Lilliana

An annoyance?

Tuesday, 5. December 2006, 17:12:28

I sometimes think I am really annoying to people. Maybe it's my self confidence (there isn't much of it), but it annoys me how other people get what they want, when they want. It must be down to confidence and people like that in them. I try to be confident, but it never really works. I think it just ends up putting people off me... I don't quite know what the deal is!!!

Bah - I know I am probably being stupid, but I don't have many friends... It take me ages to trust someone enough to call them my friend. So when it comes to my bf... Maybe I can be a little insecure, but essentially I do trust him. I am just scared of losing the people I care about so much as there aren't many.

I love my.opera.com because I have met some great people that get to know me for who I really am and they have always given me great advice. It's a pity they aren't here in person

Well... I guess at the moment, I am feeling a little low... I wanna feel loved. Loads of people I know are moving to the next stages with their partners and stuff and although I feel that I do everything I can, maybe I AM doing something wrong. Dammit, I know I shouldn't be thinking lilke this, but I guess everyone wants to be loved and know it.

I am happy.... I just wanna be loved.

I'll stop my rant - It probably made no sense to you guys anyway!

L xx

Weekened WondersA nice night

Comments

dɹɐzılpǝkɔıw ɐʞɐ ɹǝɥgɐllɐg lǝbɐsı # 5. December 2006, 19:14

nah!

the respect comes with age, my dear...

hang in there! Keep your head up and don´t let it get you down. I went through all that in my 20´s and once you´re older people look at you differently, as if only when you´re 35 or something is when you are considered a real adult with real responsibilities. Enjoy life for what it is and learn from it. You´re doing fine.

Dan DeVille # 6. December 2006, 00:59

L,

You do make sense, and you are loved.
By your BF (as we can all read by your posts), by all of us here at the Community.

I truly feel that you're an amazing person (personally, specially) and people like you the way you are.
Let it be, and be sure there's nothing better than being yourself, always.

You're not gonna lose the people you love, 'cause they like/love you as well, and of course, they feel the same way. They don't want to lose you either. I wouldn't.

Love,
Dan