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Oh joy. Now that I've gotten my head finally straightened out, it's time for me to tackle that big ole THESIS that's been an albatross for me lately. I don't know why. It's subject matter I enjoy, an advisor who's great and understanding and I-like I was telling my devilgirl last night, I've been using my schoolwork to block my creativity as well as using my creativity to block my schoolwork, therefore going forward in neither.
At least I realize that now, and can start to move forward.
Let me see about moving them there boulders out of the way, though.

Okay, this is my first blog (weblog-powered by blogger at www.blogger.com) and this is the last week (week twelve) of the exercises from _The Artist's Way_ by Julia Cameron. this book has done so much for my life. It clarified why I I've been so interested in certain people. Creative genius draws me like a moth to a flame, because subconsciously it was a way for me to be a shadow artist and not take the risks that I needed to. Same thing with my friends using me as therapy when they never realized how much it was costing me. I never realized how much it was costing me. It's so hard to see helping people as an addiction, but for me it was. Unlike an alcoholic that can avoid bars and not buy drinks, I have to deal with people. That's the difficult part. Learning where my boundaries are and sticking to them is a good first step.