My OperaWhat to do, what to do?
Monday, November 28, 2011 9:02:37 PM
There is something to be said about the amount of not-knowing-what-I’m-doing that I have in my mind. I feel like, even if I found the perfect profession, it still wouldn’t be right for me. I don’t know if I want a relationship, because even when I try it out, I let it crumble through my fingers. I know there is a proactive solution to every problem that I’m faced with, but I just let life happen. This isn’t the way a person should traverse through time, but I can’t seem to shake it.
People always say to find something you love doing and do that. Let’s see here, I love drawing, fabricating, working on cars, modifying, doing digital art, photography, filmography among other creative things. I’m good with computer hardware, electronic troubleshooting, and designing new products/ideas. How do you combine most of these things without sacrificing most of them? I don’t have ONE thing I REALLY love, I have a bunch of things I like. How do I know which one suits me most? I’m methodical, precise, fluid, and erratic, all at the same time. What can I do to be happy, and still make money to support the rest of my hobbies?
I can’t seem to figure out relationships. I go into a relationship knowing the possible outcomes, and nothing surprises me. This might sound cocky, but I assure, it probably is. It makes me feel cruddy all the time. I could obviously do something to avoid these things, and I should, but I seem to prefer being miserable. I think I lost someone very important recently. I’m not very good with expressing real emotions which makes things difficult.
Real question is, what to do, what to do?
People always say to find something you love doing and do that. Let’s see here, I love drawing, fabricating, working on cars, modifying, doing digital art, photography, filmography among other creative things. I’m good with computer hardware, electronic troubleshooting, and designing new products/ideas. How do you combine most of these things without sacrificing most of them? I don’t have ONE thing I REALLY love, I have a bunch of things I like. How do I know which one suits me most? I’m methodical, precise, fluid, and erratic, all at the same time. What can I do to be happy, and still make money to support the rest of my hobbies?
I can’t seem to figure out relationships. I go into a relationship knowing the possible outcomes, and nothing surprises me. This might sound cocky, but I assure, it probably is. It makes me feel cruddy all the time. I could obviously do something to avoid these things, and I should, but I seem to prefer being miserable. I think I lost someone very important recently. I’m not very good with expressing real emotions which makes things difficult.
Real question is, what to do, what to do?
