The Man in Thousand Mirrors

Ok..I had my fun today! Won 4 games of chess,but it felt n0t right..n0t like the last time i played! The last time i lost..but it felt i learned somethng! 2day, nothng,except that i realised that when it comes 2 a game,whether win or loose...especialy loose, dont get cought into what you have lost...you hav still the game(or what's left of it :-P ).
0nly when you start loosing focus you start loosing...just play on.
Thing is:When playing without tha premeditation of winning,it doesnt realy matter the outcome!(Which is unlike me!)But I won today without hoping,just the feeling that nothing matters.I had lost before...so i had only uhm... Oh ya! NOTHING 2 defend! No honour or image.
I hope 2 maintain this throughout life!