A Country Bumpkin Offering Sunshine

I don't mean to neglect and forget my purpose of starting this English blog. It is just that my English doesn't get improved much these couple years, and I am frustrated easily by not being able to express myself in English as sophisticated as in Mandarin, Chinese. I often sound like a person who was not even graduated from an elementary school, which makes me so small and low. The other obstacle was that I got fired from my last part-time job at a local tour company two months ago.

I didn't screw things up but only was not as speedy and efficient as the company expected me to be. It hurt a lot. Imagine that, it is just a part-time office work but not some rocket science job, I couldn't even arrange to keep it. What a dumb person I have turned myself into! I have got recovered now and feel all right to accept my failure. Actually, I am glad that I didn't continue that job. It is not for me at all.(I know, it is typical self-defensive mechanism.) I could end up being very miserable if the boss didn't fire me. I know my English speaking and writing still suck(probably will always suck). Hiding myself from people is not a solution. I shall keep coming back and try a little more. I should. There is no place for me to give up now.