My OperaAnother day in paradise..
Monday, October 5, 2009 11:06:40 PM
Having a little re-thought on just how exactly life works is a tad of a eye opener.
The realization that missing alot and regretting even more so but to think of what you can do to change that should be motivation enough for at least something.
A massive summer cold has decided that my head is its playground and will for the next few days play "pa-rum-pa-pum" on my, uhm.. head.
This made me realise my aversion to medication but it seems they're helping. Whoohoo. Be medicated.
My feeds show some arrogant american prick swearing for no apparent reason in some forums because brits are idiots and america is the greatest country in the world.
Just makes you get out the popcorn and put on some 3D glasses.
My decision to stay out of that kinda made me feel bad so I wrote my mate a e-mail telling him that my support is there but I don't wish to do nasty just now.
It made me rethink of other moments on here which I didn't take enough initiative.
Not good when you're already depro and medicated up the whazoo.. ugh.
Some other mail later someone asked why change blogs. Why go through all this shit of having to move all your stuff.
Unfortunately I might've replied a tad harsh and apologized accordingly though.
I've taken things the wrong way the last few days and not alot would rub me the wrong way.
The outcome is less than desirable for me.
It made me question my motives why I decided to use this account and frankly my answer..*shrug*
Should I go back to my old one? Things my mind asks when tossing and turning is a midnight feast.
Tomorrow is another day and a mini tattoo once again.
I love the job but let's face it. Won't be breaking even with it anytime soon.
Looking over it all and realising that my goals haven't flickered into nothingness but just need a proper route planned out.
Now I can maybe smile a bit as dark dreams won't be haunting me tonight.
The realization that missing alot and regretting even more so but to think of what you can do to change that should be motivation enough for at least something.
A massive summer cold has decided that my head is its playground and will for the next few days play "pa-rum-pa-pum" on my, uhm.. head.
This made me realise my aversion to medication but it seems they're helping. Whoohoo. Be medicated.
My feeds show some arrogant american prick swearing for no apparent reason in some forums because brits are idiots and america is the greatest country in the world.
Just makes you get out the popcorn and put on some 3D glasses.
My decision to stay out of that kinda made me feel bad so I wrote my mate a e-mail telling him that my support is there but I don't wish to do nasty just now.
It made me rethink of other moments on here which I didn't take enough initiative.
Not good when you're already depro and medicated up the whazoo.. ugh.
Some other mail later someone asked why change blogs. Why go through all this shit of having to move all your stuff.
Unfortunately I might've replied a tad harsh and apologized accordingly though.
I've taken things the wrong way the last few days and not alot would rub me the wrong way.
The outcome is less than desirable for me.
It made me question my motives why I decided to use this account and frankly my answer..*shrug*
Should I go back to my old one? Things my mind asks when tossing and turning is a midnight feast.
Tomorrow is another day and a mini tattoo once again.
I love the job but let's face it. Won't be breaking even with it anytime soon.
Looking over it all and realising that my goals haven't flickered into nothingness but just need a proper route planned out.
Now I can maybe smile a bit as dark dreams won't be haunting me tonight.
