This earthquake that just happened in Japan has sent out pretty big waves across the Pacific Ocean. Hawaii got hit with them, California got em, and Oregon got em too. And so did I, living on top of North America and actually almost most of the world, Colorado is known as the Mile High State in the United States because of the one mile above sea level we live at. We are very far from the coast, but still something has been stirred up in me.
I still am trying to figure out why this has connected with me so strong, when the United States herself is on the rebound after the disasters that hit our southern coast in recent times. But I have decided that the "why" is less important than the "what" right now, and "what" happened is that right now sitting at a local starbucks, drinking a $3.75 cup of chocolate espresso, I am itching to pack this laptop up in my backpack, and drive straight to DIA and fly non-stop into Japan and help do whatever an extra set of hands, legs, eyes, and ears can do! I know that at this exact moment there isn't much I can do as I haven't any specialized training in anything at all. But I am still filled with a new energy.
I really do want to help, so I have already donated to the American Red Cross for the fight, and I have created a sort-of home base for donations over at N+: http://my.opera.com/Nplus/blog/japan-earthquake
- and while this does make me feel good, I can't stop thinking about throwing sandbags, carrying food, tying tents down, or doing anything that my body can do to help. I rarely depend on my mind to help me out, but I have always been able to rely on my body, it's got much more strength in it than what appears to be, I know I have pushed it pretty good at times, but I know I haven't even come close to it's max. I have no idea what that might be, but I bet it's tied pretty close to the strength of my spirit, and when the chips are down, my spirit won't give up - especially when the challenge is physical, maybe its a bit masochistic but I like "the burn", or the sore muscles the next day, or wobbly legs.
Now this might sound a little selfish, but I am going to say it anyway, even though I really want to help out, I would not like it if I was stuck at a home-base type position if I were to be a part of an organization like the Red Cross. It wouldn't feel right to me, I would really only want to go into it, if they were to let me help out directly with the people in need. I want face time, this is more than just a rescue effort for people in these disasters, it's also a spiritual journey for myself, one where I am allowed to continually meet new people, even in just fleeting moments, and to go to new lands, and to be without, but all the while know that behind every action I take in this journey, they all benefit others.
I need to do some serious research. This feels very important to me. I mean it's been a while since I put anything down in this online log, and it's because most of what I have been doing isn't really different than the day before, but it hasn't been bad! don't think so! I have been very very happily married for almost two years, and each moment I get to spend away from work and sleep, I have loved spending with my wife. I have been rediscovering my beautiful state of Colorado, which really is awesome when you get into our wilderness. - So to return to this log, which I have been wanting to add to for a while now, is a small sign of how this relief work has got some kind of hold on me right now.