What are you Into?

I've talked with him like three or four times. At the beginning he said he wanted to have a "real friend in me" but the way in which he insisted proved me that he had other dark intentions... my mistake was to give him my cellphone number. I did so since I thought he was going to stop sending me PMs, and he was only going to text me once a week. Fool of me. He started calling me EVERY SINGLE DAY. CALLING ME. C-A-L-L-I-N-G M-E. I never thought he'd do so because he leaves in another state (thanks Thor!) and there are pretty high telephone taxes. Well, it seems he doesn't mind about them. Anyways, the last time he called me he declared his love for me... this is what happened:

I was laying comfortably in my bed when suddenly I heard my cellphone ringing. I checked it and realized it was him. "Stalker (Home)" was calling me. I answered and we talked as usual. But suddenly...

"Do you have a boyfriend? I think you don't have one, am I right?"

"Err... it's... a little bit complicated"

"But I shouldn't be calling you if you have a boyfriend" Even though I had one, it wouldn't be bad if you were calling me since I'm not FLIRTING with you ¬¬ YOU are the one trying -and in an awful way- to flirt with me.

"I think there's no problem about that"

"But, do you really have a boyfriend? How long have you been dating?"

"Ummm" I have just broken up with my boyfriend, but we were dating for about nine months. That was the answer I needed. "We've been together for 9 months!"

"No, that's not possible" well it was "Mmm... but nine months can be easily forgotten! What do nine months mean? Nothing!" that's your idea, not mine. For you they are nothing, for me they were everything. I think we dated for a pretty long time...

"Well..."

"No! And do you love him very much?"

"Of course? He is my boyfriend"

"No, that's wrong" and who are you to say if something is right or wrong? The Pope? The Dalai Lama? Chuck Norris? "And do you think about him all the time? Why don't you think about me instead?" good Lord, he was getting on my nerves.

"Err..."

"Well, he has an advantage. Both of you leave in the same state. That's sad because I live far away from you. And do you enjoy hanging out with him?"

"Yes, I do."

"You say so because you haven't hanged out with me! If we hanged out... everything would be different!"

"No, I don't think so... and as I told you before, I love him"

"But hearts can change!" and it's hard to hold a candle in the cold November rain, too, right? @_@

"..."

"What was your zodiac sign? You told me you were Scorpio, right?"

"Yes"

"I am Cancer, do you remember? What's your boyfriend sign?"

"Cancer, too"

"I'm also Cancer! And Cancer gets along very well with Scorpio!"

"...that's why I get along well with HIM"

"Oh... but... No, no, no. You can't love him. Now lets talk about you. What's your middle name?"

"Err... I'm not telling"

"Why? Lets get to know each other in a better way! I now your name is *****. Why can't you tell me your middle name?"

"'Cause I don't really know you! Yes, I've known people from the Internet, but we got to know each other little by little. I think this is... going to fast"

"Fast? Oh... it doesn't matter! Where do you live? I know the state, but nothing else..."

"Not telling"

"No, no, no. Our relationship is going backwards! Are you going to give me your telephone number?"

"..."

"I think I'm the only one who asks the questions here. Why don't you ask me some questions? I know you are 19, why don't you ask me how old am I?"

"How old are you?"

"Guess!"

"Twenty-something?"

"No, no, no"

"Thirty something...?

"More or less" Jesus Condom! A pedo bear is after me! I'm not dating an old man! I'm 19 and he is more than thirty years-old. What's he thinking?

"That's..."

"You know? I'm dying to see you! Why do you leave so far away? I want you to be here. Do you know how to drive a car?"

"I knew but I haven't practiced in a long time so..."

"That's bad! I wanted you to pick me up and take me to different places!" And now I'll become your chauffeur! Keep dreaming.

"Ha... haha"

"I want to be there with you. Where are you coming? During vacations? When I go to your state, we'll visit many different places. We are going out with your friends... but not with your boyfriend, right?"

"That's... emm... err... you know? Emm... I don't really want you to think I'm in love with you, or to think that we will be more than friends in a future"

"But we can!"

"I don't want to make you believe something that's not real"

"Think about it. I think it's time to say good-bye"

"Think so"

"Bye"

"Bye"


He is not my type. I've mentioned it before. But after this conversation I made up my mind completely that I would never date a man like him. He wanted to force me to change my point of view, even to break up with my boyfriend (which I don't have) for him. He is SICK. When I had my boyfriend we texted each other once or twice a week and only saw each other on weekends. I hate people calling me everyday, and he does so! He scares me. Really scares me. He loves pop music, he is voting for AMLO and he admires Juarez! I HATE JUAREZ. They say opposite poles attract each other, but this is not the case. And even thought this may be cruel, he is not worthy for me.

After reading all this, you may ask me

Why didn't you tell him in a colder and firmly way that you didn't want any relationship with him?

That's because I don't want more people to hate me. It may be a bad excuse, but many people I loved are hating me without solid reasons. Who are they? My ex, one of my best friends (who didn't even remember my brithday) and my neigh boors. I couldn't stand another person hating me. But next time we talk I'm telling him to stop. I'll tell him what I really think about him and that we will never have a future together. I'll tell him he doesn't have the right to decide over my feelings. If he wants to be a friend of mine, good for him. If not, well, he'll miss it.

But you know what's the worst part? I'll break his heart in a cruel way, just like my ex did to me. I swore at that time that I would never do so, but now I can swallow my words. It is somehow inverse Karma.

That's all for today. Oh! My stalker has just called! Time to end up with this mess.