Jessica Flores

A piece...

Friday, 23. January 2009, 19:33:49

Everything would have been perfect...why?

I'm stocked in a jigsaw and I can't find that missing piece...I need it, to finish this...

While I'm sitting here you're outside of my window wondering what I need...

While you're at my window..the sky is turning grey!...is it going to fall today?

While the sky is turning grey...the stars will cry their blackest tear tonight..

I'm searching...
You're thinking...
Sky is falling...
Stars are crying...

Can I just close my eyes?

No...

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Hello morning....here's a new thought

Friday, 23. January 2009, 19:26:42

December 6 1:37am

Even though many things always happen
I feel good...
Because out of those "many things"
I learn something

My new lesson was about you
But at the same time was about me..
I learned not to believe in actions

Actions can be revealing
But they can also be quite and hit you in the back as something you don't even hope will happen

I feel I made a mistake
Because I did things I think I didn't had to do
Things that can be pointed out as meaningless
But those meaningless things can torn into something huge

My meaningless things didn't torn into that something I waited for
So now I guess its time to leave and begin to see things as they are supposed to be, and as you point them to be

If you're a careful reader you should understand
And if you are more of the person who look out for something...then you'll sure find out a word that I certainly don't like...and even though I don't like it, I have learned a lot from its experience

We shouldn't decide on hapiness

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I wrote it, you label it

Wednesday, 18. June 2008, 05:19:55

My heart is filled with anger and pain
can you take it away?
well you said you can
but the truth is that you're more vulnerable than me
and if you try to heal me you will die
Trust me you will not die in vain
cuz I'll be here,
watching you suffer every second of your agony...your beautiful agony
You will see my face, it will be so pleased,
so pleased watching yours,
fading like the sand that is taken by the powerful sea to its dark and finite end
HA HA don't worry now
I'm not crazy, I'm just the monster you created,
so sad,
bcuz now your own creation is turning back on you...
and the saddest thing of all is that's just the beginning, the beginning of your new madness, or should I call it your new disease.
I'm going to be your worst but best nightmare
The worst because you'll want it to STOP but it WON'T...just a little taste of your own medicine.
Can you guess why it will be your best nightmare?
I don't think so, just because you may be thinking on a way to get rid of this mess, of this rope that's constricting yourself down to your own hell.
Well it will be your best nightmare because it's gonna be so damn perfect!; for me it is going to be, maybe for you too, but you will not see that until you realize what you did, and why you're deserving this...your personal HELL!
Thank me please, bcuz you don't have to go anywhere to find hell, bcuz with your own actions you've made your own, I'm just putting you in it and watching you play!
I'm laughing but it's not my usual laugh, the one that radiates happiness, no it isn't, now my laugh has turned into a quite one that doesn't tell you anything, it doesn't radiate any feeling, but for you, it will build fear, fear in your blue heart, fear in every step you take,
now you have to sleep with an eye open bcuz this is a curse,
and there's no one saving you from this one.
Oh so sad I was forgetting about it, maybe you don't even have a person that's there for you because you're an unwanted gift...everybody is wanting to open it, but the surprise is not that good, it just makes you want to throw it away.
Lier lier, my little lier
you're going to burn in your precious hell,
I can see now your shoes are melting...
OH they look so cute, I just can't wait to see you burnt
I'm paralyzed...my heart is paralyzed,
not by your beauty, that's some beautiful illusion I'll always keep with me.
It's paralyzed by the huge emotion that is perceiving watching you there burning in your lies, burning in your life, burning with your thoughts.....
What about me?
Well I'm not hurt, because you made me like this, I'm hurtless and my guiltiest pleasure is watching you suffer =)
My world is grey, filled with blanks
that want to be filled with your awful ideas product of your imperfect imagination.
Now I'm not so easily played,
your can't be my fucking friend,
once I wanted you to, but now it's just a waste,
you're just like everyone else.
I'm feeling passed out, like I'm not even in my body,
laughing like a drug addict
but enjoying every second of it
when my imagination is out of me
but inside you,
feeling you, and making me see everything I thought that could only be seen in a fantasy
every thing's being real now
and it just feels so good...
Now I got you where I want
so please let me out
this is almost over now
just let me go and I'll be pleased
not at all bcuz you're a part of me now.
Please give back what you stole from me
I'm standing with my heart in my hand,
it looks cute, cuz it's blue but I think is going to stay that way forever
there's no one capable of taking me out of the nightmare WE create.
I'll better throw it and live without it,
it's my worst addiction but I'll be capable of moving on.
It's better that way bcuz I won't be feeling this or anything,
I'll be capable of standing in front of people with a cold look,
I'll be capable of so many things I wasn't..
get ready for this
I'm taking off my dagger
It will tear your soul apart
watch out from me...

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From a feeling to an illusion

Tuesday, 17. June 2008, 00:07:48

It was quite beautiful to see you back
You talked to me; I felt I reached the sky
We were connected but at the same time we weren’t

Then you told me we should star over
We decided to take a shot
But it feels you wanted to hurt me
But still I let you in

Everything was supposed to change
And I was glad about it
Cuz I wanted to try too
but it seems that you create an illusion
and now you just want to enjoy watching me fade

I’m wondering where you are
Why aren’t you here like you say you will?
And you just vanish,,,
What about me…my illusion fades.

All the happiness that I had when you say start over
Turns into a bad memory that I no longer want to remember
Cuz once it was beautiful
But now it just seems to be ashes from a fire red that once existed…

…watch me fade…

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If I could only be away

Sunday, 15. June 2008, 23:32:59

If you drown I drown...we're only one / Away but

It's 12:55 and I'm sitting in this desk
My mind flows through a river of rumors
Runs through a deep sea full of untold truths...
Are them lies or is just my lack of confidence?

If I could only be away...
Away from the noise
Away from the sun,
Away from every little breathe
Because every feeling that I have
Reminds me of my life

WAIT! Life...
What’s life? What’s my life?
Can it be called like that?
Life is something beautiful to enjoy…

I wish my life was the sky over the deep sea and the endless river
Just to watch you,
Acting crazily to find an answer or maybe a new way to fool the things that surrounds you, while you’re drowning in the water

Right then, when I’m away
Maybe I’ll feel better watching you
But deep inside me
I’m drowning just as you are
Why? ...just take a look at our last days,
We are distantly together...we’re one!

Now I’m thinking
Do I want to be away?
I see you…you’re drowning,
You’re lying
You’re under my skin
And I don’t want you to drown...
don’t want to drown!