My OperaProphetesslessness
Monday, February 15, 2010 5:39:10 PM
I'd like my works were totally understood.
They are not only drawings or stories: they're symbols of how I feel, of what I love and hate, of all my experiences and of what I think about the world.
They're a lot of characters; each of them has a personal story, a behaviour, a life.
And then, he's a symbol, connected with many others.
There are a lot of my own creations, and a group that's not original.
Many of them born totally from my mind; some of them are about well known characters taken by TV shows, cartoons, comics, anime, manga, books... some of them are inspired by real people.
You can easily see what is happening in any of my drawings, but it's hard to see how many energies I had to put to make them, and how many energies I see any time I watch them.
But nobody seems to have my own sensation.
It's not only the hard work, to make a good drawing with not enough time, and all self-thought.
It's the message.
I'd like to give passion, through them...
But it seems impossible.
I'll go on with the good work.
But I feel like the Prophet in his own land...
They are not only drawings or stories: they're symbols of how I feel, of what I love and hate, of all my experiences and of what I think about the world.
They're a lot of characters; each of them has a personal story, a behaviour, a life.
And then, he's a symbol, connected with many others.
There are a lot of my own creations, and a group that's not original.
Many of them born totally from my mind; some of them are about well known characters taken by TV shows, cartoons, comics, anime, manga, books... some of them are inspired by real people.
You can easily see what is happening in any of my drawings, but it's hard to see how many energies I had to put to make them, and how many energies I see any time I watch them.
But nobody seems to have my own sensation.
It's not only the hard work, to make a good drawing with not enough time, and all self-thought.
It's the message.
I'd like to give passion, through them...
But it seems impossible.
I'll go on with the good work.
But I feel like the Prophet in his own land...
scott cummingI_ArtMan # Monday, February 15, 2010 7:27:17 PM
i never know when someone really gets my work either. people have to be polite and for the most part they are not really interested enough to give a picture the deep penetrating stare to absorb any content. they see the surface.
so work for yourself alone. saves many heartaches.
der WandersmannderWandersmann # Monday, February 15, 2010 7:37:03 PM
For you, art must be seen (by you) as process, not as product. That is, that you must gain your pleasure and satisfation in the creation, not in the product itself. If others find the product satisfying, that is fine; but it is not your main concern. Of course, this can leave things rather thin on the meal table, but there it is.
Marcella EmmaHirpina81 # Thursday, February 18, 2010 3:33:03 PM
But sometimes a wish comes from the deep.
I know my works can be seen only as good drawings, and a great display of technique (no matter if I'm self-thought...), and not more else.
But sometimes it's a shame...
A process, yes... I love seeing characters and figures appearing on the once white paper, watching my stories evolving under my eyes, my own spirits mooving under my nose, and not only in my own mind...
And I love to leave traces.
But all this energy does not come out.
I don't like follow people's taste: I won't draw any trivial thing. If you see Eros or Violence in my drawings, is always under some veils, so even a kid can see those scenes, wihtout putting his or her parents in alarm.
So... I know I'm 'damned'.
But I found a solution: portaits and drawings askes by others, with their stories.
I can please the public, without betraing myself.
But I see the energy is not the same.
Thank you, carissimo Carlo and my dear Scott.
Every day I have to fight this...
But sometimes I can see I'm not the only one.
Thank you, really.
scott cummingI_ArtMan # Saturday, February 20, 2010 4:18:49 AM
Originally posted by Hirpina81:
not at all...
the trick is to relax and do what you love. and to understand how to be more human about it.
Marcella EmmaHirpina81 # Monday, February 22, 2010 11:02:26 AM
I feel I hate 'humans'... and I feel it very very often.
The crowd, people's laugh seeing white stautes covered in mud...
When I was a little girl, I thought I could love anybody in the world and be a global friend... But experience told me a different story: the girl who could trust anybody, finds now, the present day, not trusting amost in anybody, and living each moment as the last one... in a sorta of calm desperation.
I'm not easy to love, even for myself...
I try to relax, but how can someone relax when all the world seems to go in a direction that's opposite to yours?
My friend says me: -Be more soft-
I tried, I failed. So, that's I am.
A bad tempered hedgehog (or echidna...) with mad ideas and wishing to work in a Light-Tower near the sea, with a PC, paper and colors, and music. And I'd be happy...
How can it be? I feel I hate public, but an artist has to have public...
Oh my... and they ask me how on earth I have no dreams!
In last days I thought that my only way to Love is making portraits of things I like; a portrait is basically me stealing the face of someone else. A Possession by me.
A not harming one, but a possession.
The only way I can Love is this.