Captains' blog

today i quit my job. very informaly, and not very honorably, even though the cause was honorable. - I just clocked out, and walked out. i didn't tell anyone.

The place I worked at (Macy*s) was an ok place to work, I had no qualms with the company or the store manager at all. It was the people I worked directly with and for. I worked with a bunch of privaliged guys who thought that they were tough (they definetely were not) and that they were men (little boys). two thirds of them dropped out of high school because they thought it was too hard.

Anyway for about a year now all they have done is talk shit to eachother about other people, and about me. I am serious when I say they don't talk about anything else at all. And one day a few months ago one of the only ones who was still in school was saying how his grades were all at 90% or above. His brother told him that was dumb and he shouldn't be proud of that, so I stood up for him. "yeah those grades suck, wait, what were your grades in high school again? oh yeah you failed" - I said this in a joking manner, and the shit-head jumped up at me and said "Shut the fuck up faggot!" really loud and pissed.... while my boss looked at me as if I had said it! so I just laughed it off an dtold him "all I'm saying is that 90% and up are A's and A's are good". The next day before anyone showed up I told my boss that I would quit if they keep throwing the word "fag" around like they were getting payed to do so.It stopped for a while, and I didn't speak a word to anyone for months.

Early this last week though, I was eating a cup of fruit and a danish with some friendly co-workers for breakfast on break outside panera bread, and the gang showed up again to eat there to, I figured nothing would happen. Well the foo-crew (named this because they are the people who say 'foo' every other word) actually didn't do anything, it was my supervisor who had started teasing one of my friends jokingly, calling him a homie (btw this friend in NO way gives off any homie look, attitude, or sound) and gangsta', so I kinda play along and tease my buddy to "Yeah, cause you are straight gangsta homie" I say. My supervisor, whom I cannot see because he is sitting behind me, then turns on me, a little more stern-toned but still seamingly in jovial spirits say "well what about you, with that bandana homes", I joke back and say "yep, Im an original gangsta straight outta Compton". I hear him underneath his breath finish my sentance "...and a fag"

so I say with a serious tone but not turning to look at him. "shut the fuck up fat-ass". - This sets him off! he comes back with the dumbest 'come-back' ever and says "take a shower" which was dumb cause I truthfully told him how I took a shower just before showing up to work (2 hours prior to the moment). He said "yeah well I didn't mean in feaces" ? wtf? he's dumb. I decided to just ignore him now and not humor him but he just keeps on keepin' on! "At least I'm not some skinny faggot bitch!" he yells at me, which is dumb because I am neither jovial, female, or canine.

I turn to him and ask "What the fuck is wrong with you!?, did I hurt your feelings that badly?" he yells "No, you shit head you just called me a fat-ass, you need to grow the fuck up!"

first of all NONE of this is in a "just bustin' your balls" type tone, and second of all this fool is 22 years old, still lives in mommy and daddies basement, lost his liscence and had just finished talking with the foo-crew about how he listened to another guy 'jerk-off' in the bunk above him while he spent the weekend in jail. So he tells me to grow up? what a larf! I am already further along in schooling than he has ever recieved, I own and legally operate my own vehicle, and we have the same job! his job-title is 'team leader' not manager or even assistant manager. We do the same work, and he gets a nanny title so he can report to the actual manager what happens while she is gone. So when a supervisor calls you a fag and tells you to grow up, he looses all credibility.

he says somthing else about how i'm a little motherfucker or somthing, and I just decide to leave. Later that day I report to HR (human resources) about what happened because my official manager obviously doesn't do anything to rectify any ill-doings any one she manages does. HR tells me to continue working on the dock and she wants me to wait to see if it happens again, then come tell her about it. I tell her "that this already happened before, I don't want to wait till it happens a third time", "well, this is the first time I heard about it" she responds, WTF!? thats not my fault, my dumb manager never did anything about it, so I finish the two days of invintory scanning with a couple of my friends who are really cool, and wait a few days before my schedule returns to normal dock shifts.

Today was the first day back on the dock, I went in and said nothing again for 3 and a half hours while listening to conversations about how these guys were going to "fuck" some girl and never talk to her again, and how manly it is to "bang a bitch" while shes drunk. All night this drives me nuts as I watch my boss do nothing about it even though she let me know a day before she hates hearing me and this one other guy talk about movies, tv shows, music, or video games. It drives me over the edge as they stop working and just stand in a circle to stuff doughnuts into their motuh while one guy phone-films it. when they are finished they laugh and continue talking in a circle doing nothing while I work.

Half an hour before the store closes I just drop the clothes I was hanging back into the box, open my wallet, get my time card out, and walk for the door. I clock out and walk out.

she calls me at 9:30 to ask where I was and I simply told her that I was done and she could give all my hours to one of the foos who show up late everyday, take long breaks, and stand around and talk. She was upset that I din't give her two weeks notice, but I couldn't stand 2 more minutes of it, I was ready to physically destroy someone.

now, I need a new job pronto.