FIRST PART (I PROMISE WRITE THE REST IN WHEN I CAN CONECT MYSELF TO INTERNET AGAIN ):
FIRST THAN OTHER THING: I REALLY, REALLY MISSSSSSSSS YOU FRIENDS ¡¡¡
EVERYBODY i MISS YOU !!!!
SECOND: THANKS, THANKS, THANKS AND TWO THOUSAND THANKS FOR WRITE AND MISS ME .
AS YOU WILL IMAGINE IT, I WAS FACING A LOT PROBLEMS, REALLY BIG PROBLEMS IN THIS MOMENTS AND IN MY LIFE MI HOLE ENTIRE LIFE IS A FUCKING PROBLEM . ABSOLUTLY EVERYTHING OF MY LIFE IS WITH BOTH FOOTS UP. I DUNNO WHAT MORE CAN I SAY FOR DESCRIBE MY ENTIRE LIFE IN THIS MOMENT BUT, TO WEIGH OF THE THINGS THAT YOU CAN THINK, ¡¡I´M NOT CRIYING ! I´M HAPPY WITH THIS THINGS AND WITH MY LIFE COZ, IS MY LIFE, MY ELECTION AND MY TROUBLES . I DONT SHARE SOME THINGS, AND THE MAIN IS MY PROBLEMS .
THE ONLY BAD THING IS THAT I DONT HAVE THE OPORTUNITY OF WRITE YOU MY BELOVED FRIENDS AS I WANT AND WISH !!!!
REALLY, I MISS YOU SO MUCH FRIENDS
AND THIS IS THAT KIND OF MOMENTS WHEN YOU HAVE MORE THAN NEVER THE OPORTUNITY OF "RECONSTRUCT" OR "REBUILD" YOUR LIFE.
NEVER WASTE THE OPORTUNITY THAT THE CRISIS AND THE LOOSE OF ALL, OF EVERYTHING GIVES TO YOU FOR REINVENT YOUR LIFE.
THIS IS THAT I´M DOING THIS DAYS, WORKING IN FINISH ALL THE PENDINGS, WORKING IN FINISH ALL THE THINGS THAT IN ONE MOMENT I CANT FINISH AND THAT NOW, THESE THINGS DONT WILL BE THE REASON OF DELAY ONE DAY MORE THE CHANGE OF MY LIFE.
I WILL DO MY BEST FOR TO HAVE THIS SITE UP-DATED AND OF WRITE ALL THAT I CAN MY DEAR FRIENDS, WRITE TO SUSAN, NGOC TRAM DO, AND WRITE TO ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS THAT I LOVE AND THAT I NEVER CAN FORGET.
I LOVE YOU FRIENDS...
WITH LOVE AND AFECTION:
jesús
PS: I REALLY MISS YOU FRIENDS PS2: I PROMISE WRITE YOU WHEN I HAVE THE OPORTUNITY FOR WRITE SPECIALLY FOR YOU, DEAR FRIEND NGOC TRAM DO .
SECOND PART (I MEAN, ONLY THE FIRST PART):
I WANT TO CHANGE... I WANT TO DO NEW THINGS... I WANT TO COMPLYING MY DREAMS... I WANT TO MY SERIE... I WANT TO DO MY MOVIES... I WANT TO PUBLISH MY BOOKS... I WANT TO FINISH MY DEGREE... I WANT TO KNOW: JAPAN, LONDON, CHINA, USA, CANADA, ISRAEL, VENESIA, VIETNAM, ISRAEL, PERÚ MACCHÚ PICCHÚ AND MANY, MANY PLACES MORE... I WANT TO KNOW TO MY DEAR FRIEND SUSAN...
ONE DAY I AWAKE AND I THINK: WOW, REALLY I CAN CHANGE, SO, WHY NOT??... SO, IT´S DECIDED, I WILL CHANGE ...
AND THAT IS THAT I WILL TO WITH MY LIFE, CHANGE AND TO DO THE THINGS THAT I ALWAYS DREAM WITH TO DO...
"THE ENTIRE LIFE IS A DREAM FOR IMAGINING"... AND THEN, WHEN YOU MANAGE TO IMAGINE IT, IS HOUR TO ACT...
SO, ACCOMPANY ME FRIENDS IN THIS MY TRIP THROUGH MY LIFE TO CHANGE...
FIRST PART (I PROMISE WRITE THE REST IN WHEN I CAN CONECT MYSELF TO INTERNET AGAIN ):
FIRST THAN OTHER THING: I REALLY, REALLY MISSSSSSSSS YOU FRIENDS ¡¡¡
EVERYBODY i MISS YOU !!!!
SECOND: THANKS, THANKS, THANKS AND TWO THOUSAND THANKS FOR WRITE AND MISS ME .
AS YOU WILL IMAGINE IT, I WAS FACING A LOT PROBLEMS, REALLY BIG PROBLEMS IN THIS MOMENTS AND IN MY LIFE MI HOLE ENTIRE LIFE IS A FUCKING PROBLEM . ABSOLUTLY EVERYTHING OF MY LIFE IS WITH BOTH FOOTS UP. I DUNNO WHAT MORE CAN I SAY FOR DESCRIBE MY ENTIRE LIFE IN THIS MOMENT BUT, TO WEIGH OF THE THINGS THAT YOU CAN THINK, ¡¡I´M NOT CRIYING ! I´M HAPPY WITH THIS THINGS AND WITH MY LIFE COZ, IS MY LIFE, MY ELECTION AND MY TROUBLES . I DONT SHARE SOME THINGS, AND THE MAIN IS MY PROBLEMS .
THE ONLY BAD THING IS THAT I DONT HAVE THE OPORTUNITY OF WRITE YOU MY BELOVED FRIENDS AS I WANT AND WISH !!!!
REALLY, I MISS YOU SO MUCH FRIENDS
AND THIS IS THAT KIND OF MOMENTS WHEN YOU HAVE MORE THAN NEVER THE OPORTUNITY OF "RECONSTRUCT" OR "REBUILD" YOUR LIFE.
NEVER WASTE THE OPORTUNITY THAT THE CRISIS AND THE LOOSE OF ALL, OF EVERYTHING GIVES TO YOU FOR REINVENT YOUR LIFE.
THIS IS THAT I´M DOING THIS DAYS, WORKING IN FINISH ALL THE PENDINGS, WORKING IN FINISH ALL THE THINGS THAT IN ONE MOMENT I CANT FINISH AND THAT NOW, THESE THINGS DONT WILL BE THE REASON OF DELAY ONE DAY MORE THE CHANGE OF MY LIFE.
I WILL DO MY BEST FOR TO HAVE THIS SITE UP-DATED AND OF WRITE ALL THAT I CAN MY DEAR FRIENDS, WRITE TO SUSAN, NGOC TRAM DO, AND WRITE TO ALL MY DEAR FRIENDS THAT I LOVE AND THAT I NEVER CAN FORGET.
I LOVE YOU FRIENDS...
WITH LOVE AND AFECTION:
jesús
PS: I REALLY MISS YOU FRIENDS PS2: I PROMISE WRITE YOU WHEN I HAVE THE OPORTUNITY FOR WRITE SPECIALLY FOR YOU, DEAR FRIEND NGOC TRAM DO .
SECOND PART (I MEAN, ONLY THE FIRST PART):
I WANT TO CHANGE... I WANT TO DO NEW THINGS... I WANT TO COMPLYING MY DREAMS... I WANT TO MY SERIE... I WANT TO DO MY MOVIES... I WANT TO PUBLISH MY BOOKS... I WANT TO FINISH MY DEGREE... I WANT TO KNOW: JAPAN, LONDON, CHINA, USA, CANADA, ISRAEL, VENESIA, VIETNAM, ISRAEL, PERÚ MACCHÚ PICCHÚ AND MANY, MANY PLACES MORE... I WANT TO KNOW TO MY DEAR FRIEND SUSAN...
ONE DAY I AWAKE AND I THINK: WOW, REALLY I CAN CHANGE, SO, WHY NOT??... SO, IT´S DECIDED, I WILL CHANGE ...
AND THAT IS THAT I WILL TO WITH MY LIFE, CHANGE AND TO DO THE THINGS THAT I ALWAYS DREAM WITH TO DO...
"THE ENTIRE LIFE IS A DREAM FOR IMAGINING"... AND THEN, WHEN YOU MANAGE TO IMAGINE IT, IS HOUR TO ACT...
SO, ACCOMPANY ME FRIENDS IN THIS MY TRIP THROUGH MY LIFE TO CHANGE...
In the last 2 or 3 or may be 4 weeks, I always face a damn it "proxy error" but I think that this only happen to me but now I know, later of a world survey that MYOPERA fail at world level .
And isn´t a joke , I really was thinking many about this and later of remember many things, I can carry to my memory the remember of one thing that I did in the past , I mean my first serious efort of finish a book .
Yeah, this is about a book, a book very loko and very very crazy , as all the things that I always do , haha, well, the point is that I remember that I was writing this crazy book in the first days of april of this year, and when I read all that you say me, I can remember that I write these pages of this book that still isn´t finished but is secure that will make you laugh, cry, or think or becomes crazy coz dont have structure , or if have structure this is very crazy .
Of any way, this post is for show you a little of the things that I like tooooooooo many to do in my life .
And as last data, I remember this book when u say me in one comment that I can to be your favorite author of head, so in this moment I can remember that I almost finish my book but due to the job, I can´t finish it in her moment .
Please say me if you want to read mi crazy book and if you want that I send you, please, send me a personal message with your mail, I promise send you the 1st version without correction and without stile conversion and without finish it .
Jojojo, manys "without"
And that is all , this is the surprise that I have it reserved for you .
jesús
PS: Yes, I think become myself a writer since I was a child, more or less 13 or 12 years ... Seems like if you know also many things of me . Thanks friend, I begin to feel with more intensity that you are more near to me .
PS2: I promise send a original version of this book when I publish it if you ask to me .
I was thinking this the last night when I write some words for my dear Rocío. Althought this doesnt have in the absolut relation with she, this conversation for my friend make me think in what is the situation with one girl that I love so much, but, that I think one thing very real and true: I dont belong "there", thinking of "there" as the place at the side of she, of her heart, head, and hair that I love so much.
I think send to she an e-mail with the theme of the master Eric Clapton "tear of heaven", song that make me think this things that I count to you.
I feel that the relation will be extended more, by the less 2 or 3 years more.
I feel bad coz this delay is my blame.
You know, there are certain girls that need certain level of experience, development and certain class of experiences of life in order for that you really have a real oportunity, if is of other way, she only will play with you, I mean, this girl is one hard girl, isn´t easy to get one kind of oportunity with she.
For that I need develop... And for that reason, this relation will be extended by more of 2 or 3 years more, whem I achieve 2 or 3 things that I really want reach.
For that, and because in this moments, I´m not at the height that I should to be. For that, how I can´t pay the price for to live this relation, I should expect more. I can see this the last time that I had a conversation with she, that more time betwen owr relation will be aded due to my less personal development.
I dunno if you can understand me, but there are certain things of the life that requires certain level in order for that you can live it... If not, the oportunity will pass and expect to another person or to you but, time later.
"Coz I know I dont belong, here in the heaven"...
In short:
The heaven will be without place to doubts my enterprise, my houses, life and business that I always dream to reach, more than the money, the things or the business that I could do, I wish more to be at this level, due to the changes that I should suffer to be the business guy that did the business that need a big level for to be made it.
I love the kind of person that this search will covert myself... A person, that was beyond. That is that I want to be, not the business, money, or business trips or advantages: I want to be the class of person that have the oportunity of "live" the love of their life with she.
Or another way of say it:
"I MUST BE STRONG AND CARRY ON COZ I KNOW, I DONT BELONG HERE, HERE IN THE "HEAVEN" ...
THE HEAVEN BETWEN YOUR ARMS, LORET
This is the heaven at that I dont belong... Loret.
When I begin my blog here in my Opera, I had many things in mind that I want to do, but, due to my activitys as contractist, I never had oportunity of update my blog as I wish.
If you visited my blog in the past, you can see certains changes in my blog right now. Some of these changes are upload more images, put a visual image as the videos of you tube and many, many others things that are principally details, details that will help to you to have a better understanding of my blog and my post.
YEAH¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡, BY END I CAN FIND THIS SONG THAT I LISTEN 13 YEARS AGO¡¡¡¡
THIS SONG BECAME ME CRAZY AND I SEARCH IT FOR 13 YEARS¡¡ BUT I NEVER KNOW WHAT IS THE NAME OR THE SINGER NAME¡¡¡. THE ONLY THING THAT I REMEMBER IS A NOISE: " BA-BO-BE-BARI-BA-BO-BEPO-BARI-BABOBEPOP" OR SOME THING LIKE THAT, WELL, THE GOOD THING IS THAT 13 YEAR OF SEARCH (I HAVE 24 YEARS OLD) I CAN FIND, AT LAST THISSSSS SÚPER SONG¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
THE NAME OF THE SONG IS "SCATMAN´S WORLD" AND WAS THE SENCOND WORLD HIT OF SCATMAN JOHN, A GENIUS OF THE MUSIC THAT DIE IN MAY OF 1999 IN HER HOUSE OF LUNG CANCER.
HE WAS A VERY GOOD PERSON THAT HELP A LOT TO THE STAMMERING CHILDRENS COZ HE WAS A STAMMERING CHILDREN.
HE WAS A PERSON THAT CONVERTED HER MAJOR PROBLEM AND WEAKNESS IN HER MAJOR TALENT AND SUCESSFULL SOURCE. HER "SCATS" IN HER SONGS ARE PRESENT DUE TO HE STAMMERING. DUE TO HER ASSISTANT, HE ADD TO HER SONGS MUSIC DANCE WITH A STRONG INFLUENCE OF THE "EURO" DANCE, THIS ALTHOUGHT IN ONE BEGIN, HE HAVE FEAR COZ HE DONT WANT THAT HER FANS THEY KNOW THAT HE IS STAMMERING, BUT THE BMG EXECUTIVES DECIDE THAT THIS IS A VERY GOOD IDEA, AND THE REST IS HISTORY: HE REACH WORLD FAME WITH HER FIRST SONG CALLED: "SCATMAN", BUT THE SONG THAT BECOMES ME CRAZY WAS "SCATMAN´S WORLD", A SONG THAT INVITE TO "BECOME "HAPPY" AND FORGET THE HARD THAT IS THE LIFE, ALTHOUGHT WAS FOR ONE MOMENT" IN HER OWN WORDS.
AND NOW DEAR LADIES AND GENTLEMANS, THIS IS THE SONG THAT I HAVE THE HONOUR OF INTRODUCE TO YOU:
LADIES AND GENTLEMAN, WITH YOU, SCATMAN JOHN PERFORMING "SCATMAN´S WORLD".
Althought this isn´t my intention, I will write in this night this comment:
I am very bored... I bore myself very fast of the things...
And the reason is that now I can see that, I don´t have the enough patience for to live the major part of the things that come together when you live one relation of love.
I discover this later of that I was to the house of certain girl and then something say me that she left walk. And that is all because this relation it does not matter to me more.
If you are my friend, please, tell me one thing: Is really this reaction natural or is learned?...
This night, still I dunno what I should think about this reaction mine... May be that I´m too crazy and strange or may be that in fact, I matured too much.
Meanwhile I continue thinking that I bore myself very fast of the things...
I in the days of the mine (February 2007, Nice Face =) ....
This is a view to the days when I was in the mine, when I work in this beautifull place but that now, is only part of the past, a beautiful past that makes rich my life. Sorry if I dont write nothing in this weeks that makes months but this days really have been truly hard days. If there are certain things that one person can understand in this life and about this life, this thing will be that the life always change of ways out of the imagination… Thus I feel my life in this point and moment of my life: Out of the imagination. With all, I dont forget you friends, in fact I did many post that in her time I never publish him but, this day, at this point, I will do that, I will to publish him, I will write and later I will publish him. Sorry, my friends, I forget a lot to you my friends, but in this moments less than never I can write as I want. You are a very important part of my life, I think in you almost all the days, but, with the amount of troubles that I face in this moments, the less that I can do is fight and deserve to you a special momento as this, at 2:13 am. I love u Friends.
To be teacher is fill of frustrations... and the students that I have are kids althought they have 17 years old. I feel my self sad and with less forces each time for to be in front of they each monday. Today in class, I feel bad, I feel my mouth dry, and also I feel weakness. I was sad because of they atitude... I feel bad...
But...
I love teach to my students. I dont change this by nothing. I love share time with my students. I love use many of my time in prepare class for my students. In fact, I love this labor, I love to be their teacher, althought this make me sad and many times tooo sad coz I receive a high impact when they do bad things and I almost cant control their atitude.
Is hard to be teacher, and more in a place and in one school when the students they dont want study.
At the less in the school that I´m teacher, is hard to be teacher.
But now I undersand some thing: I never give up but also, I should to do one thing more:
I have to reinvent me.
Without importing the hard thing that be the process, I need to be better, always ¡¡.
This is an extense invitation to visit my 3 news groups what I did now. I think what is a good moment for do this. The 3 themes of the group are very similar in the sense of what I love these 3 themes.
I buy this Lap Top coz I think what they was a Dell Inspiron 6400 but in place of this, I received a LATITUDE D620¡¡.
I should recognize what I was disapointed the first time what I see this computer coz I think what I will receive the visual shock of the Inspiron 6400 but, in place of this, I receive the black and serious skin of the Latitude D 620.
I don´t know what the LATITUDE is tooo better what the Inspiron ¡¡¡¡.
When I read the specifications of this Lap-Top I was surprised ....
Intel Core Duo at 1.83 GHz, 667 MHz Front Side Bus:eyes: 2 MB Caché L2 by core (2 MB x 2= 4 MB Caché L2 ) 3D Card Nvidia Quadro NVS 110 with 256 MB with Turbo Caché 1024 MB RAM DDR2 at 663 MHz, expandable to 4048 MB 1440 x 990 Screen Definition 60 GB Hard Disk at 7200 RPM DVD ROM/ CD-RW 6-Cell/56 WHr Primary Battery Microsoft XP Finger Print Reader Secure Card Reader Cellular & BlueTooth Conection Intel Wireless 802.11 A, B & G
Almost I dont have friends here , almost all they live in others places, sometimes, very far of my house
And this place is a very small town. So the people here is tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
common :
By that I always thinked: I DONT BELONG HERE ¡¡¡¡
All my life I wonder always "TO WHERE I BELONG?
"WHY I BORN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR OF MY """ REAL LIFE """ ???? "
"WHY I AM THE ONLY WHAT ARE FAR OF "HOUSE" ???"
I feel what I belong to a very far place, to one place what all are like, where I´m a not a phenomeno, in a place where the people live at the hour of the day what they want, without care if they sing, they like teach, they like computers, web pages, Wireless Networks, Internet aplications, Satellite Internet, Electronic Devices, play music, philosophy, write, to do movies, edit audio, work in audio in live in shows, the business, bring Techical Asistence to Enterprizes, fight in Enterprises Contests, cry of when in when, photography, martial arts, the TUNING CAR and run as CRAZY , to climb mountains, the works in the higs, a pretty girl some years younger than I and many many many things what I dunno if my entire life will bring to me the oportunity of to do...
You really like toooo many too me but, You are tooooooo young ...... But I tell you some thing: If you have 2 years more, I dont feel this thing inside of my...... You are the unique person what really liked toooooooo many to me in many, many years... And this is new for me ...
I will change the name of this blog like my friend Kayla coz now, later of this part of my feelings, isnt more a secure place for my...
And I dont want what my entire life and private place becomes a public joke for all my enemys...
I dunno why I begin to write taking a deep breath before press the first key of this page of my diary...
One year ago...
One year ago, I begin one change in my life, one "total restructuration of my self". One year ago I was lost... One year ago I dont have HOPE... One year ago I dont have wishes of to live my life...
One year ago I was LOST, TOOO LOST . . .
ONE THOUSAND TRYING TO COME OUT AT THE SAME TIME OF MY INTERIOR BUT, I CAN´T SAY NOT ONE ONLY WORD
I dunno why I have this feel inside me.
May be I´m in the LIMIT of my self... May be I´m losing my life in every breath... May be, I´m already L O S T ¡¡¡ But now I wonder, AM I CRAZY ????? What is the Reason ???, I mean, my reason for walk forward in my LIFE???? What is what really I want???????????????? Why I feel this one thousand one things trappeds in my mouth without have the possiblity of express at the less one of them and, why I´m of that way?????
TIME XPRESION LINES IN MY FACE .... Pathology of the DREAM¡¡¡
I dunno why I CAN´T SLEEP FINE ¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
One of the worst thigs that happen to my is the IMPOSSIBLITY OF TO SLEEP LIKE THE NORMAL PEOPLE ¡¡¡¡¡¡
I mean, I´M NOT A NORMAL GUY, but not only this, I´m strange betwen the "stranges" .
Until my mom said me: WHY YOU AREN´T A NORMAL KID ?????
This really can be a thing without any worth but,
THIS ARE DAMAGING MY HEALT CONDITION ¡¡¡¡¡, I´M SUFERING A LOT BY CANT SLEEP BY WEEKS ¡¡¡¡¡¡¡ MY FACE EACH DAY SUFFER AND LOOKS MORE OLD WITHOUT WHAT I CANT DO NOTHING FOR SAVE MY SELF....
I WISHHHH TO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEP WITH ALL THE HEART¡¡¡¡
I have since the past thursday sleeping only 3 HOURS AT DAY coz I CAN´T SIMPLYMIND SLEEP ¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
SUSAN, MY LOVELY FRIEND AND MY REASON FOR BEING IN OPERA, HELP ME ¡¡¡¡¡¡
BY LAST, SAY TO EVERYBODY: THINK THAT YOU LIVE ONLY ONE TIME ¡¡¡¡
SOOOO .....
WITH A DAMN IT ¡¡¡¡, JUST DO IT THE THINGS THAT YOU REALLY WANT´S TO DO ¡¡¡¡¡¡
TODAY I DECIDED THAT I WILL TO DO THE THINGS THAT REALLY I WANT TO DO¡¡¡¡
I DECIDE IT NOT LOOSE TIME DOING THINGS THAT REALLY I DONT CARE, ONLY IMPORTANTS THINGS, LIKE, BETWEN THIS NIGHT, WRITE A NEW POST FOR FEEL ME BETTER AND FOR ALL MY FRIENDS ¡¡¡¡
-Si tienen tiempo, veanlo y reenvíenlo a todas las personas que conozcan. Si por ventura esta cadena tuviera suerte y alguien sabe algo, avisen a los telefonos que vienen en la presentación de power point, y de paso a mi, me encantaría tener buenas noticias.
-If they have time, read it and resend to all the people that know. If by fortune this chain was lucky and someone knows something, they notify to the phones number that they come in the presentation of power point, and in transit to my, I would love to have good news. Is a loose girl, sometimes the criminals they travel to another countrys, for that reason, I include to you, my foreign friends; tnx for ur support.
Although already are the 3 am, this night happen someting that make me feel sad, but a sadness very deep.
Today, I worked all the day under the sun (Check the images), so, my skin suffered a lot of damage, I suffered many sun burns.
And later, in the night I went to the Graduation Party of the Secundary School, and more later, in half of the party, begin to rain.
It wet me a lot in the rain.
In one stupid coment of someone that work for Old Mine, my client, he said:
It burned and wet... why?
Coz they are my friends ¡¡¡
When the rain begin, I help to my friends to put under cover all the music and power devices. We suffered with the rain coz the devices it wet.
All the day I was under the sun rays. I have many hard things in my interior. I need many peace. I need many many many companion. I need to leave this place... All this make me hurt.
I need say: I´m a guy that is suffering to many.
Today, in the night, later of the rain, I remember when I lived in Emerald when I was a child. In this times, the life was very happy for me. Still I wonder how is that the childs they are soo hapy with nothing. I remember this days.
But now, really i dunno where I want to live.
Almost the last thing: -I saw to a boy, ex-boy-friend of Laura, the girl I like toooo many.
I felt too many sad coz I wonder how is that Laura she can to have a love relationship with a suck like this boy?.
So, I begin to felt bad.
And now, actually are the 3:15 and, although I will sleep, instead I´m writing my blog, my beloved Opera blog.
In short: I´m tooo sad.
But, neither words, I can say how so much are my feelings.
Tomorrow.
PS: -I´m far of my house. For that I dont write too many this days.
I did this blog later of 4 hours in which I learn to "make work" a wmplayer in my page.
I want thank to Vitcon. I saw this player in her page, and now I know that isnt easy the first time. In this space I want show to everyone what a kind of music I like. My Top Ten ¡¡¡
Number 10: Creep, Radiohead, Rock.
Here the first: RadioHead with the song: Creep (Or almost worm ).
This song begin to like many to me because of the music although the liric isnt very healt and isnt a very good message for the young people, I like too many by the music.
Number 9: Baila Morena, Maná with Zuchero, Pop-Rock.
This a very special song.
The name is: "Baila Morena" or in english: "It dances Black Girl".
The song is of one Mexican Rock Group called "Maná".
I like too many the music of this guys.
Enjoy it ¡¡
Number 8: Hips don´t lie, Shakira featuring: Wycleff Jean, Regaetton.
This music style is actually very famous in all the world.
With this song, Shakira had a participation in the half time of the World Cup in 2006.
Was a Hit.
Shakira is a Latin Singer that now is more sucessfull that Wycleff Jean, who in the past win 2 Grammys.
The things and the times changes.
Shakira is one of my favorites artist.
Enjoy it ¡¡¡.
Number 7: Californication, Red Hot Chilli Peppers.
Did I need to say more??.
Red Hot Chilli Peppers, point.
Number 6: "Se fué" or "He went" of Laura Pausinni.
At last in this early morning, this song is very special for me. "Se fué" or "he went" of Laura Pausinni.
This song is about a person that leave to one girl. Is about love, many love.
When I live some hard with Perla, this song make me cry.
I need to say that is a very emotional song.
In short I will post the traduction of the song, by the moment, enjoy it ¡¡¡¡
Number 5: Kris y Ángel, Looney Tunes with the Song "Ven Bailalo" or "they see you dance it", a song in Regaetton Rythm.
Enjoy it and leave your opinion and coments.
Number 4: Cheer, Disco music with the Super International Hit "BELIEVE".
Is Cheer, Did I need to say more???
Number 3: ¡Credence!, ¡Credence!, ¡Credence!.
The song: Have you ever seen the rain ??????????
Did exist another ??????have_you_ever_seen_the%20rain%C2%BF_creedence.mp3
Number 2: Diego Torres in the 2005 MTV Unplugged featuring to Julieta Venegas in the Song "Sueños" or in english "Dreams".
This song was a hit around the world. Is a súper song.
Enjoy it ¡¡¡.
And my number 1: PANDA from México with the song "Los malaventurados no lloran" or in english: "The ill-fated do not cry".
Is a super Song from the Punk Rythm. Speak about the dead girlfriend of one guy that miss so much to this pretty lady.
Is a song for cry, cry, and cry ¡¡¡¡.
Please, leave your coments in my blog ¡¡¡, this time I want to know your opinion of my songs, please, leave ur coments rigth now.
Bye.
Jesús.
And also I should say that I remember this beautifull song due to one of my last visits to my prefered blog in all Opera, I mean the Susan´s Opera Blog.
Thank you very much Friend Susan ¡¡¡ ==================================
Artist: Black Song: Wonderful Life
Here I go out to sea again The sunshine fills my hair And dreams hang in the air
Gulls in the sky and in my blue eyes You know it feels unfair There's magic everywhere
Look at me standing Here on my own again Up straight in the sunshine
No need to run and hide It's a wonderful, wonderful life No need to hide and cry It's a wonderful, wonderful life
Sun in your eyes The heat is in your hair They seem to hate you Because you're there
And I need a friend Oh, I need a friend To make me happy Not stand here on my own
Look at me standing Here on my own again Up straight in the sunshine
I need a friend Oh, I need friend To make me happy Not so alone Look at me here Here on my own again Up straight in the sunshine
Second Thing: Sadness ¡¡. ====================== I hate when some doesnt work . May be I´m capricious but, really I hate when some that isnt a big thing doesnt work ¡
In adition to that, in this moment, may be due to the f&%/$# courage, I feel my self like a worm, like a creep.
Third thing: Dark vision of my future ========================
This is one of this moments in my life in which you only can see more darkest clouds behind of the dark clouds... without forget the storm, the horrible wind, the dark night, the bored rain and the lightning and thunders... and you, again alone in the middle of the green flat, criying together with the rain. I hate that ¡¡, not even my cry you are alone as I it desire in this damned dark night, curse, I hate my life¡
Zero thing: Solitude ===========
I feel thousand alone percent¡¡¡¡ Really as says the this song , I need a friend, but you know, one that this fence and that can help you and to be with you provided that it need.
This is a very good moment in Old Min. This beautifull facilitys becomes my house by almost one month. A record. Now in this moment of my life, I'm very happy!!. One of the dreams of my life, becomes reality. And in adition to that, I'm having a very good rest!!!. This blog post is writen in one "hamaca" (this is the name of that orange thing in that I'm resting in the photos ). Since some days after, I had a lot of desires of take some photos of my self in this part of the major house. Is a excelent place for to rest !!, but until now I had the tim3 and the oportunity of to do this, exactly this that I'm doing, living a very good moment of my life . Still I remember almost all the really hard moments that I had that to life until arrive to this, this moment, and this point, and really, really, really, this is a excelent point of my life!!!. And I'm HAPPY by that!!!. In the past, I saw how the major quantity of my friends, they upload & upload & upload photos & photos & photos & photos & photos ( Like Yesusan, Kayla, Ngoc Tram Do, Justine, Maya, etc !!!) but in fact, I dont become tired of await. I knew it that one day I will have the oportunity of to do that: Take a lot of photos of my self and publish it in my beloved Opera blog.
Now is a very good moment this afternoon almost night. I really want that you can to see the beautifull seek that I'm having in that beautifull moments; really is b e a u t i f u l l l o o k of the town in the down part of that place called <La Esmerald>, my birth place !!.
I dont know what more can I say if not is that, in this point and moment of my life, I dont desire nothing more. I dont desire to finish the firs contract of electricity, I dont desire that they pay to me that good quantity of money, I dont desire to buy my first Truck 4 X 4 for that mountain roads, I dont desire to buy my first Lap Top, I dont desire to end this blog. May be this is due to that I dont expect nothing for to live my life; I dont expect until that I have my car (Remember friends, not is a simple car, that car will be a <Mustang GT 350 FastBack 67> for to be happy, I dont expect until that I have my Lap Top for to be happy; I dont expect until that I do International Buseness for to know that I worth too many, and that my worth, the money they doesnt give me. I know that I worth too many!!, and that my worth always has been high, this although my luck not always was good in the past. I learn one very important thing for to live my life: not expect nothing for to be happy. And that my dear friends, is may be the better lesson that I can teach to anybody, to be happy in the moment, not expect nothing for being happy, or anybody... And above, if you have a very good & special person for you, never leave to that pretty and special person... May be you never have a very good & special person like that you are leaving now in that moments. Not waste your beautifull & special moment in the mountain at the light of the moon only for that you dont have all the things that you really want to give to that person... Value more your company and your presence at the 100% this night with that beautifull & special person that all the gifts that you are thinking in give to she when you have enough money. Believe in my, some times, when you have the money, then you dont have the company for to share all that things that now, you have the oportunity of to buy.
Better, make your happyness day to day.
But if you dont want, I change position with you. I value more the happyness that the money.
Whell, I'm here again!!. Later of that las t 3 days, I' come back with new energys and desires of continue with my work!!!
If you dont know, I arrive to Old Min Mining Corporation since the past tuesday, 13 of march, and since that moment, I dont have a rest until the past friday, 6 of April. I come back to OLD MINE yesterday in the night, more or less at the 11:25 pm. Too late !!!
Well, later of that rest, Only I want to say to all my friends that dont be angry with me if I can to respond all your coments like is my tradition, its only that I have a lot of work and maybe in the next weeks, I dont have enough time for to respond to all the coments.
I will miss you: Kayla, Ngoc Tram Do, Susan, Trudy, Isabel, Daniela, Maja, Winter,etc, etc, !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
All this afternoon, since the 12 am I was creating a new Photo Album with the my pretty friends of Opera.
Was a funny xperience, in fact I wonder why I dont do that before ¡. Well, but now, I have 3 days free, I mean a rest¡. My client Eng. Terry Brown give me three days for to rest ¡¡¡ (I was working since the 14, of March until now, friday, 6 of April, this is more or less... 22 days¡¡¡. Well, to say that I have a rest, is only a expresion because I have a lot work in house, too many , I think that is comparable with the amount of work that I have here and this that here, in Old Mine the work amount is Hughe ¡.
But I´m happy because at the less, by now I have three days free ¡¡¡¡¡
@Ngoc Tram Do: Mhh, may be, I dont know, I will to go of Shopping ¡¡¡
But at the less I know a thing: I dont know how to go to home ¡¡¡
I dont have still a car ¡¡¡¡
Mhh, may be that will be solved with a call ¡¡
Well, wish me luck; may be I cant read my blog until the next wednesday or tuesday. I dont know because I dont have Internet in my house and, I come back the monday, 9 of April, I mean the next week, but by the work load, may be I dont have enough time for to check my beloved Opera Blog ¡; in adition to that, I need to rest . I ve bad sleep in the past days ¡¡.
Bye to all my friends ¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡
Susan,Kayla, Ngoc, Isabel, Trudy, Justine, Maya; At end, to all my friends ¡¡¡
Bye, until the monday 9, or tuesday 10, or wednesday 11 .
In the last days I ve haved a lot work , but also this have their rewards.
The day of now, one pal tell me that one person sell their Camaro, I don´t know the model but is very pretty , and although I´m a mustang lover, I dont have the enough money for to but the model 65 that sell to me my friend Kill to hollow. This Camaro is very cheap, only 450 USD¡¡ and my actual salary is 45 USD daily, this mean that I have enough money but, I dont know if I will to buy the Camaro, my lap - top, or 3 pc´s for my cyber cafe; well, this depend of the money, and how I have a lot of job, may be this means that I get enough money for 4 pc´s more printer, more lap top centrino core 2 duo, more mustang or camaro, more Pick up truck for all my jobs in that I will to travel.
In fact, this could be a very good season ¡¡. Well, that this becomes a true reality.
Bye:
Kayla, Susan, Ngoc Tram Do, Justine, Daniela, Isabel, and all my other friends¡¡¡ (Of moments O dont remeber all the names ).
Now I have a new life style, and a life that is very near of the "normality" and of the stability. ¡Wow!, ¡that´s good!.
And that have a name, and their name is :
A D A P T A T I O N ¡ ¡.
Now I feel more natural certain things in my life. Things like more advantages, money in, and the benefits of the job, and to the things by my own count ¡¡¡.
I feel happy but not excited; more well I feel a change in my life. And that change have a name and their name is: A D A P T A T I O N ¡ ¡.
The day of now: tuesday, 13 of march of 2007 I came back to dear home Old Mine Mining Corp. I´m happy because again I have work. Later of the hundreds of troubles that I had in the last 40 days, by moments, I think that this moment never come back or arrive. I don´t know what I will to do but this time, all should change, I don´t have another option.
There are two things in my mind: 1)Old Mine. 2)The troubles in my house.
But there are some new this time:
"Blue Ray".
In a short definition, this is a impulse (more well due to time ).
But one veeery diferent. The enough for that I say: "I´m happy of have it".
The situation: 1.I born in this place. 2.This give me bad memories about that :,). 3.Because my father dead in this place 17 years ago, in august of 1989. 4.I´dont have chance of study :,). 5.And that puts me very sad :,). 6.I dont have choice: If I dont do buseness, I will not be able some day to study. 7.Then, although I want not, I have to continue :,).
The veredict: 1.I need success in the Buseness to change my life. 2.And for to buy my dear Lap Top. 3.And House (Fam troubles). 4.And vehicle for transport my self. 5.And for put my Cyber Coffee. 6.And to have my life & Enterprise just as I want it.
The Next: 1.To do my life just as I want it. 2.Call to clients and ask status of the quotations that I send to they. 3.To do more buseness. 4.To do my life.
If all fail (Every is a probability): 1.Ask job here, in OLD MINE. 2.Save money. 3.Enduring the situation. 4.Ask more job oportunitys in USA. 5.And to my life of Enterprise Buseness in OLD MINE Mining Corporation in USA.
Next?: Finish this post and go to sleep .
Bye.
By cert, this is the room in which I´m writing, in the Old Mine Mining Corporation, located in: Emerald, México.
Until then I can post more and I can´t respond all the mesages, but you can write me, when I have more time I can respond yours coments my friends, ok?.
I arrived to a very high point in my life. At the point of don´t know what I will do now.
I almost finish all the crazy things that I haved in my head by many many time.
Almost I finish all these crazy things that I haved in the past in my head, and now, that almost I done the major of these crazy things nothing remains to me, only the good judgment, but this is something that really scare to me...
Sorry, I will to go, I write more later the next part.
I hate when I almost enter in a City. Is a very strong shock for me. I don´t know what happen but somthing inside of my make reaction with the strange landscapes, above all, the landscapes of Speedways and all this cars moving to all parts.
I was tought this in the last 2 or 3 weeks because I only want to do a few buseness more and sould leave this place.
The problem is the emotions that generate in my interior the act of to see new landscapes, and above this landscape, of many highways, I don´t know why but ever causes to me a big impression and really bigs encountered feelings.
Sometimes I hate to be too strong. By example, the last days and now, I´m crossing by a hard way, but the call of one hour after change the panorama for me. When I have some useful, I know how to use that (And to do buseness).
I think that I was too weak, this hypermarket sensitive condition, would be retreat of me. But this is that I hate to be strong, because I can with this and many, many, many more. Sometimes I hate the force, but at the less, I can continue seeing like all my injuries heal soon. Sometimes the force put me in a hate routine of continue without care what happen to my sourrender or in my self or in my interior.
But, whit this great change in my life, I´m now to point of to do a new trip of buseness. So if I don´t write for a few days, I ´m triping. But I them notice.
In the last two days I was seeing a lot of blogs of hundred of users, at the point that by moments I believe that I was lost, haha.
Opera is Hughes¡¡ Like the name of the Enterprize of Satellital Internet.
Well, but with all this big tour trough the world, I come back here, to house with greater desires of to do of my blog, a big memory, a companion trough the time and my life situations and , the phases of my life and the places of my beloved México that I will to go.
Really, later of saw the quality of the people and friends that have Opera (Thanks Maya.Maya & Sagami), give me a lot a desires to continue with my blog all my live; I began with 23 years in december 19 of 2006 and I desire to share more of my live, a little like preparation of my web page (well the page of my buseness, by certain, almost ready.)and my books (I´m writer), haha.
My big desire?.... Easy, ¡To have more special friends and that the things that I share, really helps to who really need it.
By cert, now snowing in my livingplace; was a beatifull spectacle. By 9 years the snow gone; but today come back. And the people say that in the next town, ¡¡the snow have 20 cm!!. I really desire to have a cam and share the photos of one of the places that I´m contractor of the OLD MINE Mining Corporation in this town called "Wet Mountain".
In this place, there are one of the most beatyfull places for to take photographs, the house are hughes, very olds, more than 100 years old, and with this style thipic of the epoch of the 1800 years. All this houses have a US design and are very cute. But, may be I get someone of my friends.
Really I don´t like this situation. I remained without money and without buseness, at the least this season of Holidays.
With all this troubles, I remained without money, buseness and seems that without Lap Top. Really this situation it despairs me a lot. This season of the year is thus, with the mayority of the buseness in state of congealment.
These are the situations that almost always it touches me to live, a frozen dream by the lack of oportunities, a dream that if remains in this state, I don´t know when I will have again the oportunity of leave this place.
Inevitably I need the Lap-Top for leave this place. I don´t travel again without my information. Not again.
Today I put me very happy because i got a new friend; tnx Sagami, you are great¡¡.
Although I continue writing, that doesn´t signify that the sadness have itself gone. I don´t want to leave to go an only moment more than my life without doing it I more desire. Not this time and not more.
At times it doesn´t matter the effort but if to carry out. Later, nothing imports. As your desires and the of your heart. ¡¡ I want to leave this damned place!!. Damned as I feel beeing here. ¡I Want to fly!. Perhaps tomorrow, when wake up.
"There are an a diference between have friends and to be friend; of the first I don´t know nothing, of the second is everything that I know to do." Jesús.
For me, the new year begin now: Monday, 25, dic,2006. Begin with a new and extensive search, a search of slightly unknow, of something that i can´t achieve still, of something rare and strange like the same life that are waiting for me in the new life in Acuña.
And this is because the things that i should do begin now. Yesterday in the party of Christmas, i thougt that it´s to better for me se to sell my x-box and my IBM Net Vista for to buy the Lap-Top that i need for to take with my self my information in this new search, in this new phase, that begin not with the arrival of the new year, begin now together with this it renewed need of one Lap-Top of this phase called: The search.
(*¡¡Important things about the phases of the life: 1.Each phase have their own particular needs. 2.They can change with the smaller wind. 3.They can putting your life in the biggest extremes: one day, you can need all money that be possible joining; at this same day, you can need be mistaken of him. In short, you are more or less like a piece that is changed of place and situations constantly. And this changes and this situations are called Life.)
Unknow things about me: 1.For more than eight years, I had more books than clothes. I brook with that this Christmas. 2.I live in the desert; it´s a beautyfull place. 3.I don´t hope nothing of anything. "Never expect, to expect is evil" is one of my own favorites phrases. In short, the result of a phase of three years. 4.I´m 23 years old. 5.This is my first blog and the only; i dont need moore. 6.My inspiration to do my blog was YehSusan. 7.I´m sensitive hypermarket to the feelings, emotions, hurt, pain, and suffer of all the ones that are to my around; In short: I´m very sensitive hypermarket. 8.I love the photography, but i don´t have Digital camera. It´s my objetive to obtain a. 9.I have many, many, many problems; too many. Wich signifies that life also. 10.I´m small businessman. I don´t work, i do buseness. I´m engineer of Service of Satellite Services (Internet & VOiP) & wireless network contractor. My enterprize is: dealers@t. By the moment...
The search: Continuation.(Last part that i write before to going to sleep; I have to awake me early to be going to leave my sister Faby to central teamster, to part that writing, itself not the Office can be installed, hahaha.) This name forms part of my book, as well as of my life. When you nothing remains, is always a time to search everything that expects to you. Unfortunately, a colapse in Windows (dammed Windows,reason Microsoft didn´t do a damned one Windows more stable?) and I lost the info that there was written, and in the process also the inspiration. The unique thing that remains me by saying perhaps this night is: "At times we silence the things that we want to do for fear to fail and that later they repeat it ourselves the others. Of the form that be and in the middle of any situation that you can be, don´t you silence your voice and don´t you stop your dreams, never... Sometimes it´s the unique thing that remains after the failure, after the rout, of the humillation and of the tragedy, don´t finish you with them..." Sorry, but when the inspiration goes, goes, and otherwise, i don´t like to write. ¡¡Tomorrow!!.
And by cert Frnd, sorry coz I´m having some troubles (nothing inusual in my crazy life) for to have internet access in this moments, but if all goes fine, soon I will more time here, in myopera and in your opera ;) jesús PS: Be crazy frnd ;)
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