Unni Skaaland Ellingsen

On a bed of roses

Tuesday, January 17, 2012 12:05:04 PM

Yesterday was my last birthday. Forgive me for saying that, but I am afraid it’s the truth. The reality. I know this, and the poeple who sent me the flowers, know this, too. My living room looks like a florist shop. Well, I said to myself, ”at least you are able to see these flowers.” Tulips in all colours, red roses and light blue hortensia.. My cupboard is empty, all the vases and pots are in use. What a luxury problem. A song came with them; On a bed of roses. ”While we're talking
about all of the things that I long to believe
About love, the truth, what you mean to me and the truth is
Baby you're all that I need. I wanna lay you down in a bed of roses. ”

All the flowers in the house, brought with them thoughts, memories, and a touch of nostalgia and melancholy.
My father called me in the afternoon.. He voice was not very clear after a stroke, but he wanted to speak to me. He asked me how I was. When I told him I wasn’t feeling well, I broke down and cryed. Good bye papa, it’s hard to die, when all the birds are singing in the sky.
It’s hard for a father to loose his daughter no matter how old he is. I will always be his daughter.

My youngest daughter was home for the weekend. We managed a little heart to heart talk. I told her: ”The worse thing is to know the things I will have to leave behind. I want to see you getting married, I want to see who you marry, I want to hold your baby.”
I know these are selfish thoughts. I should have been thinking of her, her loss in life.
Who will she call and ask for money when I am not here? I will miss that! J

When I am gone, no need to wonder if I ever think of you. A line from Queen.
The blossom knows there's no one else could warm my heart as much as you.

Well I sit here with my armful of flowers. I could leave them all om my couch and lay down on a bed of roses. While we're talking about all of the things that I long to believe
About love, the truth, what you mean to me and the truth is.
Baby you're all that I need

I wanna lay you down on a bed of roses.

SomethingSNOW HOPE

Comments

flowerskin # Tuesday, January 17, 2012 1:25:15 PM

reading Your words above - i started "These Are the Days of Our Lives" by Queen, best wishes from here to there Unni !!

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Tuesday, January 17, 2012 5:32:42 PM

Thank you. I am a Queen fan and one of my favorite songs are Teotoriette, or Let us cling together. What are you listening to?

flowerskin # Tuesday, January 17, 2012 5:50:07 PM

very mixed variety from 60ies rock and folk to modern, some jazz and classic too. even i grew up with Queen, i discovered their genius later:)

Steve SmithiRagnarokk # Tuesday, January 17, 2012 8:08:00 PM

Very affecting words Unni.
I'm a bit too choked up after reading them to think of what to say.
Thanks for your continued courage.
My thoughts are with you every day.

Adele BrandSittingFox # Tuesday, January 17, 2012 9:10:28 PM

Unni, prayers with you and your family. You are very brave.

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 6:40:46 AM

Hi Adele, Thanks for reading it, and thanks for your faithful prayers.

Steve, I know it's hard to read, but it's important for me that you do. Takk.

Brian Francis PretoriusBrianFrances # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 8:00:01 AM

Your words are lessons to me Unni, thank you.

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 9:00:40 AM

I am sorry they are so sad, Brian. But at least you read them. I thank you for that.

studio41 # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 10:29:59 AM

Unni, happy birthday. many bouquets of flowers and buckets of tears to say goodbye.

I would rather not say goodbye, but- many happy birthdays to celebrate in eternity, when I shall meet you face to face. allow me to say that,

until we meet face to face.

thank you for letting me know you, a beautiful lady and sister-in-Christ- thank you.

I am so sad for you and your lovely family that you must say farewell for now. prayers for all of you.

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 12:12:48 PM

Hi Jill, Yes, I do hope there will be birthdays to celebrate in heaven!

Stevie BStevieBrown # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 1:00:17 PM

well I'm a dreamer and reality sucks,and I was sad to read your your words,"yesterday was my last birthday",like steve I was to choked to post a reply,but i promised to walk with you till we can walk no more....I loved the flowers and the fragrence must be overpowering,but the colours are so fresh and clean and helped lift my spirits..and i still wish you an happy new year even though your news is not as promising as for some of us..and i really hope this clip is how it realy is..

Stevie BStevieBrown # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 3:47:20 PM

Unregistered user # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 6:02:04 PM

Oddny writes: Kjære Unni.Her blir ord blir veldig fattig. Du er så ærlig og sier det som det er, beundrer deg for dette. Takker deg for alt du deler. Tenker masse på deg og din familie. Varm klem

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 7:54:22 PM

Hi Stevie. I loved the clip, and Demi Moor, as well.
Thanks for reaing my blog post. I know everything I do now, is sad. If I hear a goo story, I will share it with you.

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 7:56:43 PM

Hei Oddny. Fint at du titter innom meg på bloggen. Det er mye trist nå, men kanskje dukker det opp noe gøy som jeg kan dele.
Takk for at du tenker på meg. Klem, Unni

studio41 # Wednesday, January 18, 2012 11:50:13 PM

"but i promised to walk with you till we can walk no more...."
by Stevie

Beautifully said.

Unni

Marianne Haugensora10 # Thursday, January 19, 2012 5:41:47 AM

So sad. I don't know what to say.

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Thursday, January 19, 2012 6:57:13 AM

"Now so long, Marianne, it's time that we began
to laugh and cry and cry and laugh about it all again"

When LEONARD Cohen comes in my mindm it's always WITH his song about Marianne.

so instead of saying anything, let's sing the Marianne song.

studio41 # Thursday, January 19, 2012 8:48:26 AM

One of my favorite songs I want to share with you, Unni. http://youtu.be/R9q2Ix7A6dM

"Spoken For"

<iframe width="420" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/R9q2Ix7A6dM" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

http://itunes.apple.com/us/album/spoken-for/id270317200?i=270317214&wdId=32800

Andrew Ziminandrzimin # Thursday, January 19, 2012 9:21:24 AM

In soft gleaming night of stars,
May all your dreams come true.
May every star of every night,
Bring love and joy to you.
Happy Birthday to you.

Keep smiling Unni!

Marianne Haugensora10 # Thursday, January 19, 2012 8:00:21 PM

Then we need the karaoke-style

http://youtu.be/ZDj5T8-H2R8

Stevie BStevieBrown # Friday, January 20, 2012 1:16:34 AM

see if you can find the link here,so listen carefully!

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Friday, January 20, 2012 5:50:46 AM

nice try.

zdruz # Friday, January 20, 2012 7:35:32 AM

Kjære Unni så modig du er. Du har stor hjerte hvor er rom for alle oss. Takk for det. Jeg ber for deg og sender min håp og kjærlighet. Varme klem til DEG.

Unni Skaaland EllingsenBerith1 # Friday, January 20, 2012 8:59:09 AM

Zdravo, draga moja Zdruz. Takk for det du skrev. Jeg likte spesielt "Du har stort hjerte hvor er rom for oss all."
Det var en fin setning å lese denne fredags formiddag, like før vi går inn i helgen. Hvala puno.

Unregistered user # Friday, January 20, 2012 4:51:07 PM

Madde writes: Mamma, du er den beste i hele verden. Ord kan ikke strekke til, men du er flink til å skrive og forklare med ord. Selv om det resulterer i tårer, er jeg veldig glad du skriver på bloggen.

Stevie BStevieBrown # Friday, January 20, 2012 7:15:36 PM

Originally posted by Berith1:

nice try.

so you did you find the link? lol

Marianne Haugensora10 # Friday, January 20, 2012 9:18:12 PM

I found it - lol

rania.h.qasemraniakasim # Saturday, January 21, 2012 10:15:12 AM

according to our beliefs, if a man suffered from a terminally ill
that doesn't mean that God hate him , it mean that God intended to atone his earthly sins , and it is a bless. u can't deny that death is a reality that we can not overcomeur , sooner of later all of us will die .just we need a courage to face this truth , and I think that ur really a breave woman, i will pray for u , all of us will pray for u , and u should pary .

Steve SmithiRagnarokk # Monday, January 23, 2012 6:50:42 PM

I'm praying for you Unni.

studio41 # Tuesday, January 24, 2012 11:34:28 AM

Originally posted by iRagnarokk:

I'm praying for you Unni.

I am, too.

Stevie BStevieBrown # Tuesday, January 24, 2012 3:24:22 PM

your thought of everyday here dearest Unni,you heard any good stories lately lol,things a little upside down here,a leak in the loft water tank hasn't helped a week last wednesday,left us with no warm water till the tank can be replaced and that won't be till next Monday so everythings been a struggle to keep smiling lol,plus it brought down part of my youngest daughters ceiling so that has to be replaced also,luckly that damage comes under my home insurence policy but the tank we pay for,at the moment i'm trying to make the loft hatch bigger so we can get a new water tank up into the loft,i wasn,t going to worry you with my bad start to the new year,but it,s all the news i have,but that's life,so don't worry it will get fixed.

Stevie BStevieBrown # Thursday, January 26, 2012 3:25:47 AM

Thursday your daily thought,if anything else breaks,i might start thinking it's sabotage lol,the tumble dryer has decided to stop working to-day

Sam Hisamitsu Endohhisamtrois # Friday, January 27, 2012 1:10:14 PM

Happy birth day Unni.
And I hope I could have a chance to write the same again and again and again.
I send you a flower every day from my blog.
I will show you all of my flower pictures.