The way I see this world :-)

So, finally I'm ready to post something non-photo =). It's time to write a bit about my life. Main news are: We're together again with my love! Exactly a week ago (this post was originally posted on Friday 18) I was sitting in the office making a plan, how can we meet...I called people, was looking for any information...and finally I've got to know that she is ill at home...the bad news were that I've never been at that home, cause she change her flat to a new one and no one know exact address...It's normal for us =) Any way reversal point already was reached and left somewhere behind. It was God damn difficult to wait till the end of workday...close to evening I started to nerves, hands starts shacking...nevertheless I've went to Troitsk (her city - it's a Moscow district not far away from Moscow) where "special" man was waiting for me to show me her home..It was so hard while going by bus...so many thoughts...so many fears... when we were already moving to her house we were talking about her reaction, about what could happen...I had no clue how can she behave...so here I am...right in front her door:

It takes some time to compile all my thoughts about how to call her (door ring, telephone)...I called her via telephone:

- Hello
- Hello
- How are you?
- I'm Ill
- Yeah, I know
- I'm glad you're informed
- Can I ask you something?
- Yes, sure
- Open a door
- WHERE ARE YOU?
- I'm staying in front of metal door on your floor
- Hold on...

Hang up phone, my heart goes to heels...door opened...

--OMG how many thoughts run in my head in that moment...starting from what will happen right now, what will she say, what will she do and up to How I missed her, How beautifully she is What a fool I am--

- You brought me my skates?
- No, sorry, not this time
- I came to you!

It was a moment of unlimited , all-absorbing happiness...it was incredible...but all this 3 months and 7 days were biggest mistake (or greatest experience about what I SHOULD NOT DO in my life)

Then it turns out that Ira (her roommate) is away for whole weekend and I've stayed for a night...it was unforgettable...we were talking till 4 AM or even more...one interesting thing: starting the moment when we've embraced each other in the corridor and till now the smile is still on my face and heart is burning with fire again! Yep, now I'm a flame bird again, who is always feel hot...with a little correction to my health, that is scares even my mom...

I will not describe all other days, it's not so important. Just one thought and one event:

Event:

My parents had an anniversary yesterday: 21 year since they married. You know...I have not seen them such happy for a very long time. We were sitting on the kitchen talking...this faces...full of happiness, the faces of loving people...it was unforgettable...and I've realized, that parents for me is inseparable meaning, that mom and dad are the same for me - they are parents, but not mom and dad...and I'm so sorry that it's not true for everyone...and I'm very happy that our family as a whole.

Thought

I've done so many tasks this week. I'm very successful at work, in on-line life and in personal life as well ;-) The major point is that I remember what it means To be happy, cause I've really forgot it... I have no idea where are all this strength. ideas, plans came from. It's like a new life started...may be this 3 months were necessary for that. I know that I will do my best to make US happy! And I know we will! Cause I love you so much my kitten! All other does not matter!!!

I've got some other thoughts, but they will come in a while. Breaking all deadlines I've did it, I've wrote this post. More coming soon, stay on positive wave!

Yours truly, Alex

All comment and suggestion (regarding my english and the post as well) are very welcome! =]

Yesterday was a very important and cool day. Even the atmosphere was you know like before holiday, but let's go point-by-point.

1) Yesterday our EUR IT Leader came - Kokot Zeljko, who is responsible for IT over whole Europe region and at the same time he is my second line manager after Alex. He is a amazing person. His voice complete fits to his appearance and his "internal world". =) It's a real positive in real man. He isn't tall enough and bald. :-) It was extrim pleasant to meet him personally, cause I've first know him since my 3rd part of the interview process on end of January 2007 and he was the final decisioned making person.

2) So, as I've told you before, yesterday was a day when we'll make a decision about my future in this company. What can I say? I'm in!!! =) The decision is so: Starting January 1st 2008 I will prolong my contract for half-year with increased salary for xx% and work day to 8 hours + paid overtimes. And starting 1st of June I'll become a full-time employer. It was made with my agreement, because we still don't know what will be in half-year. We are planning to re-organize people, structure, responsibilities and so on. Probably Alex will support Kiev office at full time, may be we will support it together...so still no vision how it will be. Salary is fine for me, tasks and responsibilities too, so everyone happy. Also I've been provided with a NY bonus - xxx EUR to my salary.

3) Also we have a decision about my feedback, summary of my performance and so on.. The scared me in the beginning. They were sitting with a stone faces and gave me a printout with graph where all parameters were around 2...and scale was from 0 to 5...I thought I'm dead :-) But then they explained me what it is: no one takes 0 (zero) =), 5 - means that you are complete foul :-) 4 - you're doing bad, 3 - perfect match - your doing what BCG expect from you. The best place to be.. 2 - is like 3 but there is lots of pro activity and so on, so you're doing great and can relax a bit :-) 1 - is you're doing like god and no way to grow...that's the bad place to be, cause people can handle it for 2 years max and then they are so tired that cannot work any more here... So I've got 2 and that's great! After that I read comments from people about my work - was a bit good surprised..

4) At evening time we went to the restaurant "Na Melnitse"...nice place, there was lots of jokes, we were talking a lot and spend evening great. In close future I will meet personally every IT guy I talk to in every day work :-) It's the way the team work in BCG. Zeljko promised.

So, in summary: Everything is more then great with job! I'm happy. A bit pity that work is just a part of life, cause over wise I'll be totally happy...

P.S. I just want to thank Alexander from HeadHunter.ru team who helped me in decision to send my CV to The Boston Consulting Group Moscow Limited and for his support during the 2 week interview process! THANK YOU!

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Please correct me if there are any way to improve my language, cause it's a really big post you know :-)

Zeljko didn't come yesterday, his plane was postponed till today. He will land at 12:50...~ at 3 PM will be in the office (in case of traffic jams). I've found that today not only my future will be discussed, so Alex is nervous a bit too. We are beautifully today. Already 3 people asked us: Today is a beauty IT guy day?

So, tomorrow morning Zeljko will arrive in Moscow. It's our EUR IT Leader and my 2nd Line Manager. We've got a supper with him and other officers on Wednesday. Agenda includes IT in Moscow office and my future in this company....a bit scaring...but it's okay...I guess...on Friday we'll have a corp. party regarding upcoming New Year holidays...I'm coming alone...pre-paid bar...that's all I need to be happy...

the weekend is over and it feels like it were another 2 work days. saturday i've spent on work completing weeks tasks. Sunday's evening I spent with my friend walking in the park. That was nice...but I was confused a little when she asked me to spend New Year night with her...no way...we're just friends...also her "goodbye kiss"...friends are not kissing that way...what the fuck is going on? I've told everyone that I'm going to spend NY night alone with bottle of Olmeca Silver...