The way I see this world :-)

So, finally I'm ready to post something non-photo =). It's time to write a bit about my life. Main news are: We're together again with my love! Exactly a week ago (this post was originally posted on Friday 18) I was sitting in the office making a plan, how can we meet...I called people, was looking for any information...and finally I've got to know that she is ill at home...the bad news were that I've never been at that home, cause she change her flat to a new one and no one know exact address...It's normal for us =) Any way reversal point already was reached and left somewhere behind. It was God damn difficult to wait till the end of workday...close to evening I started to nerves, hands starts shacking...nevertheless I've went to Troitsk (her city - it's a Moscow district not far away from Moscow) where "special" man was waiting for me to show me her home..It was so hard while going by bus...so many thoughts...so many fears... when we were already moving to her house we were talking about her reaction, about what could happen...I had no clue how can she behave...so here I am...right in front her door:

It takes some time to compile all my thoughts about how to call her (door ring, telephone)...I called her via telephone:

- Hello
- Hello
- How are you?
- I'm Ill
- Yeah, I know
- I'm glad you're informed
- Can I ask you something?
- Yes, sure
- Open a door
- WHERE ARE YOU?
- I'm staying in front of metal door on your floor
- Hold on...

Hang up phone, my heart goes to heels...door opened...

--OMG how many thoughts run in my head in that moment...starting from what will happen right now, what will she say, what will she do and up to How I missed her, How beautifully she is What a fool I am--

- You brought me my skates?
- No, sorry, not this time
- I came to you!

It was a moment of unlimited , all-absorbing happiness...it was incredible...but all this 3 months and 7 days were biggest mistake (or greatest experience about what I SHOULD NOT DO in my life)

Then it turns out that Ira (her roommate) is away for whole weekend and I've stayed for a night...it was unforgettable...we were talking till 4 AM or even more...one interesting thing: starting the moment when we've embraced each other in the corridor and till now the smile is still on my face and heart is burning with fire again! Yep, now I'm a flame bird again, who is always feel hot...with a little correction to my health, that is scares even my mom...

I will not describe all other days, it's not so important. Just one thought and one event:

Event:

My parents had an anniversary yesterday: 21 year since they married. You know...I have not seen them such happy for a very long time. We were sitting on the kitchen talking...this faces...full of happiness, the faces of loving people...it was unforgettable...and I've realized, that parents for me is inseparable meaning, that mom and dad are the same for me - they are parents, but not mom and dad...and I'm so sorry that it's not true for everyone...and I'm very happy that our family as a whole.

Thought

I've done so many tasks this week. I'm very successful at work, in on-line life and in personal life as well ;-) The major point is that I remember what it means To be happy, cause I've really forgot it... I have no idea where are all this strength. ideas, plans came from. It's like a new life started...may be this 3 months were necessary for that. I know that I will do my best to make US happy! And I know we will! Cause I love you so much my kitten! All other does not matter!!!

I've got some other thoughts, but they will come in a while. Breaking all deadlines I've did it, I've wrote this post. More coming soon, stay on positive wave!

Yours truly, Alex

All comment and suggestion (regarding my english and the post as well) are very welcome! =]