My OperaCoward by trade
Monday, June 7, 2010 1:11:30 AM
Okay, well, my Dad caved and ended up buying Alice in Wonderland for his daughter and mother. We watched it over dinner...and I'm not sure what to think about it. It was silly. It may seem redundant to cal it "unrealistic"...but even in a "fantasy" setting, things at least attempt to have explanations. Alice if anything is what I can call a "shameless fantasy." Shameless of its genre: it's a fantasy's fantasy.
Now, on to the title of this blog: "Coward by trade." I am of course referring to myself. I arrived at this phrase when I thought of why it was exactly that I found myself so attracted to the Cheshire cat. If I may: he was just sooooo cool. But why do I feel this way? Aside from my feeling that the "story" was nowhere near possible without him, I personally would love the ability to: be invisible at will, materialize/dematerialize, teleport etc.
I have it in my head to think that facing a problem dead-on is the opposite of cowardly. Not sure why. But because of that, I feel like facing a problem with it in mind to "disappear" or otherwise "not dead-on" as cowardly. Others may cal this method of facing a problem as "strategic:" to which I would agree. But some childish form of pride within me tells me that: calling disappearing or teleporting "strategic" is simply self-justification for a wrong you refuse to accept you've committed. But I would rebuttal (against myself) with saying that I identify that side of my self's position as "childish pride" because it is stupid and doesn't think about anything except satisfying its own standards. Alas, it is still very much a part of me, and it influences how I feel about things.
So, since I am willing to agree with myself that I am a coward because I would enjoy "warping" out of place to get around certain situations I am also willing to accept that I am crazy because of my apparently masochistic methods of "self-argument."
And that is why I chose the title that I have, and also why I love the Cheshire Cat.
-R
PS- If you couldn't tell, I didn't exactly find Alice in Wonderland to my liking...aside from the cat.
Now, on to the title of this blog: "Coward by trade." I am of course referring to myself. I arrived at this phrase when I thought of why it was exactly that I found myself so attracted to the Cheshire cat. If I may: he was just sooooo cool. But why do I feel this way? Aside from my feeling that the "story" was nowhere near possible without him, I personally would love the ability to: be invisible at will, materialize/dematerialize, teleport etc.
I have it in my head to think that facing a problem dead-on is the opposite of cowardly. Not sure why. But because of that, I feel like facing a problem with it in mind to "disappear" or otherwise "not dead-on" as cowardly. Others may cal this method of facing a problem as "strategic:" to which I would agree. But some childish form of pride within me tells me that: calling disappearing or teleporting "strategic" is simply self-justification for a wrong you refuse to accept you've committed. But I would rebuttal (against myself) with saying that I identify that side of my self's position as "childish pride" because it is stupid and doesn't think about anything except satisfying its own standards. Alas, it is still very much a part of me, and it influences how I feel about things.
So, since I am willing to agree with myself that I am a coward because I would enjoy "warping" out of place to get around certain situations I am also willing to accept that I am crazy because of my apparently masochistic methods of "self-argument."
And that is why I chose the title that I have, and also why I love the Cheshire Cat.
-R
PS- If you couldn't tell, I didn't exactly find Alice in Wonderland to my liking...aside from the cat.
