Sunday, November 19, 2006 10:39:02 AM
Sometimes, the aspiration confilcts with your reality. In such circumstances, you have to make choice. Such choices mean directly what you had to give up immediately, but what you want, the aspiration or goals you want to reach, is only of possibility. It is that you couldn't get what you want but you have already losed something. So, people hesitate. And I am, too.
Those things, which you have to give up, are not indifferent for you. For me, this question haunting around my mind keeps torture me days and nights. The answer I couldn't see.
Friday, November 17, 2006 2:06:36 PM
I am back, with exhausted body and mental. Hospital is always a terrible place, and those surgeons and physicians seem very indifferent with human beings. Ih their point of view, it's just a hump of meat. Maybe it is because of the circumstances of hospital. If I saw so much blood and flesh and illness and tears and pains and wounds, I am going to be accustomed to all of them definitely. Say, it's a good decision of not being a doctor. Being so scientific to look througn another human, it will destroy so much pleasure in ordinary life.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 5:39:26 PM
My father-in-law will have some surgeon cut his stomach, for the case of cancer.
I am going to fly to him for making some accompany and comfort.
My wife has gone to Wuhan today. Tomorrow I also will fly from Shanghai to Wuhan to meet her and her poor daddy.
Sunday, November 12, 2006 12:50:38 PM
Yesterday, I got a very bad news: my father-in-law is killing by stomach cancer.
My wife now is very sad. She must suffering a lot of pain in heart. However, she looks quiet and almost a little numb.
I really feel sorrow for her and try everthing I could to make her comfortable.
Her father is a stubborn and reserved guy, who is addicted to alcohol. I think it is alcohol that kills him. I guess he might left about 2 year life.
a tradgety.
Thursday, November 9, 2006 12:51:52 PM
The work is totally ridiculous.
When you just finish something, someone tell you that they had given you a wrong platform. So, everything has to be done again, from the every begining.
It's absurd!
Thursday, November 9, 2006 4:25:12 AM
I hope this is a fresh begining of my life, as I am just making the final decision of immigrating from China to Australia.
Anyway, going abroad, or staying here, it's a question. It's definitely going to take an immense influence to my life, family and career.
I have to be cogitative.
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