The Ex

Well, I am up at 5am....can't sleep....worried and stressed about the day ahead. My ex has once again filed papers (and so kindly gave me only 8hrs to seek legal representation and prepare) and is taking me to court for the 5th time since May 2010. I have fought it myself until this point, but I am so broke down emotionally that I don't think I can do it this time. I am scared...stressed....nervous....and now broke. I haven't been able to get Caleb a single thing for christmas and just spent what $ I had left out of my paycheck to pay a lawyer. This makes me feel like a BAD mommy