I'm not lonely anymore

It's been a long time I feel so depress or I've been too depress for a long time so that it broke out of mind.

With a sad romantic song, a meaningless emotion are showing on my face. What's so funny? Dunno . No reason as always. I wish I had at least one reason for laughing or crying. But, they come as they like. Without notice, without ... Wonder many thing, answer nothing. The fact is I don't want to think about it. So it's always there. Bigger and bigger. Day pass by and night comes. All the happiness or sadness disappear for an empty space with many unreachable thing. Why an empty room has so many thing??? Is that an illusion... May be I wish all of them are just illusion, just my imagine or else!

Just stand here and do nothing. I know it can not change anything by doing that, but which way I must go? I see it, but to take a first step is not easy. The first and the last. Yes, the first person and the last one. The first step and the last, too.

My love is forbidden. It's a sacred room that I should not open. I opened it, so I must pay for my sin.