Bad Wolf

Deep down a dark thing crawls within..

Tuesday, February 12, 2008 12:04:16 PM

Deep down a thing crawls within
Its low dark sound within me purr
Scraping talons, welts upon my skin
Hooded eyes shift as it in me stir..

It rips and tears at my decency,
Unleashing emotion that should stay caged,
It howls and scrapes ever more frequently,
Internal little war sickeningly waged,

Blood boils to a thick puss
Tensely it moves ready to pounce
I scream and cry and cuss
But I'm reduced to less than an ounce

I do not cry anymore, although I remember it fondly
Behold what you created,stronger, colder, someone dark and lonely..

(c) Cois 2008

1GB 20 years ago and 1GB today..Ads from the 30's

Comments

Dark FurieFurie # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 1:34:54 PM

Wow, you really want a new phone huh?

Spaggyj # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 1:46:16 PM

I like it

Dacotah # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 1:48:55 PM

Great poem Cois.

Bad WolfCois # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 2:31:14 PM

Mik.. that and I haven't had a smoke in 3 days..

thanks girls..

Dark FurieFurie # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 2:44:52 PM

Three days is how long it takes dude. Once you've made it that long it gets easier. Congrats.

Dacotah # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 2:45:59 PM

You are welcome.

Bad WolfCois # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 2:52:45 PM

I hope so.. been crabby these last few days but today I've calmed.. cravings flare up every hour now..

Carol..

gimme a smoke..

Sarah angel292005 # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 5:16:08 PM

Are you quitting on purpose? If so then..congrats.

Dacotah # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 5:34:55 PM

Way, you can do this Cois.

Bad WolfCois # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 7:00:27 PM

Yeah on purpose.. guess I just wanna test my willpower.. seems my craving for nibbles has increased tenfold..

Thanks Carol:) you're so sweet to me today..

Dacotah # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 7:02:05 PM

You are welcome Cois.

Sarah angel292005 # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 7:33:33 PM

nice! good luck with that!

Attila attilasoul # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 9:27:24 PM

I like it too.

Of course you can do it, I sense lots of willpower here.

theoddbod # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 11:07:27 PM

I don't know, three days doesn't seem that long. I know at least two people who kept giving up unsuccessfully for months at a time. One of my colleagues has tried four times since I've known him - average time to relapse : four weeks.

Bad WolfCois # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 11:22:34 PM

I've given up many times.. many many times.. in the end the result is the same.. but I've never given up together with not drinking.. (much

) so that's the change..
Maybe smoking less is an idea but I'm gonna take one day at a time and see what happens..
Thanks for the encouragement Mart..

theoddbod # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 11:28:35 PM

Sorry

But seriously, I'm sure you can do it

Bad WolfCois # Tuesday, February 12, 2008 11:48:49 PM

I don't.. too much stress in my life..
Lets just say I'm cutting down..

theoddbod # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 12:10:14 AM

Well, at the very least it'll save money for the phone

Bad WolfCois # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 12:20:05 AM

Tomorrow the v360 is being picked up so I'll have enough for the phone..

I don't actually pay much for smokes.. that habit pays for itself..

Dark FurieFurie # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 1:27:53 AM

How does it pay for itself?

Let us know when the money's in the bank/jar and we'll order it. The pound is currently worth 15 rand instead of the 14 it was worth when we got ours, so I'll let you know a good time to send the cash, hopefully when it's gone down again which it's just started to.

Bad WolfCois # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 8:06:17 AM

I told you about the little jobs I do right? from helping aunts in yards to fixing the occasional home appliance..
The smokes one I work for a guy that lives a town away. Work is just to pick up cartons of cigarettes and distribute them.. yes its legal. doesn't pay much but 2 cartons a month is mine for nothing which I sell as its not my brand..
If I quitted I could make a extra few hundred bucks but that's not gonna happen..

Already have the cash.. just need to get the bank sorted..

Spaggyj # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:15:06 AM

You're gonna need my iban number, then...

Bad WolfCois # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 3:27:19 PM

iban?

theoddbod # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 6:27:35 PM

I think IBAN only works in Europe - SWIFT code and account number is more likely

Bad WolfCois # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 6:52:48 PM

Yup.. after checking what iban was I realised I already asked the bank chick what was needed.. its the swift code and account number.. only extra is the swift code apparently..

Spaggyj # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 7:04:14 PM

The stupid bitch at the bank told me it was iban. She knew it was south africa as well. Fuck sake.

Bad WolfCois # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 7:27:48 PM

that sucks.. this is getting to be troublesome..

Spaggyj # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 7:34:48 PM

Don't worry. I'll go in tomorrow and get the number x x

r♡serose-marie # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 9:38:17 PM

Good poem

theoddbod # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 9:50:16 PM

Or you could go here :

http://www.swift.com/biconline/index.cfm?fuseaction=display_freesearch

Bad WolfCois # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 9:53:43 PM

Thanks Rose..

Don't make it too much trouble Kim.. I can wait or need to wait.. currency whatnot has to go down too..
Damn Eskom is to blame..

Spaggyj # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:02:03 PM

Mart - thank you sweetie x

Clint - I know. Fucking stupid currency exchange rates fluctuating

I'll get the number though.

Spaggyj # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:02:36 PM

Mart - thank you sweetie x

Clint - I know. Fucking stupid currency exchange rates fluctuating

I'll get the number though.

theoddbod # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:09:37 PM

Better find out the handling charge first - that's separate to the exchange rate but it's usually a fixed amount based on various ranges.

Apparently one of the best ways to transfer money internationally is actually Paypal.

Spaggyj # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:11:04 PM

I don't do Paypal... But if it makes this easier it's an option.

theoddbod # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:19:12 PM

Not necessarily the easiest (it's a bit of a pain to set them up to receive money), but it can work out cheap. But they don't appear to support the Rand, so I'd forget about it for now.

Bad WolfCois # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:21:41 PM

Handling charge? is that the tax to send the cash? if it is its not that bad.. works out at 140 for 2300 as gift tax..

theoddbod # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:38:44 PM

That's not bad at all. I don't think it's a tax, though - the government doesn't get it.

Dark FurieFurie # Wednesday, February 13, 2008 10:57:31 PM

I'm so lost right now. Should we order the phone?

Christopher DaSilvadannii # Thursday, February 14, 2008 4:34:41 AM

If I quit he soooo can too.

Good poem, creepy

Bad WolfCois # Thursday, February 14, 2008 7:40:59 AM

Mart.. guess they explained it wrong or the woman got it wrong.. I know its a gift something..

Mik.. you should order the phone..
Dan.. I fell off the wagon.. that means I had a smoke..

Christopher DaSilvadannii # Thursday, February 14, 2008 3:20:16 PM

I knew you would, it takes more than once to quit. Try again. And don't be such a cunt and don't smoke.

I know you can't spend a single our with something phalic on your mouth, but try it!

Bad WolfCois # Thursday, February 14, 2008 3:56:02 PM

you're so sick you little bastard!

Christopher DaSilvadannii # Thursday, February 14, 2008 4:16:36 PM

I know

Bad WolfCois # Thursday, February 14, 2008 4:38:08 PM

I'm down to one smoke a day. Can't sleep without that last one..