The Death's funeral

今天是寒假的最后一天了，虽然假期过得也并不轻松，然而还是很有些依依不舍。
我明白开学意味着什么----无尽的作业，每天熬夜至11点。但我又能做什么来反抗呢？
读书，是中国学生的唯一出路。
我想过留学----只是为了逃避那场能决定我命运的高考。可我还是选择留下，和百万中国学生一样面对人生最严峻的考试。我不希望被人们说成是逃兵，我愿意赌一把，赌自己能平安走过独木桥。
我无数次乞求上帝----然而少如人意。于是我决定靠自己。
我将灵魂交给黑夜，等待光明重回时重新开始一个轮回。
我等待着。。。。。。。

----What exactly is love? Technically, love is an intense feeling for another,or at least that is what the dictionary tells me, but to me it is so much more.It's the touch of his hand upon my cheek,the smell of his skin when i;m lying against his shoulder, or the heartfelt laughs and words that pass between our lips.
It's the gentle sound of his breath when he falls asleep alongside my neck, the warmth of his arms when he is holding me, or the softness of his lips when he disses mine ever so lightly. To me, it is the tingle when he loos straight into my eyes with a smile, a gathering of butterflies in my stomach when i see him as he walks up my driveway for the first time in three weeks, or the excited jump i take into his arms as he then spins me and kisses my cheek.
Unfortunately, love is also the tears that he kisses away when we must part for those three weeks.Love is not just a word, love is not a physical attraction, but love is something that is felt deep within your soul, surrounded by with your heart, and thought of time and time again.Love in itself is an irreplaceable experience.
Many tell me ,"you do not know what love is ,for you are only sixteen,"but i beg to differ.Whether they believe me or not,whether you believe me or not ,i know what love is ,how love feels,and where love can take you, though also leave you. I know the true contentment of the heart through love, but also the sinful tears that hurt to cry. Iunderstand the meaning of words, the touch of not only a lover, but also a best friend, and the emotional ride that flows with it. I know love, i know where it takes you and leaves you, i know contentment, i know tears, i understand words, feel the touches, and ride the emotional flow every day, for i am in love right now, and yes, i am sixteen

印象派艺术一向是唯美的象征，凡高从唯美中走来，却带着一身的坎坷与重量。
有人说凡高是个疯子。不错，他为自己的艺术疯狂，然而却并非有严重的人格缺陷，就我个人认为，他那种疯狂，缺乏理智，在旁人看来几近“病态”的种种行为之后，隐藏的是颗孤独的心和被遗弃的失落。他的一生始终被孤独包围，他得不到母亲的爱，得不到情人的爱，最终也失去了高更—这个他曾为之付出甚多情感的知音的爱。或许他可以回归正轨，过正常又朴实的生活，然而，他选择做个底层的观察者，感受者，传达者，他无法舍弃对绘画生命般的虔诚，因为那时一个一旦陷入就无法自拔的世界，但他又如同渴望生存那样期待知音，等待亲情，爱情。这两者的矛盾使他伤痕累累，他实在无法平衡，于是他成了一名苦行僧，用孤独折磨内心，用利器折磨肉体，他将自己整个投入烈火中，让身心燃烧。
高更之于凡高，让我想起左拉之于塞尚，前者都证明选择孤独并非成功的必然，但为何后者都选择了“火中取栗”？凡高和塞尚的经历颇为相似，他们是虔诚的信徒， 却又是艺术的殉道者，孤独充斥这凡高的一生，难道这就是印象主义大师的归宿？

yesterday,I recieved a letter from US,my newly-made penpal said as a mixed-race person,she feels very lonely and isolated.Why?I just wonder.
I don't know what's the situation in other country,but in mine,the person with mixed-race are highly appraised,cuz generally speaking,they are very cute and smart.In my own opinion,they are supposed to being admired by many people.But Van said she didn't know which country she should belong to.She is not wanted among Americans because she is a half chinese,not wanted among Asians cuz she is a half American.That's really a tough problem!!
As an Asian,I like every part of myself but eyes,though some of my friends said black eyes are charming,i don't agree.so formerly,I had thought that may be I should marry a foreign people,so that I can change the race of the "baby".But Van's problem shows that it requires more careful thought!
Well.......would i consider marrying someone from another race.sure,if he were right for me.