My OperaSteve's Darkworker Path Story
Sunday, December 26, 2010 4:16:40 AM
I was definitely on the dark side back then... totally self-centered. Other people would ask me for help with their assignments, and I generally ignored them because they were of no use to me. My goals were all that mattered. If you read the article Do It Now, you'll see that it has a very self-centered energy to it, since I had to get back into that frame of mind to write the article truthfully.
I wasn't overtly cruel to anyone back them. For the more part I was just apathetic toward others. I cared about those who might be useful to me.
When I wanted a new sound card for my PC, I'd buy a new one and return the old one in the same box, knowing the ignorant employees wouldn't know the difference. Their loss for being dumb. If I wanted new software, I'd just pirate it. I didn't care what effect such actions had on others. Getting what I wanted was all that mattered.
A couple years before that, I was a thief. I'd shoplift nearly every day. But that wasn't darkworking. It was misdirected fear energy. I stole not for personal gain but because I'd gotten addicted to the thrill. I'd often give away what I stole because I didn't even want it. Eventually I learned to focus that energy more consciously, but it definitely wasn't on the light side.
If I hadn't met Erin, I have little doubt I'd be a darkworker today... and probably a damned good one.
After meeting Erin I was very conflicted for several years, and my results dropped like a rock. All of my projects backfired and failed. My incompatible energies were constantly cancelling themselves out.
It wasn't until around late 1998 that I started shifting to the light side and away from the conflicted middle. After that my results began to soar again because I was using a more consistent polarity.
Being completely self-centered provides tremendous focus. The darkworker path is very seductive. John Prophet is speaking the truth when he describes it.
This might sound a bit sick, but a part of me still mourns the loss of what I could have accomplished as a darkworker. It's almost like I sense there's another me in some other dimension who chose that route, and I pick up psychic impressions of what he's doing.
I'm sticking with the lightworker side though. Since making the conscious decision to pursue this path, I've had experience that have proven to me just how connected we are. If I polarized on the darkworker path, I'm sure I'd never have had those experiences -- I'd have had different ones that were consistent with the darkworker mindset.
I can see very clearly that lightworking and darkworking are both equally valid paths of conscious growth. When you pick a side and stick with it, you begin attracting a lot more energy into your life and a lot of fascinating experiences. You also attract others of similar polarity, sometimes as mentors.
This article was written by Steve Pavlina as a forum post. I'm just sharing his wisdom while putting up my links below to get link juice. You can find him on StevePavlina.com
I wasn't overtly cruel to anyone back them. For the more part I was just apathetic toward others. I cared about those who might be useful to me.
When I wanted a new sound card for my PC, I'd buy a new one and return the old one in the same box, knowing the ignorant employees wouldn't know the difference. Their loss for being dumb. If I wanted new software, I'd just pirate it. I didn't care what effect such actions had on others. Getting what I wanted was all that mattered.
A couple years before that, I was a thief. I'd shoplift nearly every day. But that wasn't darkworking. It was misdirected fear energy. I stole not for personal gain but because I'd gotten addicted to the thrill. I'd often give away what I stole because I didn't even want it. Eventually I learned to focus that energy more consciously, but it definitely wasn't on the light side.
If I hadn't met Erin, I have little doubt I'd be a darkworker today... and probably a damned good one.
After meeting Erin I was very conflicted for several years, and my results dropped like a rock. All of my projects backfired and failed. My incompatible energies were constantly cancelling themselves out.
It wasn't until around late 1998 that I started shifting to the light side and away from the conflicted middle. After that my results began to soar again because I was using a more consistent polarity.
Being completely self-centered provides tremendous focus. The darkworker path is very seductive. John Prophet is speaking the truth when he describes it.
This might sound a bit sick, but a part of me still mourns the loss of what I could have accomplished as a darkworker. It's almost like I sense there's another me in some other dimension who chose that route, and I pick up psychic impressions of what he's doing.
I'm sticking with the lightworker side though. Since making the conscious decision to pursue this path, I've had experience that have proven to me just how connected we are. If I polarized on the darkworker path, I'm sure I'd never have had those experiences -- I'd have had different ones that were consistent with the darkworker mindset.
I can see very clearly that lightworking and darkworking are both equally valid paths of conscious growth. When you pick a side and stick with it, you begin attracting a lot more energy into your life and a lot of fascinating experiences. You also attract others of similar polarity, sometimes as mentors.
This article was written by Steve Pavlina as a forum post. I'm just sharing his wisdom while putting up my links below to get link juice. You can find him on StevePavlina.com
