Trust...
Sunday, 6. July 2008, 20:27:20
I dont know how many i have lied too... Just to make it better for me.. i have always been the lazy one that dont want to fight. I guess i have a BIG ego inside my head screaming * DO WHATS BEST FOR YOU AND FUCK THE OTHERS!* I really hate that voice..! And i know that i hurt peaples feelings when i do.. I just dont have the time to care for everyone else.. Some say that i am cold.. Like ice.. Others say im afraid.. And i think... I dont really know what i think anymore.. Inside my head is just a big black cloud taking over.. And im afraid of that.. Afraid of beeing alone. But how can i be with someone when Im afraid that they will get to close to my heart? And that i will just do something stupid to push them away again.. Even to my best friend i do.. So the real question is.. How can anyone trust me??
It shouldn’t be so hard… except that is like a million of them out there! Sure, I could just start dating them and se but.. COME ON! That would take like forever! And here is another question, why is love important? I mean, kids are made from sex and do you really have to love the person for that? Doesn’t seem like that when its about guys. They are like, Hi wanna have sex? I really hate guys that act like that..! I just wonder why love is important for a few ppl when almost the whole world thinks different? So when someone tells me why love is important I might start to think that love really exist..
WIDGETIZE