Ellan

First I wanted to write a blog inspired by beyonces song -If I were a boy.. but I changed my mind and thought it would be more fun to think what a boy would write.. IF I WERE A GIRL

If I were a girl....(how I think a boy would say)

If I were a girl I wouldn´t take everything personal.. I would calm down and listen first..
I wouldn´t get hooked up on things he did in the past I would let it go..
If I were a girl I wouldn´t ask about his old girlfriends caus I would know that they don´t mean anything to him..

I wouldn´t go out dancing with other guys caus I would know that it would make him jealous..
If I were a girl I wouldn´t get angry at him for talking to his girlfriends caus I would know that he would´nt talk to them like he talks to me..

If I were a girl I would understand if he don´t want to talk about old problems 1 million times, I would respect that he put it in the past..And I wouldn´t bring it up again..
If he´s tired and don´t want to talk on the phone I wouldn´t ask the questions "why",instead respect it..
I wouldn´t think that he´s lying all the time, caus he don´t..

If I were a girl I would let him go out with the boys caus I would know that his goal with the night is to have fun with the boys and drink beer..not to pick up girls

If I were a girl I wouldn´t say I´m fat caus I would know that he loves me no matter what, and that he actually likes when I put some weigth on, caus it turns him on to look at a women instead of a girl..

If I were a girl I wouldn´t lie about sex or the penis caus I would know that its important to him..
I wouldn´t yell at him in front of his guy friends caus I would know it would be embarrassing for him, and that he thinks that our arguments is personal and that it makes him look bad in front of the guys.

I wouldn´t be strict to him all the time and I would see that he´s actually trying.. real hard.. and I would know its not easy to never get it right.. and allways hear "you could have done it that way" or "you could have said it like this"..





I wonder how my boyfriend would write this blog "If I were a girl".. maybe that would make me a better girlfriend:)


here`s a video I found that I like, but the quality isn´t the best.

Have you ever felt like you needed a serious break? a break from exactly e v e r y t h i n g? like you wanted to just... disappear?
I feel like that right now? and to be honest I really don´t know why? I guess things are great in my life atm? but still I feel kinda lost?

I just want to find the person that ´s hidden inside me?( no I´m not pregnant;) ) It feels like I´m only touching her on the surface? Like I´m scared to wake her up or something?
I´ve been through so much this past year and I`ve changed tromedstly, in some ways to the better and in some the worse?
But I guess that´s the way we do it..right? we go back and forth from the good and the bad changes.. we can´t allways change to the better, in some way we need thoose bad parts as much as the good ones..

I´ve accepted things I wouldn´t in the past, because I thought that was the change I needed? I´m not really sure about that anymore? because I think the moral I have in my heart is right one? Its my personal moral, and in some ways I feel like I´ve lost a part of it this year.. in in that way also lost a part of myself?

Therefor I have taken care of myself this week:) I´ve been hanging out with lotta, and we´ve talked alot, cause she´s my soulmate, I don´t think a soulmate has to be a lover, I´ve found one in a friend:)
I´ve also started everyday with a visit to the gym, and it did me good:) The feeling of actually getting up early and having some time that´s only mine! Time for myself:)
To me going to the gym is like thearapy, it makes me think in a special way:)haha I think it may be the monotonous moves!

anyway.. My "message" of the day is to remeber to give yourself time.. take care of the moral and epics you beleive in and also do stuff that feels right:) listen to the heart, honestly

Hey all veeeeeeeeeeery long time no see!
I´ve been up to these past months, I´ve been working,changing hairstyles+colours, nuturising my realtinship and boy its hard keeping a relationship on the go all the time:D but we´ve come along way and its really getting good right now:D

My new years eve was fine, but not spectacular:) I ended up sleeping aaround 00.20 or something! I´ve been sick and I got really ill:P
But atleast I had snow on the 00.00! that´s far more then enough for me!
I celebrated it with my boyfriend and some friends in sundsvall which is located in the northen parts of sweden
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I got some new year resolutions I want to share with ya guys! ready here they come:

Ells 2009 resolutions:ells 2009 resolutions:

*Get me a pair of glasses(as I only see about one meter in front of me)
*Get my self another job apart from the one I allready got
*Get long hair(as don´t cut it as often)
*Start saying yes more then I say no:) alternative become a more positive person!
*Travel to visit my friends more often
*Travel to another country
*Celebrate one year with adrian
*Exercise more regullary
*Bleach my teeth, hollywood smile ffw!
*Visit my hairdresser more often just to chat and also give her more tip as she´s the best hairdresser I´ve ever had:)
*Shop on budget, goodlooking clothes dosen´t have to be expensive:)


I wanted to make resolutions I actually could manage:D
and here are some nice words from Madonna that I liked a lot!


"what was I thinking?" is the first question a person who starts to examine theirselves,
ask themselves. Because up until that point, life is a series of random events, and life is just what happens to you.
and then one day you wake up and go -well actually I got control over my destiny, actually things do happen for a reason,
actually there is order in the universe, when you start tuning into that frequency, you do have a tenancy to look back and go "Oh My god what was I thinking"
and that´s a healthy response.
/Madonna


BTW its with joy I say goodbye to Mr president BUSH with this video!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vKP5HBDPVBY&feature=related

I recently read an article in the swedish magazine "All About science"(allt om vetenskap) about a projectidea made by a man called James Mclane, who worked as an engineer for NASA. He´s been working on an idea about a journey mars.A one-way ticket journey to be more exact.

Which signify that the astronaut would travel through space with no crew members but not yet alone. Mclane advocate that the people on planet earth would follow this passenger through his journey to reach mars, he would never feel alone rather the diverse. The journey would be broadcast on different tvshows. Every step of the passengers journey would be published and so on.

The arrival to mars would be planned in detail and Mclane mean that a camp would be ready to be used when the astrounat arrives. He would ,if everything goes as Mclanes vision, soon be visited by other people willing to leave earth for a one way ticket and a new life on planet mars. Hopefully they would start a new colonny on the planet, more and more people would join the project with the knowledge that they may never see planet earth again.Hopefully in the future we would be able to arrange two-way tickets to mars.

If this vision ever gets approved I don´t know.. but it sure sound a bit scary to me.. leaving earth with the knowledge that you may never see planet earth ever again. Alone on a planet totally uninhabited by other life.. what would you do?
kick dust or sand all day until the day you die?
I`m sure there´s people who´s going to assign voluntary to this project, but I´m not sure if it´s right?
why should we force ourselves on a new planet when we aren´t capable of taking care of the one we´re allready located on?

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Mass effect, awsome game! I played it on 360 a couple of monhts ago and really liked it, never been a fan of the sicene fiction themes before but this game got it all:)

Lifes going good in sweden! still works in the game shop:D been checking for some educations, but haven´t really found anything that caught my attention.

I´ve meet a new guy adrian, we´ve been togheter for nearly three months now, and it does feel awsome, I´ll let the future tell what will come next!

take care all! hope you all have some wonderful summervacations and activites!

love Ell!