Saturday, January 3, 2009 6:46:47 PM
its 12:00 AM and m on a high. The most conspicuous question that unearths is "what it means and feels to be on a HIGH ?" Since m not among those who are capable enough to explicate general situations, i will try and describe my own experiences about having the feeling of the ecstatic joy that common masses call "OUT". Well lemme tell you, I have had this experience only 3 times in the past and have grasped quite a in-depth understanding of the concept. In my views, when one is on a high:
1. One is in a state of amplified version of his idiosyncrasy and is not at all affected by the happenings around him. He doesn't care about the atmosphere around him and is mostly oblivious to other's feelings. If he is someone like me, he would listen to his favorite numbers at the peak volume, babble meaningful and meaningless stuff, try and do some physical stunts etc. Furthermore almost every other moment the phrase "Dude, m not out, m totally in control" might be heard from him.
2. He might reveal some of his secrets that otherwise stays hidden in the depths of his mind. At the same time, he may appear and behave in a surreptitious manner. In fact, the common rule he sticks to is "there is no rule" !!.
3. He may feel like jotting down some of his current feelings, either using a pen (if he has one) or a keyboard (if he can afford one
). I have a keyboard and don't feel like adding much to this post and plan to keep this blog alive by adding posts later if I am alive...
so for now... bbye guys and gals !!!!
Friday, June 20, 2008 3:18:07 PM
I am searching for it. I dont know the answer yet . I still don't know where i am heading. I have a vague idea about my whereabouts and a faint knowledge about my passions, and I see no other option but to go along the path guided by these. Very often I stumble upon some strange thoughts that compel me to think if I am doing the right thing or not.That is, if my steps are directed to what I dreamt of in childhood and aim at, currently. Whatever it is, I am sure I'm not that serious and my concentration is not tractable enough to make me believe that I am doing the right thing. 9 out of 10 times i see myself lost and feel like starting over. But the very next moment I pull myself back thinking its too late now to attempt such a immature act of undoing my work because at this juncture, i believe a start over will only make the time ahead more difficult for me.[/COLOR]
Saturday, June 16, 2007 7:10:45 PM
Everything was going with the flow until my project in charge suggested that we do need to have a look at the place, the satellite will shoot. After all its a matter of thousands of dollars. So what next? we took the GPS, had a look at the area at http://www.wikimapia.org and planned our journey. The belt we were looking for stretched between Panskura and
Ghatal.
I knew it was going to be a hell of a time for me. why? coz its me who always has problems with this and that! Now it was the hours to be spent inside a car that too in this scorching heat. Often I experience nausea in such conditions. The journey started quite smoothly and was even smoother when we reached NH6 (national highway - 6).The road was so flawless, it felt like floating over a thin aura of hot air. A thin cloud cover made the situation more pleasant. But then when i was busy enjoying the motion we entered the difficult part of the task.
Thursday, May 24, 2007 6:28:22 PM
Summer holidays are a time to break free but this isn't the case with me.Being not lucky enough to get a FT, I had to choose kgp as my destination for this summer thinking that everything would be fine once you get something in your head to ponder on. Yeah I am talking about the so called academic PROJECTS that are supposedly the way to develop a broader and a more practical field of knowledge. Days were quite ok till kgp started showing its true colors. I am talking about the high temperature that cooks you up and the infinite humidity that drains every other drop of water out of your tiring body. This being one of my experiences about the conditions of kgp. You get frustrated of the war between the fan,rotating a few feet above your head, trying its best to keep you dry and the humid heat squeezing sweat out of you. Most of the time the latter wins by a long margin. Cases grow worse when you get a professor like the one i am working under!
Bearing all these i continued my work until something really annoying and strange peeped in. POWER CUTS are so rare in West Bengal and are not expected at all in IITs but this time the special cases worked quite well.
Power cuts are so common now a days over here, sometimes power goes for 4 to 5 hrs! and when it does, it reminds me of my hometown dhanbad where atleast the power cuts were bearable because of the less humidity over there. On the contrary ,here it just makes me idle and wet!
With all these external disturbance "factors" you expect your luck to be with you, but oh dear! this sentence doesn't bother me. Recently, a few days ago i lost my cycle key. This was followed by UPS's battery giving up. Now wait there's more to come. My fluorescent bulb stopped glowing. And then I got a sore throat! All of these happened in a queue and they made me utter "man!! i'm screwed!"
Tuesday, May 22, 2007 7:02:10 PM
Yeah!! I too am in the blogging world now. It's quite amazing to me as I never pictured myself blogging like I'm doin' now. This atleast saved my time to decide the topic of my first blog. So? why blog? Well it didn't take time for me to figure out the reason...just to kill time! seriously you won't find any other way to use your idle time just use your fingures help mirror your mind and precisely translate your feelings into words. But surprisingly I've got another reason too! I blog 'coz i've seen some of my favourite people i've known( actually my idles) blogging. This is one of my 'characteristics' to try 'n' acquire some the features that I come accross. I think there's an advantage of bloggin' and that is one is able to keep a list of some of his memorable events of his life. Ok then! don't feel like adding much to this post. Let the first one be short and compact and see what's the next topic. Believe me! I'm eager than anyone else for it!!
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