dealing with death

lifes abit better now even though i still miss him its been 11 months since dad died i still wake up in the morning brush my teeth and then bam it hits me when i see the picture of us that he is realy gone never will i see his face again nor feel his touch or hear his voice ever and i just break but what makes it worse is that mark had a relapse and i literaly thought i might loose my
brother aswell im a strong cookie but not that strong thank god for blaize hes a great guy realy he is and im glad i found him!