Monday, August 27, 2007 4:56:23 AM
Lately I've really been expanding my musical tastes even further than usual. Buying random albums, downloading totally random music, and so on. So far I've gotten Year Zero from Nine Inch Nails, the new The Guest Bedroom EP, something called Freudstein and a bunch of other obscure things to add to my odd collection. So far, I've loved basically all of it. I think I'm gaining an appreciation of music, rather than a genre.
Incidentally, I don't count rap as music.
While that statement may seem a bit hypocritical as rap is a genre, I really just dislike the whole, rap/hip-hoppity cap bustingly weird scene that goes with it. I don't need bling nor babes. I mention this because I do enjoy lots of rap/metal-fusion, numetal-style stuff that's been appearing in the recent times. So it would appear to be more hypocritical of me to enjoy this while not counting rap as music. Oh well.
At any rate, it's time to play WoW then research web application security, followed by alcohol.
And yes, that does sound weird.
Saturday, August 25, 2007 7:27:02 AM
So, as suggested by a few friends, I am going to make a post under the severe influence of alcohol. I'm quote suprised I'm typing even this well. But perhaps that is because I am a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to these things. Even when I can barely walk, I want to make a good impression.
Anyways, tonight was a fun night, as the recent fridays with my coworkers has been. Although I did meet a rather interesting female whose name I did not ask, although I have become inebriated around her a few times now via my manager. I do recall catching that she would only be in town shortly, perhaps which is why I did not persue her further. Either way, she did try to analyze me. Quite the fruitless effort. She insisted that I was acting mysterious and that if I am not asexual, I should try to show at least a small chink in this veil of mysterious armor I wield. I insisted I am who I am, if it is attractive mentally or physically matters not. I'd rather be true to myself rather than attempt to be fraudulent in who I am to attempt to gain a relatioship or otherwise.
So, while I do think that perhaps I am playing the part of the mysterious guy, I am also being myself. Allowing myself to be anytihng other than me, would well, not be me, as I am truthful. If I cannot even be true to who I am, how would I even being to be true to other people? At any rate, it was a fun night other than this existential debate this amazing lady has brought into my head.
But, I do have to wake up in about 5 hours so I can work in 6, so as my manager suggested, I am going to get some sleep. Hopefully this post wasn't totally incoherent and I can gain some wisdom from it in the morning.
"I am myself, if I try to be someone else, not only would that be lying, but since I am truthful, it would furthermore not be me."
Friday, August 24, 2007 6:01:05 AM
I've been really busy with a new job, I moved to a new apartment and more. So, I've decided to finally start using this blog to go with everything else in my life that's new.
I have nothing really to say at the moment except for that I'm busy.
Well, I think I'm also on the verge of some sort of existential epiphany. Plenty of debate and research in the recent days, perhaps I'll write a short paper on it soon. Anyways, here is a quote of something I've said in the recent days. I'll try to include one with each post as I usually make many semi-wise statements.
"People go into a situation with an idea of what they want, then find evidence to support it. That's not finding the truth, that's making it."
"Regardless of what I find, I'll be living my life as I have been. If a God exists, my sins will be forgiven and all should be well with my eternal soul. If not, I'm going to die and rot so it doesn't matter anyways."
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