actually pretty cool...as much as I hate that too), not the guy that's hotter than me that was hitting on her all night, me. There she lays, trying to figure out why I turned her down. I could just hear her thoughts haunting me, "What's wrong with me...relationship down the drain and now the guy who's been obsessed with me since 6th grade won't sleep with me?! I'M EVEN DRUNK! ........What am I fat? Not good enough for him anymore?"
She began to speak. I forget what exactly she said, something self deprecating I think. It made me feel shitty terrible, after all, I was the cause of the comment. So I assured her that there was nothing wrong with her and then snuggled up to her, kissed her neck, and began the mating dance.
The next time I saw her I was going to tell her how bad I felt about what had happened and how it happened. I didn't want to be second place...a plan B...a person that you can fall back when you need the love that another can't provide and it felt good to be number one for once. I brought it up like so, "I need to talk to you about what happened last time we saw each other." Before I could explain, she stated that she felt terrible and that it was wrong.
She went on to explain that she is in a relationship and how terrible she was to let this happen, people shouldn't do that kind of thing, ECT. I was devastated, completely torn apart inside. I felt bad because I rejected her offer but now I felt worse that she feels bad because of him, not me. She used me that night for comfort, she new she could fall back on me and she did but now she feels bad because of what she did to him. I would have torn my heart out right there if it wasn't in a million pieces.
I do feel bad about what I did but it was for different reasons then her. I felt bad for her, she felt bad for him, who felt bad for me? NOBODY. Why should anybody, tho? What I did was wrong, I knew she was still in a relationship, why did I do it? Because I was weak. If I would have said no and stuck with it I wouldn't feel terrible and she wouldn't feel bad.
Recently a different girl, whom I am great friends with, put me in a similar situation (little to her knowledge). She has seen some shit in her lifetime and I'm sure will see more. We go out drinking and go back home and she sends all the signals for mating. I evade them. She then sends obvious signals....ones that the kids can even tell something's up. She was in a fragile state at the time, I'm not just talking about being drunk, a fragile state in her life/emotions. She was seeking the same comfort. I turned it down, turned her away, she kissed me and said that she loves a small part of me. It was a very nice thing to hear but I felt like shit.
She went into her bedroom and I crashed on the couch. Maybe she cried, maybe she passed out, I don't know. I lied there on the couch, staring at the wall assuring myself it was for the best. It was a long night for me but in the morning there wasn't too much awkwardness. I wasn't about to let the same thing happen twice, wasn't about to lose this friendship because of one night of reassurance.
So I guess this post is to tell her that it wasn't because I don't like her enough to do the dirty, I just love her enough to not mess up a good thing. As a post about a previous lady, this girl will probably never hear this. I just needed to get it off of my chest.
Saturday, December 12, 2009 5:46:15 PM
alpofish, alpo, black plague, a fitting end
Wrap me in rags, I'm not yours to save
Preserve what's left, exhale the dieing breath
Build me a home where my lifeless body roams
Return me to the Earth, I'm starving to death of thirst
Dig my hole with your hands, like a child plays in the sands
Lower me now but don't cry, it only took eight days for me to die.
This work is allllll mine so don't you try to make money off it, or use it in any way.
I'm watching you...
I stumbled across a comic (
Sample of Comic ^.^ ) I've been reading it for about 3 hours now and I clicked on a link that this person posted and it directed me to some songs. I listened and for some odd reason I thought of the Black Plague. I began to wonder how crappy that must have been so I looked it up on Wikipedia and found out that most people died within the first 8 days of getting sick. I have a hangover today so my mood is kinda blah. It seemed to work out for writing a poem based off the Black Plague...maybe it will be remembered like "Ring around the Rosy" Doubt it tho
Thursday, November 26, 2009 5:48:50 PM
alpofish, alpo, thanksgiving, Firery Furnace Blues
...
Shivering, I woke up, the heat was all gone
I didn't have any money to turn it back on.
I rolled out of bed to wipe my runny nose
The floor was so cold it froze my poor toes!
I tried to jump back in bed but the warmth had left
Even the stuffed animals could see their breath!
I put on my sweater but it was no help
"Turn on the heat ya cheap bastard!", the stuffed animals yelped.
"I can't," I said, "I ran out of cash."
"Well, you'd better think of something and think of it fast!!!"
So now I've got a charity to run,
Please send to: Aaron Hetchler's Fund
2449 Jackson Street Apartment #1
(Please make all checks payable to me!)
Eau Claire, WI. 54703
Thank you for your patronage, your donations will go far!
Straight into the furnace and
not into the bar
This work is all mine, please seek out my permission to use it in any way or form.
Monday, November 23, 2009 1:35:50 AM
alpofish, alpo
No poem this time but thoughts from within! I was recently trying my luck at local watering holes for someone to hold at night but I came up short. This certainly put a damper on my psych! For me to get enough balls to talk to the opposite sex, in the bar, is rare. I don't want to come off as some drunk male that has so much baby juice pent up inside that it's affecting his brain!
So, I try my luck and get shot down. Ouch. This puts me in a self deprecating mood. Luckily, a buddy of mine, Needles, took me to a bar in Chippewa Falls. I stayed sober and people watched. There are so many stupid people in the world I can't even begin to describe. I just think to myself, "What do these useless people posses that I can't provide!?" SO, I will try an alternate route of action...FUCK it.
FUCK it, is a certain way of thinking where you're just fed up with the opposite sex and you refuse to crawl across the floor only to be torn to shreds by somebody that was probably going to screw you in the end. I don't want to meet someone for one night, I want it to last. I don't need to prove anything to anyone and I've decided not to. This may be the wrong way to go about things but right about now, I don't care!
I will continue to go out and people watch but I'll be damned if I'll be one of THOSE people. I'm special damn it so stick that in your pipe and smoke it!
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