My Opera*
Monday, September 8, 2008 3:06:25 AM
You know, sometimes like today, i just wannabe alone then i realize myself that i just got nowhere to go.... just nowhere...
I can't describe this feeling, because it's totally empty to me.
Not like the sea, with the waves' sounds.
Not like the forest, with the winds' sounds.
This feeling is just totally empty, no sounds, nothing... It feels as im standing in the darkness in my dream. Everything is in front of my eyes, i can see, i can hear,... but there are no sounds, no color for real. It's all just a dream! You know, the colors and sounds in a dream just come from your mind... there are absolutely fake... absofuckinglutely fake...
Today i've lost a person in my life.
I thought i would never feel the way im doing now but i do. Lolz...
I hate bidding farewell to anyone that existed in my life. Anyone.
She was a mom, she was a grandma, she was a dad, she was a friend,... now she has gone. To be feel so ashamed of the way i had forgotten her for a while. I thought i had been grown up enough to forget all the childhood... Damn myself... I was totally a fucking stupid person... Yes, i was....
I hate myself... an principled people, no less no more.
What can i tell her lately?
Where's my promise to take care of her...?
Where's my promise inviting her to my wedding day?
They're all lost or i forgot???
The road is up to my eyes.
My feet are still standing up.
My mind is still thinking.
Every parts of my body is still working the way they did.
So what's the missing piece???
Growing up for what, when all my sweethearts day by day close to the goodbye - day....
Smile
Smile
Smile
Lolz...
Goodbye...
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I can't describe this feeling, because it's totally empty to me.
Not like the sea, with the waves' sounds.
Not like the forest, with the winds' sounds.
This feeling is just totally empty, no sounds, nothing... It feels as im standing in the darkness in my dream. Everything is in front of my eyes, i can see, i can hear,... but there are no sounds, no color for real. It's all just a dream! You know, the colors and sounds in a dream just come from your mind... there are absolutely fake... absofuckinglutely fake...
Today i've lost a person in my life.
I thought i would never feel the way im doing now but i do. Lolz...
I hate bidding farewell to anyone that existed in my life. Anyone.
She was a mom, she was a grandma, she was a dad, she was a friend,... now she has gone. To be feel so ashamed of the way i had forgotten her for a while. I thought i had been grown up enough to forget all the childhood... Damn myself... I was totally a fucking stupid person... Yes, i was....
I hate myself... an principled people, no less no more.
What can i tell her lately?
Where's my promise to take care of her...?
Where's my promise inviting her to my wedding day?
They're all lost or i forgot???
The road is up to my eyes.
My feet are still standing up.
My mind is still thinking.
Every parts of my body is still working the way they did.
So what's the missing piece???
Growing up for what, when all my sweethearts day by day close to the goodbye - day....
Smile
Smile
Smile
Lolz...
Goodbye...
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