Please Bless me Father for I Have Sinned.....
Saturday, February 7, 2009 10:38:08 PM
....and what better time to see if those 2 Our Fathers, 3 Hail Mary's and 2 Glory Be's will get me out of yet another jam.And what better time than the present to use this forum, to let down this bag of bricks by opening my heart...bearing my soul would be a more appropriate description for detailing my "Truths" I really need to shed, if just for the sake of shedding them.
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Hi, my name is Jill. And, I'm a compulsive spender! (yeah, I know, you thought it was going to be juicier than this..LOL)(It WAS, but I chickened out and wrote this, instead...maybe next post)
I wanted to know if I really did have a serious problem or if I just felt guilty for spending too much money. (Nope, I never feel guilty...another truth)
So, I did some research and found this article.
Are You a Compulsive Spender?
Everyone deals with stress in different ways. Some people exercise or turn to food, while others spend money. The shiny bags filled with new clothes, fancy electronics and luxurious toiletries can temporarily fill a void, but that rush soon turns to guilt, especially after the bills arrive. Like eating or gambling, shopping can become a compulsion—even an addiction. Are your spending habits are out of control? Take this assessment and find out. Quiz
Results of the Assessment:
You Know When to Save and When to Splurge
Based on your answers to this assessment, it sounds like you do overspend from time to time, but still know how to (and are able to) control yourself. If you need a bit more help, consider creating and sticking with a budget if you don't already.
Needless to say, I don't agree with their assessment results. But then, who am I but just a compulsive spender and who feels no guilt in whatever I buy and I know why I'm buying it, other than for the obvious reasons; I either need it or want to have it.
I even went to see someone who deals in Obsessive-Compulsive Disorders and he didn't think I had a problem with spending too much money, it was the reason WHY I was spending it.He said that I did not meet the criteria, which includes low self-esteem and a multitude of other problems.
He believes that when I am under stress and feel trapped by a situation, I shop to feel better. And, you know what? He's right! It works! He also believes it is much better to buy something, even if I don't need it at the time and it is costly, than to turn to alcohol or drugs. He does think I have an addictive personality and the reason my business is probably going so well.
All in All I got a clean bill-of-health!
I also got a dinner date, if I agreed to "buy him a gift"!!!!












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night wolf # Sunday, February 8, 2009 7:41:26 AM
JillJillee # Sunday, February 8, 2009 9:38:32 AM
That's OK, it's a priveledge to get older, it really is.
Something else too and very important; the 'fear factor' has caused people to stop spending money which is further sucking the very life out of our economy.
I never fell into that, though I remained practical, I still spent money like I had a lot. It may sound strange but I liken it to.."Smile even when you don't have a reason to because soon you will have one."
When the Market crashed, so to speak, everyone panicked and pulled out the little they had left which further brought everyone else under.
It truly is a 'Domino-Effect.'
Our economy is going to get worse before it get's better. And, I've been advised and on the advice of those I've trusted for years and with my business, to start to withdrawl from certain banks because they are going to close. Although there is no interest paid on money in our possession, we know where it is when it comes time to reinvest.
Gold is very secure and always has been. And, if one doesn't have the funds to invest, sell everything you don't want and don't absolutely need and find a good financial advisor, but always keeping up by researching, on your own, and make some sound investments. The time has come!!!
Sorry my love this was so long, but your so precious to me, and I just love talking to my night owl friend!!
Enjoy your day and I look forward to the next snowfall!
Big Hugs!
night wolf # Sunday, February 8, 2009 10:11:38 AM
we got the 'fear factor' here 2...well it`s everywhere
I beleave in 'Domino-Effect.'
Gold IS very secure! *runs like hell to buy Gold*!
It`s cool i like long comments especially the informitive ones like your`s
Back atcha!
JillJillee # Sunday, February 8, 2009 10:59:57 AM
And I said...Oh, you're 58, that means I'll be 56 in March??? She laughed. That's really the only way I know how old I am.
Hey, I want a dancing picture, too!!
Don't work too hard and stay warm!!
Big Hugs:heart:
night wolf # Sunday, February 8, 2009 11:06:48 AM
Dancing?..what kinda dancing?..Tango...balai...
yes sir!! I mean mame!!
JillJillee # Sunday, February 8, 2009 12:32:42 PM
And, I LO V E to Tango...YES!
I'll do a Google search for animated avatars. You're just havin' too much fun in that cage!!!
Enjoy your lunch!!
Hugs
night wolf # Sunday, February 8, 2009 12:58:43 PM
!!!
I was feeling you needed one after you mentioned sister's BD
O.K tango with you soon
It`s not a cage, it`s a white 50X50 pix barrier A.K.A Dance Activity limit
night wolf # Sunday, February 8, 2009 1:00:00 PM
JillJillee # Sunday, February 8, 2009 2:11:55 PM
night wolf # Monday, February 9, 2009 11:05:08 AM
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 10, 2009 2:09:00 AM
How's my buddy tonight?
night wolf # Tuesday, February 10, 2009 11:35:04 AM
see ya
JillJillee # Wednesday, February 11, 2009 1:53:38 AM
night wolf # Wednesday, February 11, 2009 6:00:40 AM
JillJillee # Wednesday, February 11, 2009 6:07:15 AM
Early day tomorrow (well, today, now)...jumping in the shower.
BiGGGGGest Hugs!! My 'wolf man'!
night wolf # Wednesday, February 11, 2009 6:22:10 AM
Hugs in the shower?
night wolf # Thursday, February 12, 2009 3:13:38 PM
then i will deploy you link to all my friend`s
let`s do this what ya say?
Matthewnoah counte # Thursday, February 12, 2009 5:27:56 PM
As long as you're doing penance, don't forget to do a good Act of Contrition.
FIFINELEB # Thursday, February 12, 2009 5:50:04 PM
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JillJillee # Friday, February 13, 2009 5:37:37 AM
And, the reason he believes that for 'me' it's better to buy something than to turn to chemicals is because I layed it all out for him. I figured if I was going to be paying him an obscene amount of money, then I might as well try and get my money's worth.
I gave him instances where I always overspend and then I won't spend anything for a year.
The 12 Step Program/approach to living, is awesome. I went to a lot of AA meetings after I quit drinking and met some amazing people there. I still, to this day, do a moral inventory each night. It's a great way to introduce yourself...to self.
Gee Matt, did I really give all this up? YUP! It's incredibly easy to do, with you.
Thanks Friend:up:
JillJillee # Friday, February 13, 2009 5:46:45 AM
Thank You for the Valentine wishes! How very sweet! I hope yours is filled with lots of love and even a surprise or two! I'm sure you have someone special in your life and they are very lucky!
Matthewnoah counte # Friday, February 13, 2009 12:44:56 PM
I've never been to DA, but I know people who have been. For them it was about spending, not about debt.
I gave up drinking cold turkey, too (without AA). I did it because I woke up one afternoon, and decided I was sleeping through too much of life. It was a good decision, and by the time I was ready to drink again, I had come to the realization that my family tree is not a great place to imbibe. So, I just never started again.
I'm willing to bet that 70 or 80% of the clients I had as a lawyer who were in trouble, were there because of compulsive/addictive behavior. I have a tough time excusing poor behavior, regardless of the cause, but I am sympathetic to the inability to control your actions, even in the face of some pretty dreadful consequences, and how those consequences can ripple outward, affecting family, friends, coworkers, and even strangers.
I guess I'm just thinking out loud that given a choice between not digging myself a hole, and trying to climb out of a hole I've dug for myself, I'll pick the former.
I'm glad to see you back - I missed you.
Angelikiellinidata # Saturday, February 14, 2009 2:41:21 AM
JillJillee # Saturday, February 14, 2009 5:36:43 AM
(Thanks for sharing that, Matt!)
Me too. It was quite awhile after I stopped drinking before I felt a strong need, like I mentioned before, to get to, really get to know who Jill was.
And, after sharing with hundreds of beautiful souls, I found that it really does take an enormous amount of courage to admit that at one point or another in our lives (and no one is exempt from this) that our lives were unmanageable.
I also found that for everyone, their 'bottom' was so very different. For some....it was a memory. Others, waking up in an alley. Such extreme differences. The inner workings of our minds have always fascinated me.
You know what's funny, well, maybe not HA HA funny but strange? People become very uncomfortable when they see another lay open. And, I'm not referring to people involved with AA, no no. I am referring to those who would never admit to their character defects for fear of rejection from others.
I mention this because; I received a couple PM's asking me why I would admit to such distastrous goings-on within my personal life and it made me smile because my answer was...why not? (and these 'concerns' were from those I barely have any contact with...go figure??? Maybe it hit 'their' nerve? Hey, anything I can do to help...hehe!!)) Because I already know who I am and I'm content.
And, just as relationships are work, (but not that that can't be fun), so is the one that is valued and should be above all others, first and foremost....love of self. Always and in all ways...the gift we've all been blessed with. That incredible gift that allows us to lay open to be fed and to be watered, growing into one another, as we are all one.
We're all beautiful, baby!!! WEWEEE!!
Thanks for reading if you got this far...LOLL!!
You have a beautiful Valentine's Day, Matt and stay cool!
Peace Out:)
JillJillee # Saturday, February 14, 2009 6:15:02 AM
And, what are your plans for tomorrow? What surprise awaits New York?
I wish you a day filled with Love and Magic!
AngelikiAlwaysHasJillsLove:flirt:
Angelikiellinidata # Saturday, February 14, 2009 7:43:20 AM
I am helping a friend packing her household... she is moving away but still in NY State... no fancy plans were made on my part...but,
I see hidden chocolates that the kids bought and a Victoria's Secret bag
I don't know if there is actually a present in there or they reused the bag to present more sweets
I am excited to see ...
what about you my friend??
are you taking the little angel out to lunch?
*hugs* and all the best!
JillJillee # Saturday, February 14, 2009 7:58:46 AM
JillJillee # Saturday, February 14, 2009 8:08:30 AM
special! I want details!!
In fact, I have other plans this weekend. I may see my cutie Sunday
afternoon. I'll send you a pic of the two of us. She is so beautiful!
It sounds like you'll be busy, but do take time to leap tall buildings,
my caped/fearless galfriend!!!
Love You Bunches!
Angelikiellinidata # Saturday, February 14, 2009 8:12:29 AM
looking forward to the picture! I did not see her since last Valentines (or was it St Patrics Day? )
you were making cards .... it is a year after , she must be all grown up
JillJillee # Saturday, February 14, 2009 8:30:11 AM
It's hard to believe how fast they grow!
Love You, Too!!
Matthewnoah counte # Saturday, February 14, 2009 6:47:24 PM
I don't know if "distatrous" was a typo or not, but I LOVE that word. I think I'm going to use it.
I'm not very good at baring my soul, and I'm not always comfortable with some of the intimate details that I read about people online, but I do know that most of the things that trouble us about ourselves like darkness. They don't thrive in the light, so when you expose them, they have less hold on you.
I've known a number of people who believed that addictions run in threes - the phrase "I'm a triple winner" comes to mind - and all of them thought AA was a great place for people to get a handle on their drinking while acting out in other ways (rumor has it that Bill W might have benefited from SA meetings). My own compulsive behavior seems to occur one at a time - exercise, internetting, probably others - but they're usually pretty obvious to me, and now that I know myself well enough to recognize it, I am able to reflect on what's going on that requires palliative behaviors. One thing to be said for age is that you get a little wiser, if you are paying attention.
Love of self... It has a tendency to sound egocentric to us westerners. In Hinduism though, it's a pathway to God. Introspection and self study are actually the study of the Divine.
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 10:57:51 AM
Good Luck! And, Cheers to you!!
Thanks for stopping over and have a nice day!
Angelikiellinidata # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 2:13:11 PM
it's like "I want to forget everything and this wild moment will do it"
Matthewnoah counte # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 5:56:27 PM
Angelikiellinidata # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 6:02:02 PM
I just wanted to see if the rumors are valid ..
Matthewnoah counte # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 7:01:53 PM
Nah, sex addiction is not too serious...
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 7:19:12 PM
And, I'll be the first one here to admit that us westerners really do have...a lot to learn from other cultures.
So, we'll have to agree to disagree on this one!
I Love Ya, Matt!! And as always, thank you for such a noteworthy response!
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 7:21:42 PM
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 7:26:27 PM
Matthew, are we just a tad serious today?
Angelikiellinidata # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 7:48:50 PM
as for the sex thingy...
I met one man when I was in my late teens and married him
his addiction was loving me
since his passing I read about sex only
so I am curious to
find out about all the rumors out there
I feel sorry for his family Matthew,
I realy do
pride for $10 ..
I am addicted on buying books,
I am not perfect either but when I see alcoholics at the selter where I volunteer and HIV infected that contacted the virus by using drugs or having unprotected sex,
I realize how blessed I have been in my life...
books can also be passed down to my family members ...
AngelikiLovesJill
Matthewnoah counte # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 7:51:23 PM
I had a serious thought
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 8:14:40 PM
Beautiful and what greater gift while on this earth, than to be loved. Unconditionally....Loved! Yes, you have been blessed!
And, we're not 'supposed' to be perfect. That would take all the fun out of being human!!
I, like everyone else, live in a big, glass house!
JillLovesAngelikiBunches
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 8:19:08 PM
I agree, Matt! So, let's start toning down that arrogance!! hehe
I can tell you're frustrated. I must have a really high IQ!!
Any more serious thoughts....I'm listening.
Love ya Buddy and sending more hugs!
Angelikiellinidata # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 8:21:12 PM
"Michael loves me more than my own mother"... how can one forget such a gift ?
P.S.
as for:
" On a lighter note YEAH!!!!!!!!!!
*hugs*
JillJillee # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 8:30:49 PM
That's what is so beautiful about love....even when it's physically gone, our heart stays filled-up with all of those memories that no one, can take away from us and we continue to feel loved.
Michael is always with you, Angeliki.
Love is so, so grand!!
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And, this has been such a nice treat for me, talking with you and Matt, as I'm rarely, well, never on this time of day. It has been my "Afternoon Delight'!
Thanks guys...Hugs & Kisses!!
Angelikiellinidata # Tuesday, February 17, 2009 8:40:07 PM
stay
visit Opera more often
Matthewnoah counte # Wednesday, February 18, 2009 3:12:44 AM
By the way, you didn't need to recognize my frustration just to show off your high IQ
JillJillee # Wednesday, February 18, 2009 4:49:30 AM
Hoping your Wednesday is a 'good' work day. I'll be thinking of you!
Hugs still comin'!
Matthewnoah counte # Wednesday, February 18, 2009 2:27:30 PM
'Work,' these days, consists of looking for work (part of the explanation for my recent frustration).
JillJillee # Thursday, February 19, 2009 1:17:20 PM
I'm off to work now. Have a good day, Matt. Will be thinking of you.