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we all are different from each other...so we can exist and live our own life and go our own way in this world...no none is zero and no one is perfect...believe in yourself, my dear friend...may be these days are hard time for you, but i wish it will be replaced by better and easier time for you

Still I dont finish of read your comment but, I feel wishes of cry (although this is one of the things that I do less in the world since 3 or 4 years... I become hard with the pass of the things and situations above me... But that was necesary coz if still my sensibility makes me feel weak, before my senses they was the dead, for this reason I change my life.


Thanks friend, I dunno how but I feel that you understand very fine and well the things and the situations that I face since the last day of january with a friend of my.

And I feel that I should, I should say coz I say this:

I say this coz I wish help to a friend of my, but that situation becomes out of control and my friend she feel bad and she run...
That night she knows that her boyfriend he was saying liars to she coz he, is the boyfriend of my cousin Sassy... She suffer a lot with the notice but, I say to she the true coz she is my friend and, I should remark that I REALLY WANT HELP TO SHE ... I never expect that this night, all will becomes out of control...

I was tinking all this night that may be the problem isnt that I really want help to she, I think that the real problem is : I .

May be the problem isnt the wish of help, may is the "way of do the things" ...

I can say one thing?:

I HATE TO BE OF THE WAY THAT I KNOW¡¡¡...

I HATE MY KNOWLEDGE IN PSICOLOGY THAT MAKES ME KNOW AT EACH MOMENT, WHEN ONE PERSON DONT WANT HEAR MY VOICE AND MY CONVERSATION...
I HATE MY KNOWLEDGE IN PROXEMY THAT MAKE ME KNOW WHEN ONE PERSON DONT WANT TO BE NEAR OF ME...
I HATE THE KNOWLEDGE IN PROGRAMMING NEURO LINGUISTIC THAT MAKE ME UNDERSTAND ALL AND EACH ONE OF THE ANGLES OF THE THINGS THAT THE PERSONS SAYS IN EACH ONE OF HER COMMENTS...
BUT, MORE, MORE, MORE & MORE I HATE MY HORRIBLE DEPENDENCE OF MY FEELINGS COZ, WHEN THE PEOPLE THEY CLOSE THEIR HEARTS AND THEIRS FEELINGS AND THEY DONT WANT HEAR ME, REALLY I DONT HAVE WAY OF TO KNOW THE THINGS THAT THEY FEEL AND THAT THEY DONT WANT SHARE WITH ME¡¡¡...


In my "About" page, you can read about my worst defect: my emotional hypersensitivity...

I dont have way to explain this to you but is the most horrible thing that you can feel in the life, is the worst gift that you can receive, is the worst course that someone can wish to you, is, is the worst ......

Friend, I dunno how to explain this to you and I dunno if exist some way of explain this to you but, in less words is feel of more...
Some times I was able to feel "the moment" in which my friend they feel very bad... This, althought my friends they are toooo far of me...

Really this is my worst defect coz if of any way I´m right now diferent of all the people of this country and state (One time I was to one very Important Company and I did some specials exams, and when I receive the results the Manager of this section says me one things that until today, I can forget: Jesús, you are unique betwen more or less 10 or may be 15 millions of persons that they done the test for enter to this Enterprise in all my life in this Enterprise... You are veeeery diferent, and althought you are very smart, many people here inside of the enterprise they are worried about her works coz you handle a lot areas and they dont want that you enter to this Enterprise... Sorry Jesús .... Still I dunno what they see in me, but I only know that this lose of work mean for me more months without work, money and oportunity of study more .... That was very hard to me ) this put me in the horns of the moon of for " to be diferent"....

May I am asking a lot if I ask that you understand my crazy life and more crazy feelings, but, one thing is real: I DONT ASK TO HAVE THIS, I DONT ASK BORN WITH THIS ... I think that the people that they want "to feel more" they are insanes and suckers... They really dont know that they are asking some thing more or less like the dead, to dying in life slowly... Like I in each moment...

The extreme very good luck that I have for the business, is compensated by this horrible hypersensibility that hundred of times, stoles to me the happiness to live.

Thanks friend for your comprehension, may be I look "insane" to you but, believe in my, I´m of the more normal of the world, I know people that is able to call to your new cel phone that you buy in the last 30 minutes way to the house of this guy coz is the cel that you always want, and you dont have time of give this new number to nobody coz you are driving :O, or people that is able of call to you for you "name" before that you open the door ...

This kind of people makes me feel of the most normal in the world .
But also I know that they have a major control (in two words: Incredible control:O) of their skills , but when I ask how they did this, they said me the same thing: DONT WAS EASY ... Like if I dont know this... Why nothing is easy for me ?.

im sorry, may be God wanted to try your strength and will make it better and easier after that.

For you
Standing for what you believe in,
Regardless of the odds against you,
and the pressure that tears at your resistance,
... means courage.

Keeping a smile on your face,
When inside you feel like dying,
For the sake of supporting others,
... means strength.

Doing more than is expected,
To make another's life a little more bearable,
Without uttering a single complaint,
... means compassion.

Holding your head high,
And being the best you know you can be
When life seems to fall apart at your feet,
Facing each difficulty with the confidence
That time will bring you better tomorrows,
And never giving up,
... means confidence.

i hope you will get it all, my dear friend

wish you a happy valentine...may be its not easy time to you, but i just want you to feel happier and easier

cuz you are just a little man in this fucking ball of land, people can say... everybody is diferent.. but they make everything to be like everybody else, i mean everybody use clothes, everybody buys shoes, everybody listen the same music existing in the planet, BUT who makes their own music, who makes their own clothes, their own shoes, they ARE "different" and people start to call you weird, but thaaaat makes you special, you're not different, you have two arms, two legs, one brain, one face, a navel, you're just a "sheep out of the herd BUT still a sheep"

^^ hi

Thanks Azu... ... For some reason I know inside me that you are in many thing able to understand me.

Thanks friend.

I really apreciate a lot to you .

jesús

@Lihn: May I can write to you later ?

I feel that I need more time for reply your comment ...


But, I will be fine .

no matter, do when you are easy...just want to say hi to you...long time, i got some troubles and not visited you recently...i wonder how are you?

Do you have problems ???, awww¡, this hurt to me ...

I´m Fine , dont worry for me, but I wish that you be fine and that you feel better. Please, if you can, send me a personal message coz I´m worried about you and the things that happen to you ...
Please, I need to know about you ...


I´m fine , in half of some business and more important, visiting the city , and doing business ¡¡.

I feel that this is fine, too fine , but also that means less time coz you know that when you do your business and work, you almost ever have less free time, but, some times, you got with this, more oportunitys for to do the things that like to you , I mean, I´m happy in this moment, althought I dont have free time I´m happy of reply this comment in half of 3 or 4 enterviews of business and although I have 7 comments more in my opera account, I will only reply this comment coz, is your, and coz your problems they worried to me and feel bad for this...

Friend, feel better knowing that, HERE in MÉXICO there are a friend that loves to you and care what happen to you, and cry if you feel bad or if simply you cry also...


With Love & Afection:

Jesús.

im feeling better now, thank you for your regards
in every ways, i hope you are doing well

i hope you can see this post and bee cheerful always

http://my.opera.com/brokenheartvn/blog/a-half-of-year-report-d

ps: plz dont worry much about my comments...sorry if they make you mind...just i want you to be easy and well always, get success and happiness, and be a my nice friend

Not problem Friend, is just that if something make to you feel a little bad, is natural that I worrie, but "just a little" because of you , is only that .


Thanks for your wishes , I´m fine, and I feel better right now, I´m here, doing something for improve and change my life , and I want that you know this .

I see you later .


PS: I will check later your post, is only that I should leave this place for to visit to some clients .... When I´m here in the city, I´m not owner of my time .

C´ya

jesús