Tuesday, 19. December 2006, 12:12:27
Finally...
It is starting to look a lot like Chirstmas around here. I mean, I spent the money that should have gone to pay my cell phone bill on a Christmas Tree. Well, the tree was only $30 and the cell phone bill is WAY higher and I bought the tree thinking I had already paid the cell phone bill, but I had not. Long story short, I have a tree and no cell phone service.
I was going to take a picture of the tree and post it here, but alas, if you don't have cell phone service, you cannot send pictures from your phone, so I will describe my tree.
It is tiny.
Oh, you want more?
OK. It is 26 inches tall, including the cardinal (a red song bird) on the top of it and it is 12 inches in diameter. It has teeny red balls and teeny gold balls and teeny male cardinals and teeny female cardinals with teeny red bows tied on the ends of some of the branches. Oh, and it had twenty LED lights on it. Now there are 19 because one is burned out. Do you get a Charlie Brown image? Don't be sad. I LOVE my teeny tree. It has a lot of personal symbolism attached. So, getting back to the story, I put up a tree in my bedroom...
Well, my bedroom is SMALL only 10 feet by 10 feet and I have a full size bed, a dresser, a book shelf, a chest of drawers and a teeny chest of draws that doubles as a night stand and a big computer desk. The closet is big enough that my half contains all my clothes (now that I got the rest of them out of #1's house) can hang in there. #2 has stuff stored in the other half of the closet.
Yes, it's small and cozy, but, it's home.
Where was I? Oh, the Christmas Tree.
I have, for many years, not contributed to the celebration of Christmas, which has, in the US and in my own family, become more about the gifts one receives instead of about Christ's birthday and the true meaning of Christmas which is love and giving.
Sidebar: Baby Jesus wasn't born on December 25, by the way. Most Christmas traditions, from Santa Claus, St. Nicholas, Father Christams, the decorated tree inside, the decorated tree outside, candles, a Christmas feast, to gift giving, are based on non-Christian celebrations. Historically, Jesus was probably born in October, but we don't know for sure. The point is, rather than celebrating the fact that the Messiah was born, most people in the US have switched to worshipping the God of Commerce... I believe in Greek Mythology that was Hermes. I also know that calling it Hermes-mas is really hard to pronounce, so most people just stick with Christmas. Still the God of Commerce flourishes in the US because without the much anticipated Christmas Season many businesses will fail.Sidebar 2.0: I also realize this is not the case with every person in the US. Many still know how to capture that Christmas feeling.So, this year, I decorated a little tree and put it in my room, hoping to engender some Christmas Spirit within me. Why? Because I am feeling depressed on a number of levels which I won't go into now. The important question here is, did it work? Do I feel the Spirit of Christmas after putting up a teeny tree?
No.
So, lesson learned, Christmas isn't a tree or a gift. It is the feeling inside one gets when one does something for someone else and that can't be found in a tree or a prettily wrapped package. That is found inside, in the heart. That is where Christmas truly is.
So, this is my Christmas gift to everyone:
Happiness in the form of a teeny smile