Yes, I'm serious. I'm so homesick that I've taken to watching the local Oak Harbor weather cam just so I can see the ocean.
So, since I have nothing and very little hope at the moment of being able to get work, I've started a little donation fund. I would be delighted if ANY cash comes of this, because it'll get me that much closer to home.
So if you can find it in your heart to throw a little green my way, I'd really appreciate it.
I have an appointment Tuesday with the Career Center in an attempt to get funding to get a couple of IT certifications. Trying to get my life back on track when I have literally nothing to my name is difficult at best.
Damn.
At least, for the moment, I have place to sleep. And within this week, I will have food stamps. Not something I'm terribly proud of, but when it comes down to eating food or choking on my pride, I'll take the food, thanks.
Got back in touch with Marty, who is supposed to be sending me some photos to work with for his site. I still need to get the site's domain back - *sigh* - but that can come in time. As it is, I'll have to wait and see how long it takes Marty to send the photos for me to tweak; dude's always on the go, and sometimes it takes weeks - and that's AFTER reminding him. But that's Marty, and where he's concerned, I have a lot of patience.
Steven is still out on the truck and seems to be enjoying himself. The freedom of the open road and all that.
I know I'd enjoy it too. But I have to stay grounded somewhere, so that he has someplace to come home to when he's off road for the weekend.
I used to love this particular holiday. It was the start of the fall season for me, epitomizing the happy, crisp days and cool, clear nights of frost's touch.
Then I got married on Halloween. That was a very special, wonderful ceremony for me, and I fondly recall it. And the man, actually, for he is still very much in my heart as a friend should be. Sadly, the marriage didn't work out.
Now it's a day to look at things and wonder what the hell is going on. I'm not even dressing up this year. No costumes, no parties, no nothing, just sitting in the back room at my computer. whoo.
Maybe I'm just getting old. The dreams and joys that once caused exeuberance and hope are dull and nearly gone. I've gotten so jaded and cynical that very little colors my world these days. Sad, really, and for all that I've heard advice from people, I'm still unsure as to how to make things better and more technicolor.
Okay, so I spent two weeks on the road with Steven. Fun times. We went from TN to Indiana, Pennsylvania, NYC and Long Island, back to PA, back to TN, North Carolina, El Paso, TX, Albuquerque, NM, BACK to El Paso, then back to TN. 15 days.
Whee. I love it, though. New places, new things to imagine and dream, and very few worries, save for the company finding me in the truck. I have to wait another 60 days before I'm allowed by the company, but hell, who cares on the road?
But I have a job interview on Tuesday, and so I'm having to stay behind this time around - with his folks, since there's no place else for me to go. Oh goodie. *sigh* But here's hoping that I get the job - it'll mean money to help me start over, get a place, get a vehicle, and begin the whole "this is my life, time to live it" thing.
On another happy note: Lush has finally released it's holiday selection again, and I can't wait to earn enough money to stock up on my favorite goodies. God, I love Lush. Not only does it smell great, it doesn't make me break out. w00t!! I'm asking for two things this year for the yuletide: Gift certificates for Wal Mart and Lush. That's it.
Otherwise, nothing really new to tell here in la la land. Some things change, some never do.
...provided I don't sneeze myself into oblivion first. Ugh. Allergies suck. Time to down a few Benadryl.
People, generally speaking, are fickle creatures. Unless things go specifically their way, they have no problem with turning on you. It's pathetic and in a sense, it's everyone I know. It's even myself.
Welcome to life as we know it, I suppose.
I should be, (read: hope to be), going back out on the road with Steven soon. It'll be good to get out on the highway and just watch the world going by.
It's strange, while I'm on the road, to look at the various regions of the country and wonder who lives there, what life is like, where all the cool hangouts are. What would it be like to live in these places? Would life truly be so different than what I know now?
Speaking of new and different, there's a new band that I'm starting to groove to, and it can be found HERE. It's called Fractal Method. Damn nice grooves. Very much metal meets trance. I dig it.
More coffee as I wait for the laundry. Gotta wash, dry and fold before I shower and head out on the highway. Check out the new graphics I've made and tucked into a photo album. Feel free to use them as you like, provided that I am given credit for them.
Okay. This is actually more of a Life Student/Self Spirit blog than anything, which is why I want to take a moment to warn my readers.
This is life unscripted. I'm going to talk about everything and anything. My views rarely match those of anyone else. It's not all peaches n cream, happy happy. It's about hurt, anger, hatred, violence, and misunderstandings.
It's also about triumphs, joys, happiness, peace and love. Life is a huge melting pot of all of those ingredients, and we are very seldom the chef. There are a lot of people who stir this kettle. The recipe often changes. And it doesn't always come out right.
I no longer keep up the suitemindcrime blog. My livejournal is occasionally posted. My myspace is more often posted, but is friends only. This is the only journal that will be for everyone.
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