My OperaTrain Wreck After Train Wreck......
Sunday, October 11, 2009 12:16:26 AM
I tell ya......
I'm losing it ..... Just plain losing it........ I try to please everyone..... Please no one...... Not even myself....
Gonna run away from life...... Either by hobbling out the door on the crutches never to look back or something......
My kids are wrecks..... I'm a wreck..... We are driving my sister insane.... I just can't do this anymore....
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H82typ # Sunday, October 11, 2009 12:31:56 PM
Tazzie DevilJTazzie # Sunday, October 11, 2009 3:30:20 PM
H82typ # Sunday, October 11, 2009 4:37:01 PM
Tazzie DevilJTazzie # Monday, October 12, 2009 2:36:39 AM
I thought about taking every pill I had in the house and not waking up this morning..... Then I thought how that would scar my kids for life and didn't wanna do that.....
I'll make it....... I just have to put one foot in front of the other and keep doing it till I make it....
slackwrdave # Monday, October 12, 2009 4:16:27 AM
Originally posted by JTazzie:
Yeah, it ain't pretty. I knew someone who did that, and a dark cloud still hangs over that family to this very day. A decade later and they still burst into tears frequently and at random times.
No one can be inside your head but you. I guess try to grab onto whatever gives you even a little hope.
Tazzie DevilJTazzie # Monday, October 12, 2009 4:25:20 AM
My niece did that about 5 years ago ...... she was 21...... my sister is still devastated........
Thanks for being there to be my sounding board
Huggles,
Taz
slackwrdave # Monday, October 12, 2009 4:32:22 AM
Originally posted by JTazzie:
Humans are *real* good at that.
H82typ # Monday, October 12, 2009 8:18:23 AM
I've got it down now to twice a day.
Once when I wake up.
Once when I go to bed.
slackwrdave # Monday, October 12, 2009 3:39:15 PM
Originally posted by H82typ:
I'm nearly there myself.
Sometimes I think I've learned a lot, know a lot, and can just *do* things. Then I do something that makes me hang my head in shame and think I was just born yesterday. My mom is elderly and goes through this, too. I guess these things never really go away. They just have to be accommodated in some way.
I don't know where I'm going with this. It's just stuff that comes up for me sometimes.
Tazzie DevilJTazzie # Monday, October 12, 2009 3:54:20 PM
I know that I was put here for some reason...... Messing up my kids lives is not one of them though I seem to do that a lot......
I just keep looking back at what their dad did and think to myself if I can get them out of that maybe, just maybe, I might do an ok job of being a mom....
and as you said Dave ...... Don't know where I am going but it's nice to ramble at times
Suntana # Monday, October 26, 2009 12:25:31 AM
Originally posted by JTazzie:
As they say ... That would be a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
Just this past week a friend of my younger brother's committed suicide. They started together as Cops years ago. My brother still is one. But, the friend wound up in trouble ... apparently had assaulted / raped a girlfriend. He was up for court this past week. He instead decided to shoot himself.
So, you have to SOMEHOW manage to hang in there, Taz.
Tazzie DevilJTazzie # Monday, October 26, 2009 12:36:48 AM
Thanks...
Huggles,
Taz