My Opera.ed ache
Wednesday, February 21, 2007 11:21:44 PM
I hope this doesn't turn out to be one of those things people reference after I'm dead. Citing it as a sign of impending doom that no one paid much attention to.
I've been getting terrible headaches. Every day I work. The headaches do not respond to Tylenol, Advil, Excedrin, or passive-aggressiveness. They typically start aroun 10am and are the reason I leave each day when I do, some days worse than others.
If I had to point to it, it stems from the top of my spine, the center of the back of my neck and goes up into my core, where my cerebellum lies. Some days, like today, there is a second headache that localizes in the front center of my forehead, about 1 inch deep. My head hurts so bad I hold it, and throbbing pains cause me to wince.
A few weeks ago, when they started, they were so bad I nearly fell over while walking, several times in one day even. I don't know if i've come to deal with it or if the severity has dropped. I really don't know.
I haven't changed a single aspect of my life with the exception of my increased stress level. I am absolutely governed by the stress of some things on my mind right now. Work, future work, money, my involvement with Opera, and Signature Visions.
I think I'm at a point in my life where I am once again doing much more for other people who are benefitting off of it, while I don't.
Do I stop? ...will the headaches?
I work alone and do my own research because I've found other's do not do more than face value work when asked to assist. Now I feel I have the knowledge, skills and abilities necessary to really succeed at what I want to do but I am being held back by the work I am doing for others. Like a Triple Crown race horse walking up to the gate with the others. But my gate is not going to open, because someone else is holding it.
Do I break it down? ...will that work?
I've been getting terrible headaches. Every day I work. The headaches do not respond to Tylenol, Advil, Excedrin, or passive-aggressiveness. They typically start aroun 10am and are the reason I leave each day when I do, some days worse than others.
If I had to point to it, it stems from the top of my spine, the center of the back of my neck and goes up into my core, where my cerebellum lies. Some days, like today, there is a second headache that localizes in the front center of my forehead, about 1 inch deep. My head hurts so bad I hold it, and throbbing pains cause me to wince.
A few weeks ago, when they started, they were so bad I nearly fell over while walking, several times in one day even. I don't know if i've come to deal with it or if the severity has dropped. I really don't know.
I haven't changed a single aspect of my life with the exception of my increased stress level. I am absolutely governed by the stress of some things on my mind right now. Work, future work, money, my involvement with Opera, and Signature Visions.
I think I'm at a point in my life where I am once again doing much more for other people who are benefitting off of it, while I don't.
Do I stop? ...will the headaches?
I work alone and do my own research because I've found other's do not do more than face value work when asked to assist. Now I feel I have the knowledge, skills and abilities necessary to really succeed at what I want to do but I am being held back by the work I am doing for others. Like a Triple Crown race horse walking up to the gate with the others. But my gate is not going to open, because someone else is holding it.Do I break it down? ...will that work?
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Dark FurieFurie # Friday, March 9, 2007 12:43:03 PM
Laurentlsaplai # Saturday, March 17, 2007 6:03:27 AM
.edDotEd # Sunday, March 18, 2007 7:30:07 AM
thanks, too.