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My Younger Brothers


My youngest brother and youngest niece

Reading my youngest sister-in-law's latest blog entry brought me into tears. Suppressing my feelings toward my original family in Taiwan doesn't mean that I don't care any more. Maybe, I care too much and cannot bear with having to separate from my mom and two brothers very far and long, so that the only way to survive from the flood of pain is to shut down and think nothing about it. There are some moments that I doubt if it is worth it to give away my participation in my original family's growth for staying here. The thoughts break me into pieces. The best way to live on is to brush off the doubts. Here I am - brushing off the doubts again and again ... How long can I stand for it? I really don't have any idea. I am trying and trying my best to talk and think nothing about it.

Stepping in the Early Childhood Education Field

Comments

rachelfan 20. November 2009, 19:48

Dear Joy

Just wanna tell you that YOU ARE NOT ALONE and I totally understand the feeling you've been through! 親愛的小弟貴為人父,他的背影其實也是任何一個愛家男人的背影。想想自己的小手也曾經這麼被自己的爸爸厚實溫暖的大手牽過...然後到了自己這一代,就是這樣,家的溫情與牽絆。妳有妳自己的人生路,不要徬徨也不要憂傷,就是實在地告訴自己,時間到了,鮭魚總有一天會返鄉...。

Rachel

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