My Opera1st December - rainy day and self broken hearted girl
Thursday, December 1, 2011 5:41:32 AM
Can't believe that within a week I dream again and dream bout you ML..
This is a strange dream and it lasted so long...
In my dream....
You were here, has something to do with my study or work.. you are a kind of lecture.
I was so nervous seeing you standing in classes .. and my heart beats for you again..
Questioned why are you back here?
We had a cafe and pep talked.. You said the year ago you were in japan because the people at the company made a mistake while picking you up at the airport.. lol that is a very stupid reason my brain produced.
You looked so different.. much older and tired .. but there is still something in you that I love.. your eyes.. it still feel the same when I look at them... but.. I dont have the nerve to look it directly..
.. (well, while writing it you are now online in skype)
We hang out couple days after class just like old time.. and I also found out some girl in the class had a crush on you and I told you that..
The girls got jealous because they all wonder why I always had the nerve to speak to you.
Maybe this is the class for master students because a classmate there is also an employee at my company now.. she is always very nice, she came to me and asked as if I like "our new handsome teacher" .. I said " I don't know, I know him before, he is my ex" ..
And she smiled.
We hang out some more, going into crowded places that is sometimes barely to move.. so I grabbed your arm's jacket in order not to get lost .. I so want us to hold hand and walk.. I thought it was a chance for me to do it because we didnt do it before.. but I was afraid of your reaction that would hurt me so I didnt do it..
We went to many places.. I am the guide again.. but I avoid all old places.. but still wondering that I should go there with you or not..
Then you got a phone call. we leave the building.. which I suppose it is the school.. and you met your friends and hang out with them.. and I just continue to walk alone and swallow the tears inside me..
Nothing is real but why does my heart hurt when I wake up?
I hurt myself again...
My friends will be angry with me if they hear me say... :" I am so frustrated with all the things between us and disappointed but...Duckie.. I still love you with my entire heart"
I miss your smell, I want to see your smile and listen to your laughing voice.. </3
In my dream.. I have the feeling that you have changed some prospect in your live.. but you are still in the hunger to prove yourself and to be succeed .. and you are tiring yourself out..
And my feelings is still the same.. I want to be by your site supporting you are taking care of you the way I could..
Silly pathetic me right?
This is a strange dream and it lasted so long...
In my dream....
You were here, has something to do with my study or work.. you are a kind of lecture.
I was so nervous seeing you standing in classes .. and my heart beats for you again..
Questioned why are you back here?
We had a cafe and pep talked.. You said the year ago you were in japan because the people at the company made a mistake while picking you up at the airport.. lol that is a very stupid reason my brain produced.
You looked so different.. much older and tired .. but there is still something in you that I love.. your eyes.. it still feel the same when I look at them... but.. I dont have the nerve to look it directly..
.. (well, while writing it you are now online in skype)
We hang out couple days after class just like old time.. and I also found out some girl in the class had a crush on you and I told you that..
The girls got jealous because they all wonder why I always had the nerve to speak to you.
Maybe this is the class for master students because a classmate there is also an employee at my company now.. she is always very nice, she came to me and asked as if I like "our new handsome teacher" .. I said " I don't know, I know him before, he is my ex" ..
And she smiled.
We hang out some more, going into crowded places that is sometimes barely to move.. so I grabbed your arm's jacket in order not to get lost .. I so want us to hold hand and walk.. I thought it was a chance for me to do it because we didnt do it before.. but I was afraid of your reaction that would hurt me so I didnt do it..
We went to many places.. I am the guide again.. but I avoid all old places.. but still wondering that I should go there with you or not..
Then you got a phone call. we leave the building.. which I suppose it is the school.. and you met your friends and hang out with them.. and I just continue to walk alone and swallow the tears inside me..
Nothing is real but why does my heart hurt when I wake up?
I hurt myself again...
My friends will be angry with me if they hear me say... :" I am so frustrated with all the things between us and disappointed but...Duckie.. I still love you with my entire heart"
I miss your smell, I want to see your smile and listen to your laughing voice.. </3
In my dream.. I have the feeling that you have changed some prospect in your live.. but you are still in the hunger to prove yourself and to be succeed .. and you are tiring yourself out..
And my feelings is still the same.. I want to be by your site supporting you are taking care of you the way I could..
Silly pathetic me right?
