Lost Girl

I dont know how many i have lied too... Just to make it better for me.. i have always been the lazy one that dont want to fight. I guess i have a BIG ego inside my head screaming * DO WHATS BEST FOR YOU AND FUCK THE OTHERS!* I really hate that voice..! And i know that i hurt peaples feelings when i do.. I just dont have the time to care for everyone else.. Some say that i am cold.. Like ice.. Others say im afraid.. And i think... I dont really know what i think anymore.. Inside my head is just a big black cloud taking over.. And im afraid of that.. Afraid of beeing alone. But how can i be with someone when Im afraid that they will get to close to my heart? And that i will just do something stupid to push them away again.. Even to my best friend i do.. So the real question is.. How can anyone trust me??