Tuesday, April 1, 2008 10:51:35 PM
well i have come to the conclusion that I am an angry person at times lol. there are many times which i would apologize for the anger however despite my dramatic outbursts i feel as people have done things to warrant such anger. especially since these are people who usually are used to things going their way despite the rest of the world around them. then there are the people who have been treated wrong and expect me to pay some type of pennance for others actions. well unfortunately the incredible skinny man does not operate that way. i am not responsible for their actions so if i feel something is wrong don't be surprised if i turn into somewhat of an ass. honestly despite my shortcomings when comes to being affectionate i am probably one of the nicest people you could meet once you get close enough to find out. however i do have a temper and don't like being angry but it is a part of me. Im not violent or anything i just will say what i mean and feel with no regards to the person i feel has wronged me. and yes i am wrong to do so at times in which i am not a man who is governed by his pride and will say im sorry. for those who know me if you think i am extreme let me know lol you won't hurt my feelings
Monday, March 31, 2008 4:06:50 AM
if you know the things that I require of my friends then why act surprised when I expect them of you? I am not here to be your plaything whose emotions you toy with. I am done with all the crap you expect me to take. If you have a problem oh well
Friday, March 28, 2008 11:16:27 PM
SO it is time yet again for me to share alittle bit of my insight into the world. Well as I sit here waiting for my car to get out of the shop I think to myself I hate paying for things. I really really hate paying for things that you don't realize you are paying for even more. Not that I am implying the mechanics are screwing me over ( although it is a real possibility in my mind personally) but as usual my mind went off into a tangent on things I paid for and did not even know, or would have had the desire to had i known, I was paying for. For instance, one of the banks I had accounts in had fees attached to the accounts for which I figured was going to financial services and yes of course they were trying to make a profit (although my position on banks and making profits is a whole nother blog oh and its coming lol). Well around my birthday they sent me a card saying happy birthday and how they valued my business. Hmmmm.....
Now to the average consumer that says oh hey this faceless corporate entity actually cares about its customers and knows us as people not dollar signs. However not to myself, in fact it tells me that somewhere in the fees that I pay for my accounts is a charge for this "service." Which personally infuriates me. Being the type of person I am, I, for one, do not find my birthday to be of any significance (with of course exceptions such as adulthood lower car insurance rates and senior citizen discounts that apply with certain ages) and secondly, I do not go to the store and buy myself a birthday card, nor do I want to pay my bank money so that they themselves may do it. What I expect from my bank is management of money, not false friendship. I want great customer service yes however to me that does not include pretending to care about my birthday no it means being knowledgable and willing to help me resolve my issues and being ready to provide the help I need when I need it.
Now I can think of one good card that I used to receive as a child from someone my parents paid....
It notified them of when my next checkup was needed. Now that is a usefull card for us and of course for them to make more money with seeing a patient and ensuring their speedy return, not this fake care bull. If I wanted that I would try to go find the most dishonest woman in the world and marry her for that matter.
Sunday, March 23, 2008 9:07:00 AM
loneliness, sad
Well through careful consideration I have identified two types of the feelings of loneliness that I have.The first would be what I like to refer to as Perceived Loneliness. Stemming from personal feelings of alienation due to my inability to live up to many stereotypes set before me, this type of emotion also is linked to my fear of abandonment( as in at any given moment any and all the people who are there for you may decide to turn their back on you). It is founded using true life experiences and my brain's ability to make logical predictions about other's behavior. It is a torturous feeling that leads to a void and despair in one's heart. The other kind is Actual loneliness as in I live by myself and I am not a part of any mutually exclusive relationship, the latter is the loneliness that I currently feel now.
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008 1:43:53 PM
Hopefully this messaage reaches you in good health. If you are reading this then i have probably tricked you using my powers of persuasion to coerce you into wasting a few seconds of your life. dont fret for you shall be rewarded greatly beyond you conceivable dreams. now if you are wondering the point, well sorry this blog is as pointless as my feeble attempt at life.
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