.:Frederick.Eat.World:.

At this point, I don't care if she finds out. Stacy. Ok? The girl I like. If you read my previous post, you'd see that some the things I was thinking about were labeled "Girl I like". That's because I didn't want her to know that I like her, incase she decided to click around my Facebook and find the link to my blog. F*** it. F*** Everything...I'm so upset, depressed, cold, emotional right now.

It makes me angry just thinking about it. There's a broken "love line" going on. Here's what it looks like ("-->" means "Likes"). Frederick (me) --> Stacy --> Stephan --> Alexa (some girl that lives in NJ). Note that it's all "one-way". This jackass of a guy, Stephan, always talks to her, makes faces at her, and stuff in French class (the only period I have with Stacy [and Stephan]). If you don't like her, then f*** off! Seriously, give another guy a chance. I feel like this girl is waisting her breath. The only time she wants to talk to me is when she wants to ask me what the French homework is (on Facebook...). I'm throwing my heart out for this girl. Everything that I type and send to her ends with a " - Fred " (note the wink).

I like her a lot. I try and forget about her, but I can't. It's not only that I can't, but that I don't want to. I don't know why I'm so attached to this girl. She doesn't even take the time to look at me or say hi...I swear. I know shit happens, and I can't have everything I want, but come on, this is just sad. Sometimes I think I can cry. Like I said, I'm giving up, because I see no possible chance of a relationship (or at least a serious friendship). I'll probably tell her sometime during the middle of the year / end of the year / sophomore/junior trip that I like [d] her.

- Frederick