=海滩之贝=

The bell in a nearby church striked again, telling me that I am running late into the night. Finally, it seems, I have adapted the British time here. I am no longer sleepy early in the evening and wake up 4 o'clock in the morning,and I can go through classes with ease now.
One thing troubled me a little though.
I noticed that I haven't blogged in the past 3 days. The New Blog Post tag in my Opera browser was always there, I just simply did not fill it in. What happened?
That lead me to another question. Why do I keep this blog? Who do I keep it for?
The first name comes into my mind is Loku. Lokutus Prime, he encouraged me to go on two years ago; surely I could very well be writing for him.
That perhaps is part of the reason why every time I see Loku's avatar in my blog, I got excited and not a bit sleepy. Simply because I know his name is grantee that I won't be disappointed, that I will learn something new in expressions, vocabulary, grammar, anything.
However, if he doesn't come, will I just simply stop what I am doing and abandon the blog I've kept for two years?
I did exactly that thing last year. Loku disappeared for several months. That time I can't even bring myself to check the subscriptions. As a result, there were generally 150+ new items on my watched page. The page itself could be as big as 600k; It could flood my mobile phone when I browse it on Opera Mini sometimes.
The rare occasions that Loku did appear, I will write something on a whim, and the thing either got an private access tag because I couldn't finish it, or deleted by accident when I press the red button of my phone.
Sometimes I feel like stupid; This is my blog, my diary, nobody has the obligation to read every post. I keep it, because once I come back and see what I wrote a long time ago, I would know what my footprints were like. It's a good feeling, and a good method to avoid possible mistakes by learning from old mistakes. I should not write this thing as a show, just to get some figures of visits in Hitslink or some comments unrelated to the topic I have talked about.
My English teacher tole me, that everything written is intended to be read, that's everything should be readable, hopefully enjoyable for the nature of a blog, to the visitors. That's what I need to practice, the invisible and useless conceit should never be the reason for anything I do.
So from now on, I want my blog just to record what I think. What I want to say. What I need to say. Not what I want others to think about me. People have the right to have their ideas on anything, I only need to be the best of myself.
My reader(s), so the intention of this blog have changed. If you like what I write here, just read it, maybe leave a comment or two. My friends, oh my dear friends, don't feel obliged to view my post. I am done caring about how many more hits have I made today.
Ok I think that's for today. Just do the spell checking and go to bed..